Car Symbolism?

[carenkh]

I am dealing with feeling VERY stuck in my life, and in moving toward my goals. I know what I want, and know some steps to get me there... but I seem to be unwilling to take even the baby baby steps. I wrote about it earlier, and got some great words from Erin, to just say, "I know I want to do X, but I'm just not ready" then explore that. I have been accepting where I am more... but I do feel that part of my "stuckness" is... I'm not sure. Or I'm not willing to say... Let's see... it feels as though I'm broken. Somewhere inside, I'm broken. So, anyways...

I picked up a Louise Hay book at the used bookstore just the other day. She was writing about how often, if someone is having car problems, if you looked at how they talked about it and what the problem was, it was very symbolic of problems in their lives. I found that interesting, because a vision I got, when I pictured my life, was me at the wheel of a car, revving the engine, in gear and ready to go... and I was also behind the car, holding on to the bumper so the car couldn't go anywhere. Also interesting, because my car *is* currently broken, and I don't have the money to get it fixed just yet. The two front axles are broken; it's a 1998 Subaru Outback, 4-wheel-drive. I love my Subaru; it's perfect for lugging drums to drum circles, pretty good on gas despite being 4-WD, great for driving the kiddos around... just a good, solid car. Except for this axle problem... oh, and since it's sat for such a long time, the battery's dead. ( THERE'S some symbolism for ya! Or for me...)

On reading the Louise Hay book, I looked up axles... I mean, I have a basic knowledge of what they do and how they work, but I wanted to make sure I got it all. I didn't know they basically carry the whole weight of the car! I'm failing to see the connection between my axles and my life... usually I can spot symbolism quite easily (like the dead battery because of inactivity) but I really can't see it here. So, I'm turning to you smart folks of these forums to see if you can see what I can't. Perhaps someone with more mechanical knowledge than I have will have some insight, or someone can spot the connection I've been unable to see. All ideas welcome! Thanks for your thoughts.

[Shamou]

This is what is writen on Louise's website... (see here)

"Louise was able to put her philosophies into practice when she was diagnosed with cancer. She considered the alternatives to surgery and drugs and instead developed an intensive program of affirmations, visualization, nutritional cleansing and psychotherapy. Within six months, she was completely healed of cancer."

When I read something like that... I turn around and run like hell...

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[Angela]

The axle is the rod the wheels spin on, right? Maybe you're feeling stuck in some way, like the wheels of your life aren't free to spin and get you where you want to go?

Or maybe you're just tired. sorry.

[Erki]

Maybe it's universe's way to say that rear wheel drive is better.

[Shamou]

Originally Posted by Erki

Maybe it's universe's way to say that rear wheel drive is better.

Or maybe that it's time to get the car fixed...

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[emf]

Shamou is right.

If I were drifting, broken and aimless, through a subjective universe filled with psychics, angels and light workers and a series of startling coincidences informed me that my damaged car was symbolic of my personal damage I wouldn't waste a whole lot of time trying to understand the symbolism. I would haul butt to get my car fixed as soon as possible.

Maybe the steps you take to accomplish that task will lead to other things.

[Dharma]

Originally Posted by carenkh

Also interesting, because my car *is* currently broken, and I don't have the money to get it fixed just yet. The two front axles are broken; it's a 1998 Subaru Outback, 4-wheel-drive. I love my Subaru; it's perfect for lugging drums to drum circles, pretty good on gas despite being 4-WD, great for driving the kiddos around... just a good, solid car. Except for this axle problem... oh, and since it's sat for such a long time, the battery's dead. ( THERE'S some symbolism for ya! Or for me...)

It's all a reflection of you.
You've got an issue with movement in you life (car won't go)
And you've got an issue with 'sparking' your movement (electrical, dead battery, car won't start)

[carenkh]

Well, I know I've got an issue with movement... I was hoping to see more details, i.e. the engine connects w/transmission, which connects with drive shaft, then axles. (? I think. Just guessing, here.) Engine, transmission, and tires are all fine, it's the axles that are broken. What would that correspond to in my life?

I can think about this AND do what I need to do to get the car fixed; they're not mutually exclusive. Although I am finding myself... not really motivated to get the car fixed right now. It would mean finding a way to earn the money to do that. I'm just down the street from the grocery store, the boys have friends in the neighborhood, I'm on the bus line if I need to go further. I'm definitely choosing to stay closer to home; when my car was working it seems like I was jumping in it and going somewhere a couple of times a day. I was spending more, too... on non-essentials (and gas!).

emf... I think you hit the nail on the head. I got a little shiver when I read your post. I *know* taking action to get the car fixed would get things moving... but I'm not doing that. I'm just looking at my propensity to buck authority... all growing up, I would *never* have said that I did that, but upon reflection... most of my adult life is rebellion. Rebellion which has led to some amazing things (consensual living, unschooling), but has also negatively affected me. Wonder if this stuckness/broken-ness is part of that?
Just thinking out loud, here...

Thanks for all your thoughts... even the "tired".