A gift for you all

[roxyruby]

Just thought I'd let you know, I've been thinking about sending presents to all my forum friends. Of course I couldn't do that though, that takes a lot of money (I wish I could!). So I was just going to write a personal letter to you all. Including SP especially cause it was nice of him to send me his book. So if we've chatted and befriended eachother on the forum please private message me your posting address!

I also have skype. Can you talk to people on skype overseas? It's video communication isn't it? If anyone was interested in that too....

[st33med]

I would love to talk to you on Skype

Look up my forum nick

[roxyruby]

Originally Posted by st33med

I would love to talk to you on Skype

Look up my forum nick

what do you mean look up forum nick?

[st33med]

I meant on skype. You can find me on skype by looking up my forum nick (st33med).

[roxyruby]

Originally Posted by st33med

I meant on skype. You can find me on skype by looking up my forum nick (st33med).

ok

[Zach M]

You're awesome, Roxy. Not many people take that kind of initiative. PM sent.

[roxyruby]

Originally Posted by Zach Matley

You're awesome, Roxy. Not many people take that kind of initiative. PM sent.

Thank YOUUUUUU )))))

[roxyruby]

Originally Posted by st33med

I meant on skype. You can find me on skype by looking up my forum nick (st33med).

I will have to do some work overcoming my social anxiety. I decided to go look you up on skype asap. But then I thought I would feel so sick with anxiety on a video chat. But then I thought, imagine it's just like talking to someone I know well like my bf, I'd just be like "hey! what you been up to?" etc lol

I used to go on webcam sometimes and I would be so perfectionistic about how I looked I would constantly look at the video feed of my self to make sure I looked good lol and would sit & pose in just the right position to make my self look the best. Wierd I know! I think I was terrified of looking "ugly"
So it's probably actually easier to talk to someone in real life than on a video chat, cause on a video chat I can see what I look like to the other person and usually, if I think I look ugly it makes me feel awful and like an "ugly person"

Maybe there is really something wrong with my perception of my self. Seeing other people as attractive but often seeing my self as ugly. I don't know.

[Zach M]

Originally Posted by roxyruby

on a video chat I can see what I look like to the other person

Remember that no one looks as good in photos as they do IRL. Even for professional models, it takes a lot of effort to make them look good. Don't forget all the people who remind you how beautiful you are inside and out. You don't think they're wrong, do you?

[James81]

Originally Posted by roxyruby

Maybe there is really something wrong with my perception of my self.

One of these days, perhaps, you'll take a bold look inside of yourself and see what's causing that, where it came from, and perhaps see it for what it really is.

[ssandra]

Originally Posted by roxyruby

I also have skype. Can you talk to people on skype overseas? It's video communication isn't it? If anyone was interested in that too....

Originally Posted by roxyruby

I will have to do some work overcoming my social anxiety. I decided to go look you up on skype asap. But then I thought I would feel so sick with anxiety on a video chat. But then I thought, imagine it's just like talking to someone I know well like my bf, I'd just be like "hey! what you been up to?" etc lol

Hi Roxy,

I'd love working on my own anxiety regarding phones, skype and video chat... And of course I'd love talking to you as well!

I'll sent you a pm (also with my email address)

Love you!

[st33med]

Oh, we could do a conference call.

But if it is to much for y'all, one at a time is fine.

[lifetimelearner]

no skype


oh and BTW the only gift I want is for you to feel good about and love yourself for the beautiful,beautiful girl that you are
love you

[Jon Tore]

I could possibly have the guts to be in a conference call if that's what it's called, with several persons. If an awkward silence lasts more than 10 seconds I'll start crying/laughing and faint, probably taken to the hospital. I also enjoy exaggerating. But I'm so young, it would be embarassing to let my parents know I'm talking to people from a "random forum". Maybe one time I'm fairly alone. I want to give you a gift too, some weirdo drawing or so. My posting address would be a bit inpractical, I don't feel like sharing my fascination for all this weirdness forum stuff with my parents. I can make a drawing based on the posts in the ridiculously long answer thread though, they have some funny moments

[AlmostGodess]

Oh, Roxy, could I get a letter too, please? I love receiving letters

PM done!

[roxyruby]

Originally Posted by Jon Tore

I could possibly have the guts to be in a conference call if that's what it's called, with several persons. If an awkward silence lasts more than 10 seconds I'll start crying/laughing and faint, probably taken to the hospital. I also enjoy exaggerating. But I'm so young, it would be embarassing to let my parents know I'm talking to people from a "random forum". Maybe one time I'm fairly alone. I want to give you a gift too, some weirdo drawing or so. My posting address would be a bit inpractical, I don't feel like sharing my fascination for all this weirdness forum stuff with my parents. I can make a drawing based on the posts in the ridiculously long answer thread though, they have some funny moments

Yes I might start crying or faint from a panic attack too. Or have a long awkward silence. Like "I'm expected to talk RIGHT NOW aren't I! Not just whenever I am ready to click "post" Oh ♥♥♥♥♥!!" At least we're not alone. ^ ^

[roxyruby]

Anyway more addresses please! Unless you don't care about recieving a letter from me and would just throw it out or something.

[roxyruby]

come on forum friends I need your postage addresses to be able to send you a note!

[ssandra]

Originally Posted by roxyruby

come on forum friends I need your postage addresses to be able to send you a note!

Email not good enough?

I love getting emails! Better then getting letters in the mail, cause the mail here isn't all that reliable...

[roxyruby]

Originally Posted by ssandra

Email not good enough?

I love getting emails! Better then getting letters in the mail, cause the mail here isn't all that reliable...

aww ok i guess i sort of thought since I cant meet you atleast I can send a letter which is more physical and real than internet so it's sort of more related to actually seeing eachother and it is more inspired and magical

[ssandra]

Originally Posted by roxyruby

aww ok i guess i sort of thought since I cant meet you atleast I can send a letter which is more physical and real than internet so it's sort of more related to actually seeing eachother and it is more inspired and magical

You could write a letter and scan it??

But... I'll sent you my home address

How are you doing with the organization of the skype calls? Wanna do a conference call? That way you don't have to worry about 1. video and 2. talking... there will be more people talking so less scary.

[Jon Tore]

Originally Posted by roxyruby

Yes I might start crying or faint from a panic attack too. Or have a long awkward silence. Like "I'm expected to talk RIGHT NOW aren't I! Not just whenever I am ready to click "post" Oh ♥♥♥♥♥!!" At least we're not alone. ^ ^

Yes yes, less scary! If I get the opportunity, I'm in! Would be really nice with a letter you know, but I just don't like the feeling of explaining my parents things like "Uhh just some.. random girl from some.. uhh forum that I'm on, she wanted to send letters to all her friends, perhaps better if you didn't read it.. NO it's not SECRET, just-" and so on, or things like that. They're acceptive of that kinda stuff, but still I don't wanna get into that I can't think of any better way at the moment..

[roxyruby]

Originally Posted by Jon Tore

Yes yes, less scary! If I get the opportunity, I'm in! Would be really nice with a letter you know, but I just don't like the feeling of explaining my parents things like "Uhh just some.. random girl from some.. uhh forum that I'm on, she wanted to send letters to all her friends, perhaps better if you didn't read it.. NO it's not SECRET, just-" and so on, or things like that. They're acceptive of that kinda stuff, but still I don't wanna get into that I can't think of any better way at the moment..

woa, I'm sorry if your parents are like that, I think 17 yo's are mature enough and also need privacy for such things like recieving their own letters

[Jon Tore]

Originally Posted by roxyruby

woa, I'm sorry if your parents are like that, I think 17 yo's are mature enough and also need privacy for such things like recieving their own letters

It's not like they're *like that*, but I just don't get letters out of the blue either I'm the one who would be the weirdo if I didn't tell them anything about the letter at all, before or after reading it. It's not because of them, it's because of me. But ok, I've changed my mind, if they get the mail that one day, it doesn't matter, it's just me being nervous about telling them things about myself I've definitely changed my mind! I'll PM you my address

[roxyruby]

Originally Posted by Jon Tore

It's not like they're *like that*, but I just don't get letters out of the blue either I'm the one who would be the weirdo if I didn't tell them anything about the letter at all, before or after reading it. It's not because of them, it's because of me. But ok, I've changed my mind, if they get the mail that one day, it doesn't matter, it's just me being nervous about telling them things about myself I've definitely changed my mind! I'll PM you my address

but you don't have to tell them? I don't tell my family about letters I recieve, especially if its from a friend (not that I recieve any personal letters in the mail though, its mostly just letters from my bank about my bank balance)

[Jon Tore]

Originally Posted by roxyruby

but you don't have to tell them? I don't tell my family about letters I recieve, especially if its from a friend (not that I recieve any personal letters in the mail though, its mostly just letters from my bank about my bank balance)

I don't have to tell them, but if they're the ones who bring in the mail and ask me, out of honest curiosity, I can tell them too, no prob

[JMononoetoe]

Hey there, Roxy,

Is it okay if I send you a PM as well? I mean, we're not actually befriended on the forums and all, but yeah (edit: Okay, now we are )

Originally Posted by roxyruby

...
Maybe there is really something wrong with my perception of my self. Seeing other people as attractive but often seeing my self as ugly. I don't know.

Awh, I know how you feel, Roxy. Really, I do. I guess it's something we both have to work on