My head is busy.

[krazylearner]

Hello everyone sorry if i am posting this thread in wrong section.My problem goes like this

I was once smoking weed and suddenly got something like an attack in my mind.I am not a regular smoker .Actually it was my second attempt.I can't explain the attack clearly but it was for like 1 -2 hrs .After that i was in a numb mood for another 1 2 day.Then everything started to get normal and i got normal eventually.Suddenly after 2 - 3 days of being normal something similar to first attack but of very low intensity again stuck my head.I then thought it was because of lack of nutrition in my body.After that second attack which last for about half an hour my mind started to create very bad thoughts about reality for next 3 -4 days.After that i got normal but not completely.It was 2 weeks ago . Now my current symptoms are

Feeling something is going in my mind.Very few negative thoughts.i have complete sense of reality but there is something which keeps my mind processing.i can feel that processing.Also i have lost my attractions.i think they are just random thoughts and will go as soon as i will develop my lost attractions like my goal etc etc.consider my situation as someone is sitting in my mind and whenever i try to do something which feels me better start resistance against it.

Any help is appreciated.Also will explain anything regarding my problem.Not a native English speaker so please forgive me for mistakes.

[Clint Cora]

My initial thoughts upon reading your post is to give up weed and any other illicit drugs altogether. Then since you mentioned 'nutrition', I would think that perhaps you feel inside that sometimes you are not eating right. So make sure that you are eating healthy from now on.

If you are not already doing so, become physically active too to ensure that you get lots of exercise into your life. With these three main factors, they should being you much improvement to your life.

If and only if your issues still exist, then at least you've taken some major steps in your life to become a healthy person. The next step would be to get professional health for any outstanding issues you may have.

This is the progression I would recommend. Good luck.

[krazylearner]

thank you for your reply sir .I really really appreciate this and i really need help to get rid of it.Now i can clearly explain about my problem .


Physically i am feeling little bit weak . i am frustrated with this.Also i have stopped laughing .I really don't know how to get rid of it.I am not able to concentrate on my studies too.I know that i can't resist the problem or try to pretend that it does not exist.The more a resist or try to forget the more it gets bigger.It is just a one or two thoughts that are stuck in my mind and start their chattering right from the morning since i wake up. It is like ghost in my mind and nothing more.Literally they have taken much of my concentration.
I am avoiding to meet any doctor because i don't think the problem is too big .Most of the time my mind remains calm .It is just busy in thinking of it which i feels annoying

Also sir i have not taken the weed after that.It was my second and last time.Now i really regret why i smoked it.

[krazylearner]

Before the attack I always had a feeling of shortage of time and doing everything perfect since 3 years.I read somewhere that they are also the symptoms of not normal mind.But i never feel unhappy or numbness or no zeal.My mind was always busy in doing something or setting up of goals.
Physically i think i suffer from under weight.One thing i want you to tell is that i am suffering from nightfall from past 3 4 years.I know it is quite embarassing but i think that it has greatly deteriorated my mental health.
i want to cure my physical as well as mental health now.

please help

[krazylearner]

i want to explain my thought more clearly.Actually it is like my mind has developed the doubt that my body has some problem even though it does not have one.It is like my subconcious are reprogrammed to continuously create that thought and feeling of doubt.That continuous thought of doubt sometimes create doubt about reality ,doubt about something which makes me feel happy and everything else.It is also responsible for making me numb and unhappy.

Actually i feel like i am in a non ending cycle of doubt....

[RonSouther]

Originally Posted by krazylearner

Physically i am feeling little bit weak . i am frustrated with this.Also i have stopped laughing .I really don't know how to get rid of it.I am not able to concentrate on my studies too.I know that i can't resist the problem or try to pretend that it does not exist.The more a resist or try to forget the more it gets bigger.It is just a one or two thoughts that are stuck in my mind and start their chattering right from the morning since i wake up. It is like ghost in my mind and nothing more.Literally they have taken much of my concentration.

That's an outstanding observation. And please, whatever you obeserve, don't judge it. Just try to learn from it and your statement in bold above reflects learning.

I'm wondering if the "high" created a spiritual awakening of some sort. You may be right that it reprogrammed your subconscious mind or rather purged it of repressed energy and emotions.

Please read this guy's story to see if it rings a little true for you. His story is about a bipolar psychosis but it may have some parallels with your experience. I would highly recommend watching his youtube videos no matter what as 90% of the material is relevant to everyone and covers what you may have experienced. The videos are numbered and best watched in order....10 minutes each....really transformational for me! Bipolar 1 Disorder with Sean Blackwell - Profound-Self-Help.com

Another great read is this book.... Online Store - Spiritual Emergency: When Personal Transformation Becomes a Crisis (New Consciousness Readers)

[krazylearner]

Before that attack i had a feeling of separation from the world .I used to think lots of about life ,how it is created and related stuff.Sometimes i was living in subjective reality .

[krazylearner]

Thank you for your reply.

You are right it is similar to my experience about 10 15 percent.But the symptoms are not matching with me.Only the experience (that high energy) and causes(in 1 video).But i think that i have some sort of energy still left in my mind after that enlightenment.That energy is not allowing my mind to think freely.Also my level of enlightenment is very low.

[RonSouther]

Originally Posted by krazylearner

Thank you for your reply.

You are right it is similar to my experience about 10 15 percent.But the symptoms are not matching with me.Only the experience (that high energy) and causes(in 1 video).But i think that i have some sort of energy still left in my mind after that enlightenment.That energy is not allowing my mind to think freely.Also my level of enlightenment is very low.

I really enjoyed videos #1, 13, 14 and 21 (or was it 22, whichever one continued on about 13/14). Those were the transformational ones for me. I watched them all and becames online friends with the author.

The Grof book about spiritual emergencies may do a better job of relating to you about your experience. I haven't had your type of experience so I can't do much except guess and point you towards others that may have had something similar.

I do have the experience of clearing out the subconscious mind and freeing up my creativity. In that experience, my world flipped right side up as I was now driven from my heart and not my logic. I no longer could watch the news, no longer read novels, or watch war movies or suspense thrillers because all of it was head driven. All of a sudden, I enjoyed really well done chick flicks and nature shows. My judgment became compassion for myself and for everyone.

Don't bother judging drug use. It's a social stygma. You're alive and well. A joint or two didn't ruined your life or send you to the grave. I'm not saying to use drugs or not use them, I'm just saying what is important is that experience you watched in you, how it opened up a whole other side of life that made life fresh again and interesting.

You got a peek at something amazing. Now what stands between you and more of those experiences is not drug use, but the elimination of habitual thinking given to you by culture and religion. All that creates an ongoing mental confusion that drives us to use drugs to escape this mind that won't shut up. So drugs aren't the long term solution, they just happened to get you a glimpse at your potential.

Sex can have that same effect but neither drugs nor sex = happiness. Happiness happens when you simply get to be you, free of a mind that won't shut up.

[krazylearner]

Again many thanks for your videos.These videos are really transforming me.

I do have the experience of clearing out the subconscious mind and freeing up my creativity.

How did you do that ? Can you please suggest me some methods ? I need to do them to forget the experience of the hit.

I no longer could watch the news, no longer read novels, or watch war movies or suspense thrillers because all of it was head driven.

It sounds like your story is very similar to me .

Yesterday (night )i had a very similar attack of that kind (extremely low intensity) but i was able to feel it and was very similar to the first two attacks.I think it released some leftover energy from me.I am feeling very relaxed and haven't feel like it from 2 weeks.
But now i think i need to do little bit of exercise , some mix up with the society to increase my mind health because that thought is still there however it is very week.I am sure i will forget it after i will get mixed up with the society.

You're alive and well. A joint or two didn't ruined your life or send you to the grave.

You are right.I can say it with complete guarantee that the drug has not done any damage to me.

[RonSouther]

Originally Posted by krazylearner

Again many thanks for your videos.These videos are really transforming me.



How did you do that ? Can you please suggest me some methods ? I need to do them to forget the experience of the hit.

My method has been to read a guy named Osho. He's a pro at pointing out the stuff about the mind, ego, beliefs and conditionings...the habitual thinking. I will PM you more info....you can find his entire work for free online.

It sounds like your story is very similar to me .

Yesterday (night )i had a very similar attack of that kind (extremely low intensity) but i was able to feel it and was very similar to the first two attacks.I think it released some leftover energy from me.I am feeling very relaxed and haven't feel like it from 2 weeks.
But now i think i need to do little bit of exercise , some mix up with the society to increase my mind health because that thought is still there however it is very week.I am sure i will forget it after i will get mixed up with the society.

You are right.I can say it with complete guarantee that the drug has not done any damage to me.

Drugs aren't the problem, sex isn't the problem....the problem is why we use them. To escape facing our lives is the wrong reason. Other than that, they don't mean anything to us if we know who we are. I've got no compulsion to use drugs because I have no desire to escape life.

If I'm addicted to anything, it's this seeking, and that's ok because it's a journey that eliminates all addictions including "seeking"!!

It's a journey from living in the mind's ideas and conditionings to living from the heart. All addictions are mental in the end. Without the mental illness of living from logic, there's no need to escape, you simply enjoy yourself. You'll naturally find ways to express yourself in a positive and creative way.

[krazylearner]

My method has been to read a guy named Osho.

This guy belongs from My country INDIA.And most us (mean Indians) think that he is ruining our society which is not the actual truth.

Besides this i am feeling relaxed today.Thank you for those videos.I too think that my life is changed to something better and good.

Thank you for your videos.

Be my guest if any time you come to India or osho.

It's a journey from living in the mind's ideas and conditionings to living from the heart. All addictions are mental in the end. Without the mental illness of living from logic, there's no need to escape, you simply enjoy yourself. You'll naturally find ways to express yourself in a positive and creative way

These are some of the best words which i have heard in past 1 year.

[RonSouther]

Originally Posted by krazylearner

This guy belongs from My country INDIA.And most us (mean Indians) think that he is ruining our society which is not the actual truth.

Besides this i am feeling relaxed today.Thank you for those videos.I too think that my life is changed to something better and good.

Thank you for your videos.

Be my guest if any time you come to India or osho.

These are some of the best words which i have heard in past 1 year.

Thanks! Osho does a great comparison of Hilter and Gandhi if you're interest....I can send it to you.

Osho will ruin traditions for sure but traditions are mental prisons.

[krazylearner]

Osho will ruin traditions for sure but traditions are mental prisons.

Yeah definitely.

[Clint Cora]

Originally Posted by krazylearner

I am avoiding to meet any doctor because i don't think the problem is too big

From what you wrote in this thread so far, it doesn't seem that your problems are too small for a doctor. My suggestion still holds - see a professional who would be much more qualified than any of us here.

As for your studies, I can suggest my study skills video. But for other issues, they are definitely in the area for health professionals to help you.

[krazylearner]

From what you wrote in this thread so far, it doesn't seem that your problems are too small for a doctor. My suggestion still holds - see a professional who would be much more qualified than any of us here.

Thank you sir for your guidance.
but the problem is gone now .I was sure from the very beginning that the problem was from my mind and not because it has lost some chemical balance but because of the emotions and thoughts and my way of handling them.I was not letting them go but instead was fighting with them with confirmations and new thoughts.

Now i realized that our body has complete self healing mechanism.

Many thanks to you and RonSouther.