I feel like my new life I wanted so much is just nothingin comparison to my old one.

[reflection]

I knew from the beginning that going abroad to study is a huge chance for me and the best choice,but now being here all that I'm thinking about is how things would be if I didn't make this step.Except the fact that I probably would regret it in a way,but I don't know I feel like I'm missing something important,like if I stayed home my life would be totally different and I would be more happier.That's the way I'm thinking right now.

I would post some thoughts I wrote in my journal these days:
"3 months has passed and I don’t feel like being part of this country. I wish I could be like a tourist cause he at least will visit and take pictures of the city, but I am not. I know almost all the streets in this town but they don’t recognize me when I walk on them. For them I am a stranger and I will always be a stranger.
Why I always tend to change this new life into my old one? Even if I’m not at home I always want things to be like there were supposed to be at home. All I need is to get accustomed to this new things but I don’t! I always want things to be the way I feel they must be. And they must be the way I know from the beginning how things work."

[GregD]

hi, to enjoy something new one must look at it with fresh eyes, like a baby
if you are still connected to the old, its hard to not think about it
so just treat it like an adventure, just be curious, there must be a lot for you to discover either alone or with friends

that said the saying is true that people always think the neighbour's grass is greener

[Lynn 007]

I agree with GregD. You need to look at your situation with fresh eyes.

Do you know how many people at home are so envious of you right now? You have a chance to explore a new city, make new friends while learning.

Try not to focus on the past and embrace where you are now and do something new every day. There probably isn't anythng important going on at home except you're homesick, that is understandable, change isn't easy. You miss things that are comforting to you (familar faces, conversations, neighbourhoods, etc).

You can always go home but you don't have the chance to study abroad every day.

Enjoy the experience and know once you're finished and are on that plane back home; you did something that was best for you and you grew as a person.

[gene2009]

You're lucky. I'm sick of my hometown and country. However, i've not had a chance to move to another country. I just dream about it