Strange feeling of love and happiness yet I am single????
 

This is so strange.....

it's like maybe I didn't understand everything fully??
Life's lessons?????

Maybe like some spiritual teaches think as we get closer to 2012...
out minds and spirits open up to the truth????

I had for the last year and half... been angry...
and full of ambition for money....

I found some inner peace....
and balance.. turned the anger into motivation.....

But yet at the same time was not able to find that same love
and happiness in my soul.. like when I was in love.... over a year ago....

But then I saw a movie last night... about two lovers....
in the end she died....
But the thing was.. she taught him to SEE.. and LIVE...
and be happy for the first time.... before he wanted to die.....

The movie touched me so much....
then I read when we are in love... it's only a reflection of our own soul...
that person just opened the energy and happiness inside us... !

It's so strange.... i always thought I needed that special someone to be happy..
i found her.. then my eyes were open...
then I was angry when she left.....

But this movie made me see... she taught me a life lesson!!

It was a strange destiny!!

I feel so in love.. and happy... not with a person..
maybe with myself.. and the earth....
nature.. and the magical butterflies!!

I have been on a major high.. since i woke up..
now I will sleep again..
at first the movie made me cry....
then smile..
then woke up with a spring in my step.....

It's just liek when I was deeply in love!!!
a huge high.. like I am on drugs.. or drunk...
but it does not wear off.....

Now I will have ambition for money and things...
but i look at things with more happiness..
and love....

I think I found what I searched for my whole life....
to have inner peace...and power...
and even though.. i was angry she left....

I am happy she opened my eyes.. to life..
and love.. and now I see everything more beautiful...

because my soul and heart is open and free again.....

Perhaps a soul mate.. is not truly there for me..
but my light.. and essence.. will shine till the end of time!!!

I leave you with this song
Cat Stevens - If you want to sing out - YouTube

and this funny video..
Pepe The Box Clown Episode 2 - YouTube :d