Am I crazy?

[GreenSmoothieGirl]

Hi Erin,

I need your help. I have been a long time follower of your blog. I've loved everyone of your articles, but have never really allowed myself to fully believe or trust in all of the psychic and paranormal stuff.

I fear that I am losing my mind. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder a few years ago, and I've had many strange and unusual experiences, none of which I know are even real.

Recently I've developed an hallucination that is very intense in many ways. It feels like a person, and I can sense it when I sit down or lie down.

I feel deeply connected and drawn towards this entity, but at the same time I am disgusted with myself for allowing myself to be so delusional.

I want so badly to move on - to accept that it isn't real.

Is there a possibility that this is real, or am I hallucinating?

I am ready to move on.

[GreenSmoothieGirl]

As of now, I think it's time to admit I'm not well and need help - I am willing to go on a higher dose of medication for a month or two if it means I will overcome this. I'm calling my family doctor on Monday, and hopefully she'll be able to help me out.

[desertrat]

If I were you I would do yoga, medatation , ask your guides/higher self for what is going on , and medical doctors that are a bit more oppen minded. Any one giving you spefic advice with out exzaming you ( just not a good speller sory) could be subject to moral, legal , or karmic problems . You might ask a preist or parnorminal indevagastor to see if the enitity is real .

[KaleidoskopicVision]

Whoops, I voted yes thinking that the query was "Am I crazy" and I was going to say yes but that's okay just go with it but I don't think you should go increasing your medication. See a shrink, maybe, but be leery of people who want to drug you rather than listen to you.

I think you should go with this sensation of a person being there, explore it fearlessly.

[Anthoneee]

Originally Posted by KaleidoskopicVision

I think you should go with this sensation of a person being there, explore it fearlessly.

I agree. For all we know, what you are seeing could be very real, regardless of whether or not we have the gift of being able to see it like you do. I say see what it wants, it would be easier to be friends with it than live in fear of it. You don't have to listen to anything it may tell you to do. Have fun with it.

[Richful]

I think seeking medical help is a very wise action. I would suggest taking a trusted friend or relative with you for support.

Good luck and best health.

[FelineNostalgia]

Hey Greensmothiegirl

I think if your so drawn to it , or theres a very strong feeling somethings there, then you should go with your gut

Doctors cant really help you with this,in my experience, theyll just feed you more tablets

Its important also , do you get a good or bad feeling around this entity? I mean really relax, What is your heart telling you ( I know its cheesy but thats how our angels speak to us), if its good It maybe a spirit guide or guardian angel?

If its bad remember you have the power to decide whether you let it in or not, suround yourself mentally in a veil of gold and purple and say to yourself , only higher beings and love can penetrate