Was that an attempt of communication from the Source?
Today when i took a nap in the afternoon, i dreamt that i was going into the room of a psychic medium, who was not known to me, to place some object in there. In fact, it was planned so early in the dream that by the time I actually went into the room to place the object I had forgotten that it was the special room.
But the moment I entered the room it was like an electric shock, as in, I understood immediately that there was someone sitting in the room. I could see the place where the energy was , it was an indian style seat with a yellow silk cover which was luminous, and bathed in the golden light from a lamp; the place was in a pool of light, and I suddenly I understood -I dont know how i understood it, but I did- that it was my favourite deity/lord sitting in there, the one i am most connected to (I am a Hindu) and pray everyday to. However, I was so frightened by this experience, and also because I was paralysed and powerless to move my body (I could not run out of the room; i was paralysed) I screamed out to my brother for help. It seemed I was screaming and hollering with all my lungs , but my brother, who I imagined was on the floor below, did not hear me scream. I heard my mother say to him, i think she is calling out for you, go check, but since he didnt hear anything, he did not come. And finally I unerstood that I have no choice, but I have to have this meeting because he absolutely has to speak to me and felt completely trapped. As if he were trying to talk to me against my will. and the moment i felt this, i woke up.
I was so damn scared 'cos this is the first time this is happening to me.
Now I should mention the most important part. This morning, around 11 AM i had received a peice of information which was a big blow to me, my dreams, hopes and aspirations, and it had nearly destroyed my faith, in there being a Source, spirit guides to help you etc. However, I had a faint voice telling from the deepest depths of consciousness that this wasnt the way you were meant to succeed so dont worry.
I am reeling. First from the blow, and then from this experience. Was this just an episode of sleep paralysis? I dont think it was, because I have experienced them before and could tell I was wide awake, and just my body couldnt be moved. This, on the other hand, was a very, very vivid dream. Please help classify.
wonder if i should move this post to psychic and paranormal.... I am dying for some insight. I hope I havent blocked divine energies from contacting me further by being scared and by screaming and generally indicating they aent welcome.... I was spooked only 'cos it was my first time. :confused:
I believe your guide/lord understands your reaction! And is amused, as if you were a small child. That's how he loves you! I don't think you offended him. If you can open yourself up, and let them know you'd love the chance to meet again - they will be there.
Or, it might be enough to know that the big blow you got, is truly part of a larger plan to get you to walk in your light and truth - that's what I got from it, anyway. Of course, it wasn't my dream! :D
Thanks! Yes, I know for sure that the blow and the dream are very connected, and the more I think about it, I am being filled with more courage to accept things as they are...
I must just say that I am totally overwhelmed by the experience of being paralysed and screaming and wishing with all my dear life to just wake up and end this terrible situation!
All i want to know is, how was this paralysis different from sleep paralysis? this was in dream, and the other comes when I am freshly awake and can see everything in the room - which i feel more as a physical phenomenon than psychic. If this was a lucid dream, why couldn't i run out of the room?
The first time I experienced The Ohm/Void/Nagual, I felt exactly the same way: panicked. It was so immense, alien and overwhelming that my mind couldn't encompass it. I felt the only way to survive and remain sane was to run away.
That feeling stayed with me for quite some time before I was able to convince myself to seek that experience out again.
Once I embraced the experience, I was able to put my fear aside and travel there at will. In doing that a whole new level of understanding opened up for me. I am still uncomfortable with the experience to this day, but the more I travel there, the more I learn about myself and about our Universe.
Thanks for the reply and empathy, Mato!
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