Emotional Interference

[straysweeper]

My Limbic System seems to get the better of me more times than not. When interacting with people Its almost like I'm constantly restreaming the events in my mind sorting and filtering and reacting rather than fully being present and paying attention to the cues of others. Micro Expressions and other body language cues.

I even feel like this when people aren't around, perhaps to a greater degree. In many situations aggressive or confrontational events will trigger this to an extreme where I shutdown and can't focus or interact because emotions are so strong.

[RonSouther]

Originally Posted by straysweeper

My Limbic System seems to get the better of me more times than not. When interacting with people Its almost like I'm constantly restreaming the events in my mind sorting and filtering and reacting rather than fully being present and paying attention to the cues of others. Micro Expressions and other body language cues.

I even feel like this when people aren't around, perhaps to a greater degree. In many situations aggressive or confrontational events will trigger this to an extreme where I shutdown and can't focus or interact because emotions are so strong.

I used to do this to the point of having chronic irritable bowel syndrome. I ordered a $400 self help program and the first cassette I listened to gave me the tool I needed. I never listened to the rest of the tapes.

When I would get wrapped up in mental role playing, I would say "I don't think this way anymore" and interupt the thought pattern. I broke that habit in a few days, felt instantly better, no more irritable bowel, and that was 8 years ago. It's gone forever because I learned to take control back from my mind is this area. I don't role play in my head anymore. I don't practice conflicts or have the conflicts that I was to scared to do in real life.

Then about 6 years ago, I started opening up to others about my repressed feelings and now I'm to the point where I walk into conflict as needed. I learn not to fight with my nature. I came to see what my gifts are and my limits and I've been realigning my life to "me".

It's an arduous process because the world around me leans on me and can't have me as an "individual". I'm supposed to be a role before I'm a human being.

Nope, no more.