I woke up in tears

[Midwinter Mist]

I was back and forth over whether or not I should post this in the topic I already have running, but I just felt that other people who could provide insight onto this specific matter may not find it in my other topic. It's not an attempt to create multiple posts for the sake of it or anything like that.

I've been emotionally numb for most of this year, and it has affected me in many ways. But lately I've been building some new frustration and confusion, and last night / this morning had me waking with some tears.

One after another, my dreams were all emotional, full of love, hate, disgust, lust, anger, family problems and much more. But it was the last dream, one that was so long and emotional (and in it I was so emotional) that I woke up with some tears in my eyes. I've since been feeling a bit edgy, distraught and fearful that the dream could come true. In any case, it almost feels like whatever has been locked away tried to find a way out in that dream. I can't tell at this point whether this 'emotional block' I've had has in fact cleared, but I do feel weird, and thoughts of the dream are making me uneasy and there is some mild emotion attached.

I just want to know what this usually means, if it can ultimately be a good thing, and what I should do if it happens again. I read that this can mean that the emotions can no longer be held back/suppressed.

I was running certain things through my mind before sleep, hoping for answers. I also did something that somebody suggested to me, which was writing a letter to my 'inner self'. I don't know if they contributed.

[RonSouther]

Originally Posted by Midwinter Mist

I just want to know what this usually means, if it can ultimately be a good thing, and what I should do if it happens again. I read that this can mean that the emotions can no longer be held back/suppressed.

You already know the answer. You're having these nightmares because you are repressing emotions. Those dreams are your repressed emotions being expressed.

So just stop repressing. But it's not that easy, right, because you're in some kind of relationship or environment where you don't feel free to be yourself. Otherwise, why repress?

The hardest thing in life is to be yourself at all costs. But to repress is costing you dearly.

[abcbac]

I think it is good. I think you need to face these emotions because it looks like to me that you are avoiding them. I know what you mean when you say emotionally numb cause I have experienced that. I wish I could cry more cause it releases emotions that have been repressed. and you get a sense of relief .