My head is busy.

[krazylearner]

Hello everyone sorry if i am posting this thread in wrong section.My problem goes like this

I was once smoking weed and suddenly got something like an attack in my mind.I am not a regular smoker .Actually it was my second attempt.I can't explain the attack clearly but it was for like 1 -2 hrs .After that i was in a numb mood for another 1 2 day.Then everything started to get normal and i got normal eventually.Suddenly after 2 - 3 days of being normal something similar to first attack but of very low intensity again stuck my head.I then thought it was because of lack of nutrition in my body.After that second attack which last for about half an hour my mind started to create very bad thoughts about reality for next 3 -4 days.After that i got normal but not completely.It was 2 weeks ago . Now my current symptoms are

Feeling something is going in my mind.Very few negative thoughts.i have complete sense of reality but there is something which keeps my mind processing.i can feel that processing.Also i have lost my attractions.i think they are just random thoughts and will go as soon as i will develop my lost attractions like my goal etc etc.consider my situation as someone is sitting in my mind and whenever i try to do something which feels me better start resistance against it.

Any help is appreciated.Also will explain anything regarding my problem.Not a native English speaker so please forgive me for mistakes.

[Clint Cora]

My initial thoughts upon reading your post is to give up weed and any other illicit drugs altogether. Then since you mentioned 'nutrition', I would think that perhaps you feel inside that sometimes you are not eating right. So make sure that you are eating healthy from now on.

If you are not already doing so, become physically active too to ensure that you get lots of exercise into your life. With these three main factors, they should being you much improvement to your life.

If and only if your issues still exist, then at least you've taken some major steps in your life to become a healthy person. The next step would be to get professional health for any outstanding issues you may have.

This is the progression I would recommend. Good luck.

[krazylearner]

thank you for your reply sir .I really really appreciate this and i really need help to get rid of it.Now i can clearly explain about my problem .


Physically i am feeling little bit weak . i am frustrated with this.Also i have stopped laughing .I really don't know how to get rid of it.I am not able to concentrate on my studies too.I know that i can't resist the problem or try to pretend that it does not exist.The more a resist or try to forget the more it gets bigger.It is just a one or two thoughts that are stuck in my mind and start their chattering right from the morning since i wake up. It is like ghost in my mind and nothing more.Literally they have taken much of my concentration.
I am avoiding to meet any doctor because i don't think the problem is too big .Most of the time my mind remains calm .It is just busy in thinking of it which i feels annoying

Also sir i have not taken the weed after that.It was my second and last time.Now i really regret why i smoked it.

[krazylearner]

Before the attack I always had a feeling of shortage of time and doing everything perfect since 3 years.I read somewhere that they are also the symptoms of not normal mind.But i never feel unhappy or numbness or no zeal.My mind was always busy in doing something or setting up of goals.
Physically i think i suffer from under weight.One thing i want you to tell is that i am suffering from nightfall from past 3 4 years.I know it is quite embarassing but i think that it has greatly deteriorated my mental health.
i want to cure my physical as well as mental health now.

please help

[krazylearner]

i want to explain my thought more clearly.Actually it is like my mind has developed the doubt that my body has some problem even though it does not have one.It is like my subconcious are reprogrammed to continuously create that thought and feeling of doubt.That continuous thought of doubt sometimes create doubt about reality ,doubt about something which makes me feel happy and everything else.It is also responsible for making me numb and unhappy.

Actually i feel like i am in a non ending cycle of doubt....

[RonSouther]

Originally Posted by krazylearner

Physically i am feeling little bit weak . i am frustrated with this.Also i have stopped laughing .I really don't know how to get rid of it.I am not able to concentrate on my studies too.I know that i can't resist the problem or try to pretend that it does not exist.The more a resist or try to forget the more it gets bigger.It is just a one or two thoughts that are stuck in my mind and start their chattering right from the morning since i wake up. It is like ghost in my mind and nothing more.Literally they have taken much of my concentration.

That's an outstanding observation. And please, whatever you obeserve, don't judge it. Just try to learn from it and your statement in bold above reflects learning.

I'm wondering if the "high" created a spiritual awakening of some sort. You may be right that it reprogrammed your subconscious mind or rather purged it of repressed energy and emotions.

Please read this guy's story to see if it rings a little true for you. His story is about a bipolar psychosis but it may have some parallels with your experience. I would highly recommend watching his youtube videos no matter what as 90% of the material is relevant to everyone and covers what you may have experienced. The videos are numbered and best watched in order....10 minutes each....really transformational for me! Bipolar 1 Disorder with Sean Blackwell - Profound-Self-Help.com

Another great read is this book.... Online Store - Spiritual Emergency: When Personal Transformation Becomes a Crisis (New Consciousness Readers)

[krazylearner]

Before that attack i had a feeling of separation from the world .I used to think lots of about life ,how it is created and related stuff.Sometimes i was living in subjective reality .

[krazylearner]

Thank you for your reply.

You are right it is similar to my experience about 10 15 percent.But the symptoms are not matching with me.Only the experience (that high energy) and causes(in 1 video).But i think that i have some sort of energy still left in my mind after that enlightenment.That energy is not allowing my mind to think freely.Also my level of enlightenment is very low.

[Clint Cora]

Originally Posted by krazylearner

I am avoiding to meet any doctor because i don't think the problem is too big

From what you wrote in this thread so far, it doesn't seem that your problems are too small for a doctor. My suggestion still holds - see a professional who would be much more qualified than any of us here.

As for your studies, I can suggest my study skills video. But for other issues, they are definitely in the area for health professionals to help you.

[krazylearner]

From what you wrote in this thread so far, it doesn't seem that your problems are too small for a doctor. My suggestion still holds - see a professional who would be much more qualified than any of us here.

Thank you sir for your guidance.
but the problem is gone now .I was sure from the very beginning that the problem was from my mind and not because it has lost some chemical balance but because of the emotions and thoughts and my way of handling them.I was not letting them go but instead was fighting with them with confirmations and new thoughts.

Now i realized that our body has complete self healing mechanism.

Many thanks to you and RonSouther.