Missing my ex :(

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I'm upset, so I thought it'd be a good idea to just post about it and get it out there. I feel lonely, and theres not really anyone I can talk to about this.

In a nutshell I miss my ex boyfriend, we broke up almost a month ago. I miss him so much. It didn't really end well, he's bitter and cold to me now. He tells me how happy he is without me, and that he doesn't care about me. But I don't think people who are happy are mean and cold. He told me that he's gotten sick of me.

From past experiences from when things went wrong in the relationship, He tends to close up and get mean. He's not the kind of person to express that he's hurt, he's never really learned how to deal with emotions, and had a tough childhood.

I don't know, maybe i'm over analyzing, and trying to justify everything. I just wish I could we could try and give it another go. I miss him so much. It just hit me so hard right now, I usually can just be blank about it, but it just hit me and I miss him so much it kills me, and I hope so much that he misses me too.

I don't really have any friends to hang out with, my only real friend is my cousin, and she doesn't really talk to me anymore, so i'm generally alone.

I just don't know what to think, or how to stop missing him. Bleh.