am hurting, hit rock bottom - PLS help

[cbreeze]

Because i don't believe in god, higher power, nor my self - i'm miserably overwhelmed and feeling life is way overrated, for, I'm sick of just existing. I take full responsibility as I know I've created all this due to lack of self love and used to low energy I carry without/within and attract more negative experiences and ppl. Father took his life after losing my mother, fired from accounting job, used 401k for clinic for depression, daughter going to school in another country, going through a divorce, i stay inside for days and trying to figure out where to move as there is nothing here for me anymore. Life has been a horror story and I'm convinced I was hitler in another life. No more heart nor spirit and tired of being so sad and mad. Reading this forum really lifts me up and the advice you all share is golden. Can you suggest how to suddenly believe when you don't?

[thethinkingboy]

Hi there Anna, I am really sorry to read about the pain you are in right now. I am not a therapist and I don't know how to suddenly believe, but I have felt that way many times before. I always get through it by trusting that the universe is good to me, I have something to learn from this experience, and knowing that this period of darkness will pass sooner or later. Everytime I get out I am stronger, wiser and can better avoid the next wave of depression. Keep your thoughts focused on the positive future, know that these feelings are only feelings and will pass, and as another member recently wrote me, keep your intake of positivity as high as possible. Get outside and get some excercise, try and reconnect with a friend, don't dwell on your problems and don't stay isolated. Healing doesn't happen in isolation. Maybe check out a local 12 step program, I am in codependent anonymous (coda) and it has helped me get out of some rough patches.

[alsy]

Hello Annah

If you have emotional issues, you can do EFT (emotional freedom technique). The manual can be downloaded for free at EFT Provides Impressive Health and Emotional Freedom--New Discovery Often Works Where Nothing Else It is a bit lengthy and I think there are some other sites with shortened versions of the process, but some of the background to using it will be required from the manual. It is an energy meridian treatment which clears emotions related to whatever you want to clear.


What you have created in the past is done. Gone. The only way it can continue to exist is in your mind. You have the power to replay the past as you have, and thus continue to experience being “overwhelmed”, feeling “life is overrated”, “sick of just existing” , “tired of being sad”, and continue saying or to associate your life as being “a horror story”.

As a human being, you are creating these experiences according to how you have been using your mind, what you say about the past events, and how you feel about them. The past can not be changed, but your experience OF the past, can be given a different meaning or associated differently to before. You have the power in each moment of existence to say something other than before. You have the power to think something different to before. You have the power to ask empowering questions rather than using your mind, your voice, and your vision as you have till now. You have the power use your creativity to continue the experience you have brought yourself to, or to help you live and be as you prefer to be. You have the power to let go of what you don’t like, to let go of your regrets, to let go of self condemnation.

You have the power and the choice within you. You may be able to change some things in your world, and there may be some things you can not change, but the change and choice I am pointing to is about you.

We don’t have these things “done” to us. As human beings, we choose what we are BE IN g within ourselves in each moment of existence. Constantly we are creating what we are being, and thus the experience and reality. One person may say, this is good, but someone else may say it is “bad” about the same thing. Which is right. Both are. It is a self created reality.

The power is not in the past, but living out of each moment of existence, and consciously creating what you are in being. You wont found the power in another person or thing. You wont find the power outside of this moment of existence. In truth this moment is all that ever is , was and will ever be. This is where everything resides. All power. All experience.

How would you like to be? What / who would you be, and what would you be doing.
What would you be feeling, seeing, hearing, knowing as a current experience. Seeing as how you can recollect the past you can also look for any moments in your life where you felt the way you prefer to be. Weather it is feeling love, peace, excitement, possibility, etc This needs to be done regularly to build the physical neural pathways to the new reality to the point where it takes little effort to “become” the joy, the peace or whatever qualities you are choosing for yourself.

[Freelancer]

Haven't read the entire thread but figure I'd throw in my suggestion anyway;

The things you know are true (stop me if I'm incorrect );
- You created your situation, either through action in the past or the thoughts you used to have (ie either 'realist' view or 'LOA' view doesn't really matter)
- Your not very happy right now
- You would like to be happy

If all those things are true and you know that whatever you belief is completely arbitrary and based on your past experiences/random occurences/own molding. What you belief seems like its real to you, but in reality its basically a fiction that your brain created to survive. Might as well use this to help you out in this little 'situation'.

You can change your own beliefs so start doing that based on how it will affect your emotions/happiness level. If you right now belief you need;
- Lotsa money
- A specific person in your life
- Big car/big house/lots off respect/power/etc/etc/etc
to be happy
You can change it into;
- I need to be alive
to be happy

Voila turned it around, the funny thing is that getting everything you WANT is much easier now as well because your not bothered by these annoying things called doubt/fear/anxiety/etc.

Its a funny catch22, to get what you want you first need to stop needing what you want (think about that one for a while, I'll do the same ). Kinda tough lol...



Anyway start believing what helps you most instead of believing what you think is the truth, after all there ain't no real truth anyway just constructs of the mind...

[John Hill]

Feeling the way you do, it will be hard to change your beliefs directly without a lot of seriously hard work and this would take time. At the moment you are on a low vibration level and so are the people around you. When you work on Raising Your Vibration you will start to feel better as time passes in a gradual way. One day you will simply feel better than the day before and in time you will start feeling good every day. As you raise your vibration, other people residing on a higher vibration will come into your life, so will more pleasant experiences. The people who remain on the lower vibration will no longer remain in your life.

The only thing you need to believe is, that things can get better, and they will.

John

Attracting People.com

[cbreeze]

Hesitated to see if anyone posted. Feeling invisible these days, along w/my dilema sounding contrived. Wish. Was about to quit browsing but you all made my day just listening unconditionally. I extend sincere thanks.

Yes, yesterdays's losses now in past, tomorrow our creations today. Need to do major work on letting go and moving on from a lot of haunting things. You posted what I needed to see and absorb.

Sending cyber love/energy to stangers who care because in reality - that's what it's all about; i attracted only the savy who knew what to say and are blessed with a heart instead pseudo notions, egos and what/whom they worship. Thank you to the intuitive savy ppl who responded.

[Love]

Hi, Annah.

What one thing could you work to right now to make you feel great??

[LifeProCoach]

Dear Annah,

I would like to emphasize the already mentioned possibility of using EFT as a possibility of raising your vibration. When you're low on energy, depressed, you're vibrating on a lower frequency than when you are happy and relaxed.

There is a recording on this site, which I leave here in a link. When you listen to the recording, you can instantly start tapping and if you have questions, just send me a PM as the process is not magical and instant but it has a very high success rate.

Depression - Thriving Now

Please know that you are not powerless and alone. You are a child of the universe and as such a valuable member of our society. The perception of your current situation is a vision which you have a choice about how you want to feel. You can choose to feel bad and let yourself to drift off into self pitty and dispair OR you can choose to start working yourself up and increase your vibrational level by actively seeking assistance. And since you're posting here and calling for help, you are doing the latter, which is the best thing you can do. Look to your options now. Apply the counsel that is given and listen to the little voice inside of you that guides you and says: Do something.

There are some wonderful people on here that are using their time to help others. Make sure that you make ample use of their kindness which is here for your support.

Don't continue to feel down. Start making a decision about how you want to feel.

I send my loving greetings and hope that you will let us know how you are doing.

All the best.

LPC

[cbreeze]

Need to vent - this is going to be a tad long winded and redundant.

It's a fact. It's the LOA working so in my face/life/heart/mind that it took me till now to realize i created the experiences and the players. damn it!!!! why not earlier i wonder, why so much suffering (late 40's) when all the while i was so busy blaming my life always being so sucky when it was I who made it that way. I hope they begin teaching this to kids instead of focusing on the sinners we are (I was baptized catholic, but don't believe in god). wish i did so i can release all the pent up angst to "him" and feel loved. Prob is I've never ever felt connected nor belonging to my family - felt different. People always said i was charming/attractive/spirited. i've always hated myself or made (chose) to feel not good enough. I chose a dysnfunctional family who had horrible childhoods.

After four marriages/divorces, two LTR used to getting approval from the outside - inside I was selfish, sense of entitlement, negative, critical and judgemental. Things every relationship had. Last two ended it and made me feel a lot like Dad did. Not good enough, smart, motivated enough. So I sided with them, focusing on the lack. Now it makes sense why I have a crisis du jouir. All those friends I had while a child? I don't have one right now. I'd isolate or indulge in the dysfunctional relationship - anything to not be alone with myself, yet I like living alone as well. But am getting older, need friends, need to be happy within as well as balanced, consistent, and sense of self - in order to find the one we all would like to meet - we need to be it - it's true.

Yesterday, today spent whole day speaking with attorney's to find out I have no rights to claim all the money I've wasted believing in this relationship. He walks unscathed and it angers me that I'm the one left with a broken heart/dreams and less money and hope - yah, sounding like a victim. But, to know that this guy has hurt everyone he cared about - I can't allow. He's such a narcissist and shallow, thinking his last name and looks give him the right to hurt others and goes to church every sunday - what a hypocritical jerk who's has everyone believing he's so honest and filled with integrity. I'm livid. Not having closure is tearing me up and unable to speak to him - even more, nor hear from him. And I created it. Makes me wonder what next one would have been like if I didn't change my thoughts/energy/beliefs. I'm so hurting and mad and sad and all this wasted time doing things wrong. I should have listened to my parents, who really had it hard - they'd say happiness is a choice. It saddens me they are not around to some day, hopefully soon, see me genuinely happy and not bellyaching about someone/something.

k, well, I needed that. thx for your time reading this and again, for your kind words of encouragement and being frank as well.