Finding your life purpose and career direction

[kismet]

Could your guides really tell you what your life purpose and career direction should be? I don't understand if these things are something that we choose before we even come into this world, why for some of us it is so difficult to choose while we are here and know who we are. If we've already chosen it, why can't we figure and know what we chose. This endless uncertainty and dissatisfaction and apathy is becoming unbearable. It was hard enough in my early twenties but tolerable, but now that I am 30 and it still has not become any clearer, in fact less clear, I feel so stuck and lost. Like my life has been on pause for years and years and years. Going along with the flow, but never deciding anything and never committing to anything. Feeling restless and unable to decide, feeling like there is nothing solid to base that decision on. Just not feeling passionate about any particular thing or driven, feeling like life is passing me by. I am at a loss on how to decide and how to commit to anything when I don't feel anything for it. I can look at things that I like and things that I don't like and my personality, and narrow it down some, but never able to narrow it down to one focus and one thing. And the things that I like I do not love. And I don't feel confident in any of it or really believe in myself. I don't have much time left, I have to decide. I don't feel like I'll be really fulfilled until I have that focus and clarity.

I'd love to know what my guides say about it, but it seems like if I have no clue, maybe they don't either. Why is it that there are people that are so clear about who they are and what they are good at and passionate about at a very early age, in childhood, and then those who never feel that pull towards anything? Is it fear of failure so we block any possible passion or deny it? Or is it something else? I'm tired of accomplishing nothing and not know how to manifest anything instead of just think repetitively and feel constant doubt. I never finish or follow through on anything I start. My pattern is constantly to have a very minimal enthusiasm for something in the beginning and the possibilities of it and then quickly lose interest and drop the ball. Now, after so much of that, I don't even feel that initial enthusiasm anymore. Just like I'm waiting for something, but I don't know what. I guess waiting to feel something or be pulled toward something.

[Anna Conlan]

Hi Kismet,

have you read this article by Erin? The Medium and the Message

It helps you to distinguish between your message (your purpose) and its medium (how to express it). It sounds like you're trying to look at both of these at once. But I would recommend you focus on your message/purpose before you think about how you're going to express it.

My guides always tell me that purpose is a mission of being, rather than doing. It tends to be a set of qualities or attributes that are important to you and that you're already expressing. There is no need to look for it outside of you, because it's in you.

Just a few common purpose qualities I see in my practice:

Compassion
Courage
Leadership
Truthfulness/honesty

They can be expressed in an activity. For example:

Courage becomes defending others, getting others to stand up for themselves

Compassion becomes seeing the inherent worth in other people and showing it to them

Truthfulness and honesty are a desire to highlight the uncomfortable truths in the world and hold others to the truth

We are all here to bring different energetic qualities. Look at what is most fundamental to you as a person. It tends to be something you like to express in your life and share with others. You're probably already doing it.

Then those qualities can be expressed through a medium of your choice, like writing, teaching, assisting others, counselling, creating, inventing, etc