I Need the help of a psychic or medium

[esther]

I'm just going to blurt it out straight because this is a difficult question to ask.

I took a massive OD of crystal meth and a derivative.

I didn't die. I felt like I contacted spirits. When I listened to Erin's podcast, I think Steve mentioned how it feels (when I heard him speaking, that's when I realized - ok, now I know for sure, it was spirits). When the spirit comes you know it is there and wants to talk. When it goes there is an emptiness. You know it is gone.

This is the very short story. I posted the link to part of my story on another thread. My intention here is not to advertise it again.

My concern is twofold: I contacted something which related a story to me, which is the most evil and wicked story I have ever heard.

I am concerned that the evil is still with me. Or even (and I know this sounds crazy) that I have opened a portal for it into this world.

The evil I mention is beyond comprehension. Evil is not sacrificing humans and drinking their blood. Knowing our spiritual nature that might be evil in one way but we live on beyond our bodies. I'm talking about spiritual evil. I do not wish to elaborate further on this here because it is not something to play around with.

I need to know what happened to me. I need a psychic to look at me and tell what damage I've done to myself spiritually. Or a medium to channel the good spirits who can tell me what I can do to recover. Also I need to know why they (or I) decided that I must stay.

I continue to suffer. I've gotten all kinds of help from the mundane sources. However I would be stupid not to think that spiritually I might be in trouble, and that trouble might be as a result of dabbling with things which I should not have, because of my state.

I'm scared that I only discover this when I die.

Hopefully my concerns are groundless. However, I need someone to point me in the right direction. Allay my concerns. I need someone who can look directly at me and the event. Hopefully it was all just hallucination. But I know it was not. I was in contact with the wrong side.

This is a sincere request for help, of the spirit kind.

[Erin Pavlina]

If you book a reading with me i'll be able to look into that for you. Couldn't do it through a forum post though, not with enough authority and accuracy.

[esther]

Sounds like a good idea. I will arrange it ASAP.

Thanks Erin

[StarieEyed]

I had some evil brewing when I was into meth also, I somehow got in touch with God, whom I never believed in/knew about/explored. And it all became a very positive life changing experience, I of course quit the drugs and shortly there after became pregnant with my daughter with God smiling upon me. I guess the point of my post is I DO believe that meth, in general, can lead to darkness. If you have not quit, do it.

[RallyMcnally]

Here's a good post on an archived forum about Meth & Lifeforce. Might be of some help: Noble Realms / Life Force and Health

[esther]

Yeah, great post. Really relevant. Thanks!

[StarieEyed]

I just need to add that while I did reek havoc on me mentally and physically, I am fully restored, happy, healthy, MORE spiritual. I am a great mom, pregnant with my second gift from God. Don't listen to people when they claim perminant damage. It has only been 4 years since I have been "clean" and that was after a 9 year off and on use of meth. I think the only lasting thing left from my use is my lack of muscle tone but I am now working on that

[esther]

Now that's a message I just needed to hear! Thank you so very much.

Originally Posted by StarieEyed

Don't listen to people when they claim perminant damage. It has only been 4 years since I have been "clean" and that was after a 9 year off and on use of meth. I think the only lasting thing left from my use is my lack of muscle tone but I am now working on that