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			<title>Reincarnating</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 18 Nov 2009 01:20:14 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I've been thinking about reincarnation and what this would entail. At first I found the idea pleasant, but the more I think about it the more it makes me shudder.

Even if you do get to come back, it would not really be "you" anymore. After all, although we may have a soul or some kind of higher self, at a physical level we are our brains - our personality, emotions, etc. all arise from the brain (a fact I've been struggling to accept, because it kind of makes me think that we're really just machines who are at the mercy of our brains but don't realize it at all, but I digress).

So suppose we incarnate again into an abusive family, perhaps with the intention to learn compassion or whatever, and suppose something goes wrong and we're born with a brain (or perhaps develop one, not sure how psychopathy works) that makes it impossible for us to empathize with others. This may be enough to turn us into some kind of criminal who hurts others. Of course, if we are the criminal, either we'll find nothing wrong with our actions or we won't care.

But I have a real problem with that. I certainly don't want to be that kind of person. Then again, when I say "I" I'm talking about my own ego here. It won't even be me - different brain, different person. Yet I'm still the one who's going to be experiencing it all, and that makes me feel pretty bad.

Is it possible to be a saint in one life and a horrible person in the next? Or do we actually carry something of the ego over? 

Any comments would be appreciated.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I've been thinking about reincarnation and what this would entail. At first I found the idea pleasant, but the more I think about it the more it makes me shudder.<br />
<br />
Even if you do get to come back, it would not really be &quot;you&quot; anymore. After all, although we may have a soul or some kind of higher self, at a physical level we are our brains - our personality, emotions, etc. all arise from the brain (a fact I've been struggling to accept, because it kind of makes me think that we're really just machines who are at the mercy of our brains but don't realize it at all, but I digress).<br />
<br />
So suppose we incarnate again into an abusive family, perhaps with the intention to learn compassion or whatever, and suppose something goes wrong and we're born with a brain (or perhaps develop one, not sure how psychopathy works) that makes it impossible for us to empathize with others. This may be enough to turn us into some kind of criminal who hurts others. Of course, if we are the criminal, either we'll find nothing wrong with our actions or we won't care.<br />
<br />
But I have a real problem with that. I certainly don't want to be that kind of person. Then again, when I say &quot;I&quot; I'm talking about my own ego here. It won't even be me - different brain, different person. Yet I'm still the one who's going to be experiencing it all, and that makes me feel pretty bad.<br />
<br />
Is it possible to be a saint in one life and a horrible person in the next? Or do we actually carry something of the ego over? <br />
<br />
Any comments would be appreciated.</div>

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			<title>Take Your Best Shot (Blog)</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 16 Nov 2009 11:40:07 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Use this thread to discuss the following entry from Erin Pavlina's blog:

Take Your Best Shot (http://www.erinpavlina.com/blog/2009/11/take-your-best-shot/)]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Use this thread to discuss the following entry from Erin Pavlina's blog:<br />
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<a href="http://www.erinpavlina.com/blog/2009/11/take-your-best-shot/" target="_blank">Take Your Best Shot</a></div>

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			<title>Energetic Vampires</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 16 Nov 2009 04:21:28 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Hello guys!  I would like to get more information about energetic vampires.
Have you ever met them and how do you recognize them?
I would be grateful if Erin can give me her outlook on this.</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hello guys!  I would like to get more information about energetic vampires.<br />
Have you ever met them and how do you recognize them?<br />
I would be grateful if Erin can give me her outlook on this.</div>

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			<title>Personality</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 16 Nov 2009 01:03:43 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>I have a question...
Suppose the personality of a person changes completely due to brain damage from an accident. When they die and you talk to them (through a medium or whatever), which personality will show through? The one before or after brain damage? Or will there be no personality at all? Who exactly is the person you are talking to?</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I have a question...<br />
Suppose the personality of a person changes completely due to brain damage from an accident. When they die and you talk to them (through a medium or whatever), which personality will show through? The one before or after brain damage? Or will there be no personality at all? Who exactly is the person you are talking to?</div>

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			<title>Hello. My name is Savanna (Request for help)</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 15 Nov 2009 17:06:26 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I am 23 years old and I am a sensitive. It runs in my family for many years. Out of my brothers and sisters, I have it the strongest. My mom and grandma have it but not as much as me. I am new with my gifts because I have kinda been afraid of it. I never understood it and my friends always made fun of me for it. But since I am older and know what I am doing and what my gifts could be used for, I want to embrace it and help people. But before I do that I need to help myself. The reason why I joined your forum is because I need people to talk to who won't judge me. I want to be able to talk to people who are going through similar things. Here is my problem.

I have a few different types of gifts. One of them is through my dreams. For example: I had a dream that I was at a school in a town and state I have never been in. I was running for my life because a plane had crashed into a school. A few weeks later I was at my father's house and we were watching the news. One story said a plane crashed into a school! I almost peed in my pants! :eek:

My dreams have been coming at me more and more intense and more real. Last week I was babysitting my Godson and I had taken a nap when he was sleeping, I had dreamt the house I was in was about to get robbed. I woke up but they ran away. Yesterday someone was trying to break into my house! Not my Godson's house my own house!!! 

Now when I dream most of the time it tells me about a family member or friend and what may happen if they do something they shouldn't or vice versa. But lately my dreams seem all out of whack. I can't tell who I am dreaming about or when my dream is going to happen. It's been bothering me. It's causing me stress. 

I had a dream last night that my fiancé cheated on me and got some girl pregnant. Everyone knew about it like my mom and my cousin except me. I started to cry and I screamed really loud then I woke up. Now I've been with my fiancé for about years. We have been engaged for 2 years. We are finally getting married October 23, 2010. My fiancé is not capable to cheat. People don't believe me when I say that, but trust me. I feel this particular dream is leading me towards one of my friends, but I am afraid to say something or what if my fiancé does cheat on me? I do not know what I do. If I say something to my friend it can cause problems. If I tell my fiancé it can make us weak and more susceptible for him cheating because of me obsessing over stupid stuff. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!!! 

I am at wits end. I do not know what to do. Thanks for listening to me!

Savanna :D]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I am 23 years old and I am a sensitive. It runs in my family for many years. Out of my brothers and sisters, I have it the strongest. My mom and grandma have it but not as much as me. I am new with my gifts because I have kinda been afraid of it. I never understood it and my friends always made fun of me for it. But since I am older and know what I am doing and what my gifts could be used for, I want to embrace it and help people. But before I do that I need to help myself. The reason why I joined your forum is because I need people to talk to who won't judge me. I want to be able to talk to people who are going through similar things. Here is my problem.<br />
<br />
I have a few different types of gifts. One of them is through my dreams. For example: I had a dream that I was at a school in a town and state I have never been in. I was running for my life because a plane had crashed into a school. A few weeks later I was at my father's house and we were watching the news. One story said a plane crashed into a school! I almost peed in my pants! :eek:<br />
<br />
My dreams have been coming at me more and more intense and more real. Last week I was babysitting my Godson and I had taken a nap when he was sleeping, I had dreamt the house I was in was about to get robbed. I woke up but they ran away. Yesterday someone was trying to break into my house! Not my Godson's house my own house!!! <br />
<br />
Now when I dream most of the time it tells me about a family member or friend and what may happen if they do something they shouldn't or vice versa. But lately my dreams seem all out of whack. I can't tell who I am dreaming about or when my dream is going to happen. It's been bothering me. It's causing me stress. <br />
<br />
I had a dream last night that my fiancé cheated on me and got some girl pregnant. Everyone knew about it like my mom and my cousin except me. I started to cry and I screamed really loud then I woke up. Now I've been with my fiancé for about years. We have been engaged for 2 years. We are finally getting married October 23, 2010. My fiancé is not capable to cheat. People don't believe me when I say that, but trust me. I feel this particular dream is leading me towards one of my friends, but I am afraid to say something or what if my fiancé does cheat on me? I do not know what I do. If I say something to my friend it can cause problems. If I tell my fiancé it can make us weak and more susceptible for him cheating because of me obsessing over stupid stuff. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!!! <br />
<br />
I am at wits end. I do not know what to do. Thanks for listening to me!<br />
<br />
Savanna :D</div>

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			<title>Did Erin cut her hair?</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 14 Nov 2009 15:31:01 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi all!  I have been all over the search engines in these forums and cannot find out if Erin cut her hair or not!

Steve posted a thread a couple months ago as a "poll," asking if Erin should cut her hair.  I voted no.  And now I would really say no with all that is going on.  

Erin, everyone, Did the haircut happen???

Thanks]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi all!  I have been all over the search engines in these forums and cannot find out if Erin cut her hair or not!<br />
<br />
Steve posted a thread a couple months ago as a &quot;poll,&quot; asking if Erin should cut her hair.  I voted no.  And now I would really say no with all that is going on.  <br />
<br />
Erin, everyone, Did the haircut happen???<br />
<br />
Thanks</div>

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			<title>Free Reading Contest</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 12 Nov 2009 23:26:15 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Erin, I've been reading you and Steve for about three years (mostly because when I started I was an extremely depressed and reclusive teen and was looking for any kind of comfort) and I was wondering if you had plans on ever giving a free reading? I don't know, maybe you can have your readers send you an e-mail stating why they feel they deserve the reading......But anyway, if that never happens I guess I'll just start saving up for one:confused:]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Erin, I've been reading you and Steve for about three years (mostly because when I started I was an extremely depressed and reclusive teen and was looking for any kind of comfort) and I was wondering if you had plans on ever giving a free reading? I don't know, maybe you can have your readers send you an e-mail stating why they feel they deserve the reading......But anyway, if that never happens I guess I'll just start saving up for one:confused:</div>

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			<title>Intuition is back after MRI !!!</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 12 Nov 2009 12:18:11 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi,
Just wanted to send along an update.  Four months ago I had an MRI and almost immediately all my intuition disappeared.  I also couldn't remember any dreams at all and felt like one of my senses had been turned off.

I'm happy to report that my intuition started trickling back about 2 weeks ago, and right now everything is about 80% back.  And my intuition tells me that it will all come back soon.  Might even be better than before.

Thanks for all the good wishes and support.  I did learn that the intuition is really a gift, and instead of treating it like a sort of necessary chore to deal with, I am now going to nurture, protect and welcome it.

Whew.  I'll admit that I was scared it wouldn't come back at all.  I'm grateful for this second chance.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi,<br />
Just wanted to send along an update.  Four months ago I had an MRI and almost immediately all my intuition disappeared.  I also couldn't remember any dreams at all and felt like one of my senses had been turned off.<br />
<br />
I'm happy to report that my intuition started trickling back about 2 weeks ago, and right now everything is about 80% back.  And my intuition tells me that it will all come back soon.  Might even be better than before.<br />
<br />
Thanks for all the good wishes and support.  I did learn that the intuition is really a gift, and instead of treating it like a sort of necessary chore to deal with, I am now going to nurture, protect and welcome it.<br />
<br />
Whew.  I'll admit that I was scared it wouldn't come back at all.  I'm grateful for this second chance.</div>

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			<title>how do mystics find community?</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 10 Nov 2009 23:01:43 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I'd like to ask a question about being... (um, hm, what's a good word?...) energetic and forming relationships.  I'm 22 years old and have spent my childhood and adulthood grappling with how to live as a... arg, I don't have the lingo for this!  I call myself a "sender" because I know how to purposefully touch people/things with the energy that lives inside of me, and I try to use this ability for the greater good.

I've lived in conservative places and have had very few connections with other people who energy-send.  When the universe lets me brush with another person like me, I feel energized and revived!  Sometimes it's such a relief to spend time with another person who can understand what manipulating energy is -- I wish I could be a part of something like a church but not religious, somewhere where other people who send gather and use their sending abilities to heal the world.

I have a few friends who live far away from me who also send, and I contact them and connect with them using energy to span the distance... more recently I've been heart-broadcasting in the hope I'll find someone physically closer to where I live to be energy-friends with.  (I wish I had the words for these things!  I almost think of it as using energy to send radio signals or telegrams out, or to listen for them coming in.)  I haven't felt any replies, though.

The past few years, I've felt struck with how lonely I feel without having a friend to share my energy experiences with.  I want to talk about what's happening and I want to train with other people --  I even hope to meet someone I could have an emotional connection with who would also have this spiritual component.

Is it typical to spend a long time looking for energy-friends?  (I wish I had the 'right' words!  I don't know what other people call this.)  I have friends and am in a relationship, but I feel hollow not having someone to 'converse' with using energy.  I almost feel as though I'm visiting a country that speaks another language, and although I am proficient in the language this country speaks, all I really want is to have a heart-to-heart and listen to someone else talking in my first language!

In the past, in my teenage years, I would scan jewelery under my palms to get a feel for if the person who owned it was energy-aware, but my conscience kicked in and that seems too invasive now.  Also, I got several "false-positives," which is what I called finding people who definitely had the blood for being a sender but hadn't or weren't ready to tap into that yet.

Would you tell me about how you found your spiritual communities or spiritual friends, anyone?  Are there other people who know how to hone their thoughts and then use energy to change what's happening outside themselves?  I'm sure there must be, or there wouldn't be formus like this one!  Maybe the radio-signal I'm sending out doesn't have the right code?  I'm not a 'spiritual junkie' who takes in every book and person about energy just to get the next high, but energy is a huge part of my life and I feel lonely not having people to share with.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I'd like to ask a question about being... (um, hm, what's a good word?...) energetic and forming relationships.  I'm 22 years old and have spent my childhood and adulthood grappling with how to live as a... arg, I don't have the lingo for this!  I call myself a &quot;sender&quot; because I know how to purposefully touch people/things with the energy that lives inside of me, and I try to use this ability for the greater good.<br />
<br />
I've lived in conservative places and have had very few connections with other people who energy-send.  When the universe lets me brush with another person like me, I feel energized and revived!  Sometimes it's such a relief to spend time with another person who can understand what manipulating energy is -- I wish I could be a part of something like a church but not religious, somewhere where other people who send gather and use their sending abilities to heal the world.<br />
<br />
I have a few friends who live far away from me who also send, and I contact them and connect with them using energy to span the distance... more recently I've been heart-broadcasting in the hope I'll find someone physically closer to where I live to be energy-friends with.  (I wish I had the words for these things!  I almost think of it as using energy to send radio signals or telegrams out, or to listen for them coming in.)  I haven't felt any replies, though.<br />
<br />
The past few years, I've felt struck with how lonely I feel without having a friend to share my energy experiences with.  I want to talk about what's happening and I want to train with other people --  I even hope to meet someone I could have an emotional connection with who would also have this spiritual component.<br />
<br />
Is it typical to spend a long time looking for energy-friends?  (I wish I had the 'right' words!  I don't know what other people call this.)  I have friends and am in a relationship, but I feel hollow not having someone to 'converse' with using energy.  I almost feel as though I'm visiting a country that speaks another language, and although I am proficient in the language this country speaks, all I really want is to have a heart-to-heart and listen to someone else talking in my first language!<br />
<br />
In the past, in my teenage years, I would scan jewelery under my palms to get a feel for if the person who owned it was energy-aware, but my conscience kicked in and that seems too invasive now.  Also, I got several &quot;false-positives,&quot; which is what I called finding people who definitely had the blood for being a sender but hadn't or weren't ready to tap into that yet.<br />
<br />
Would you tell me about how you found your spiritual communities or spiritual friends, anyone?  Are there other people who know how to hone their thoughts and then use energy to change what's happening outside themselves?  I'm sure there must be, or there wouldn't be formus like this one!  Maybe the radio-signal I'm sending out doesn't have the right code?  I'm not a 'spiritual junkie' who takes in every book and person about energy just to get the next high, but energy is a huge part of my life and I feel lonely not having people to share with.</div>

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			<title><![CDATA[Can I trust the "vibes" I get? Or am  I just making it up?]]></title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 10 Nov 2009 21:56:20 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[How can I distinguish between the times when I'm tuned in to what others are feeling, and times when I'm just imagining things? 

(I tried to write that sentence in a neutral way, as in, "how can a person tell when they.." but then the pronouns got all confused.)

I am tutoring reading to a fourth grader, and got really weird vibes from him today. He was cooperative and pleasant all during our lesson, answered my questions politely, did what he was supposed to do...but all the while, underneath, I could feel this tension in him, like a zing-zing-zing sort of thing. Not scary, but painful.

I asked him casually if everything was all right, explaining that he seemed a little quieter than usual to me. He said yes, he was fine. That was as far as I felt like I could go. 

But now I've thought about it all day. Maybe I'm overreacting. Maybe he just was annoyed that he had to put up with yet another adult making him do schoolwork instead of letting him play. 

All I know is, if I felt the way I think he felt, I'd want to jump out of my skin.  Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.

Saraleee]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>How can I distinguish between the times when I'm tuned in to what others are feeling, and times when I'm just imagining things? <br />
<br />
(I tried to write that sentence in a neutral way, as in, &quot;how can a person tell when they..&quot; but then the pronouns got all confused.)<br />
<br />
I am tutoring reading to a fourth grader, and got really weird vibes from him today. He was cooperative and pleasant all during our lesson, answered my questions politely, did what he was supposed to do...but all the while, underneath, I could feel this tension in him, like a zing-zing-zing sort of thing. Not scary, but painful.<br />
<br />
I asked him casually if everything was all right, explaining that he seemed a little quieter than usual to me. He said yes, he was fine. That was as far as I felt like I could go. <br />
<br />
But now I've thought about it all day. Maybe I'm overreacting. Maybe he just was annoyed that he had to put up with yet another adult making him do schoolwork instead of letting him play. <br />
<br />
All I know is, if I felt the way I think he felt, I'd want to jump out of my skin.  Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.<br />
<br />
Saraleee</div>

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			<title>Can too much focus on healing internally cause personal harm?</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 09 Nov 2009 22:09:50 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I've tried using different techniques from different models and nothing seems to be working.

After realizing that going through the motions of life and not living according to Eternal Truth, I began to have trouble with depression and anxiety. I had had paranormal experiences as a small child before having these problems so I don't think my problems are entirely physiologically or psychologically based.

I started meditating a year ago with Holosync and hearing the mental chatter that many describe. Now, I sometimes hear the mental chatter during my daily activities making it hard to focus and complete tasks. I also feel very cloudy and it's hard to connect thoughts and ideas.

After being on this healing journey for the past 4 years and not being able to function very well at all for the past 2, I wonder if I may be causing myself harm by trying to heal through meditation.

Some may say that these sorts of problems may simply be the result of a psychological problem, but I feel within me that there's something more going on.

Having had psychic experiences in the past, as well as having had problems with depression and anxiety and not having gotten to a healthy point since these problems began 4 years ago, I wonder if I'll ever be able to be happy and healthy again.

I tried going to a psychiatrist for a year to help deal with the depression and anxiety but it just made the problems worse. Dealing with the side effects from medications didn't help either. If it was a medical problem I would think that after a year of trying different types and combinations of medications would have helped at least a little bit. It didn't. At all.

Now I feel the quality of my life declining and all the goals I set for myself seem to be slipping through my fingers. I was an honor roll student until at 17 years old things started slipping. I held it together until 19 but with a steadily declining GPA. Now at 21, I can't even finish my classes.

I don't even know what's going on here anymore. I've reached out to medical professionals for help and I've tried alternative methods like mediation as well. Things seem to be getting worse and I don't know what to do.

Any thoughts or experiences to share?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I've tried using different techniques from different models and nothing seems to be working.<br />
<br />
After realizing that going through the motions of life and not living according to Eternal Truth, I began to have trouble with depression and anxiety. I had had paranormal experiences as a small child before having these problems so I don't think my problems are entirely physiologically or psychologically based.<br />
<br />
I started meditating a year ago with Holosync and hearing the mental chatter that many describe. Now, I sometimes hear the mental chatter during my daily activities making it hard to focus and complete tasks. I also feel very cloudy and it's hard to connect thoughts and ideas.<br />
<br />
After being on this healing journey for the past 4 years and not being able to function very well at all for the past 2, I wonder if I may be causing myself harm by trying to heal through meditation.<br />
<br />
Some may say that these sorts of problems may simply be the result of a psychological problem, but I feel within me that there's something more going on.<br />
<br />
Having had psychic experiences in the past, as well as having had problems with depression and anxiety and not having gotten to a healthy point since these problems began 4 years ago, I wonder if I'll ever be able to be happy and healthy again.<br />
<br />
I tried going to a psychiatrist for a year to help deal with the depression and anxiety but it just made the problems worse. Dealing with the side effects from medications didn't help either. If it was a medical problem I would think that after a year of trying different types and combinations of medications would have helped at least a little bit. It didn't. At all.<br />
<br />
Now I feel the quality of my life declining and all the goals I set for myself seem to be slipping through my fingers. I was an honor roll student until at 17 years old things started slipping. I held it together until 19 but with a steadily declining GPA. Now at 21, I can't even finish my classes.<br />
<br />
I don't even know what's going on here anymore. I've reached out to medical professionals for help and I've tried alternative methods like mediation as well. Things seem to be getting worse and I don't know what to do.<br />
<br />
Any thoughts or experiences to share?</div>

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			<title>what happens to your higher self when you die</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 09 Nov 2009 19:56:38 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>i was just wondering what happens to you higher self when you die? does it merge with the soul and then the journey continues in oneness and then with every incarnation a part is left up there as a higher self? or 
does it merge with the soul as soon as the physical body is no longer available.?
Is the higher self present to welcome one when he/she crosses over?
 thanks for your answers</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>i was just wondering what happens to you higher self when you die? does it merge with the soul and then the journey continues in oneness and then with every incarnation a part is left up there as a higher self? or <br />
does it merge with the soul as soon as the physical body is no longer available.?<br />
Is the higher self present to welcome one when he/she crosses over?<br />
 thanks for your answers</div>

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			<title>How To Stop Fearing Death (Blog)</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 09 Nov 2009 16:00:03 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Use this thread to discuss the following entry from Erin Pavlina's blog:

How To Stop Fearing Death (http://www.erinpavlina.com/blog/2009/11/how-to-stop-fearing-death/)]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Use this thread to discuss the following entry from Erin Pavlina's blog:<br />
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<a href="http://www.erinpavlina.com/blog/2009/11/how-to-stop-fearing-death/" target="_blank">How To Stop Fearing Death</a></div>

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			<title>Lucid Dream or Astral Travel?</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 08 Nov 2009 19:21:29 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Sorry for a long post, but I'd love to get feedback of your thoughts about my experience... 

This morning, I had what I think was an out of body experience.  It was truly amazing, but I'm not quite sure what to call it.  It started almost like a dream, but I was very aware of what was going on.  I could see "through" my eyelids and was gazing at the stars.  But then I realized that I could change the number and arrangement of the stars at will.  When I realized this, the picture changed to the ceiling of my livingroom (where I was sleeping), and I could turn my head around and see various parts of the room - still as if I was looking through my eyelids.  It was very hard to make out detail at first.  As I tried to look around, I could only see areas where my eye movement was limited to, and I could feel my head against the pillow trying to turn around and look.  So at that point I "sat up" but not my "real" body.  I think it was a separation.

While this was going on, I could hear a very "scary" voice saying all kinds of strange things.  And the shuffling of footsteps in the other room. It was almost like it was trying to scare me, but I was not scared.  I couldn't understand it, so I asked it to repeat what it said very calmly, and then it kind of just went away.  

Then I look over at the chair next to me, and my brother was there talking to me about various things that I don't quite remember, other than telling me about his divorce that happened a long time ago.

The next thing I remember is that I was walking down my hallway, and came to a mirror.  I remembered that this was one way to tell if you were lucid dreaming, and when I looked in the mirror, I saw no reflection.

So - what do you think?  Was it a real OBE?  Just a strange lucid dream?  Maybe both?  And what the heck were those scary "incantations" I heard?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Sorry for a long post, but I'd love to get feedback of your thoughts about my experience... <br />
<br />
This morning, I had what I think was an out of body experience.  It was truly amazing, but I'm not quite sure what to call it.  It started almost like a dream, but I was very aware of what was going on.  I could see &quot;through&quot; my eyelids and was gazing at the stars.  But then I realized that I could change the number and arrangement of the stars at will.  When I realized this, the picture changed to the ceiling of my livingroom (where I was sleeping), and I could turn my head around and see various parts of the room - still as if I was looking through my eyelids.  It was very hard to make out detail at first.  As I tried to look around, I could only see areas where my eye movement was limited to, and I could feel my head against the pillow trying to turn around and look.  So at that point I &quot;sat up&quot; but not my &quot;real&quot; body.  I think it was a separation.<br />
<br />
While this was going on, I could hear a very &quot;scary&quot; voice saying all kinds of strange things.  And the shuffling of footsteps in the other room. It was almost like it was trying to scare me, but I was not scared.  I couldn't understand it, so I asked it to repeat what it said very calmly, and then it kind of just went away.  <br />
<br />
Then I look over at the chair next to me, and my brother was there talking to me about various things that I don't quite remember, other than telling me about his divorce that happened a long time ago.<br />
<br />
The next thing I remember is that I was walking down my hallway, and came to a mirror.  I remembered that this was one way to tell if you were lucid dreaming, and when I looked in the mirror, I saw no reflection.<br />
<br />
So - what do you think?  Was it a real OBE?  Just a strange lucid dream?  Maybe both?  And what the heck were those scary &quot;incantations&quot; I heard?</div>

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			<title>People Who Love Erin</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 08 Nov 2009 04:52:45 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Erin YOU are so very much loved.</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Erin YOU are so very much loved.</div>

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