Voices/bullying

[CroMagna]

I hear voices that constantly berate me, lecture me, mock me, and humiliate me. It stems from a lifetime of being bullied, criticized for every little thing, made to feel like I'm never "good enough", people threatened by me because of my intellect of unusual ways, humiliation, and being trampled by others. For example. I hear my old boss saying I'm lazy, mocking me for thinking people were jealous or that I'm not a conformist like them, calling me dirty, fat, not nice, selfish (for not wanting children), every name in the book. i.e. "you see where all your intelligence got you."

1. How do I get these voices to disappear? Meds don't work.
2. How do I cope with the anger and resentment that these voices bring up?
3. How do I cope with the anger and resentment towards people who have bullied me?
4. How will I address future bullying? I'm not aggressive, so I can't make the person's life a living hell, like I wish I could.
5. How do I achieve a sense of vindication or triump?

[rawxstasy]

I haven't been bullied much but when I was more quiet and unsure of myself, I attracted people who would be rude to me etc. Now people don't mess with me

What I did was get quiet and let these voices come out. I would observe them as an outsider. Not say anything or argue with it. Just let it be. Eventually it quieted and stopped. ( this took about 2 -3 years ) That was doing this exercise anywhere from five minutes per day to an hour or more.

When I was at work or busy or something and these voices would start I would either ignore or say the opposite. For example - "You are so stupid" Me -"that's not true, I would have graduated from nursing school if I was stupid." But the whole observing and just letting it out helped me more.

When feelings of anger or resentment come up, just observe again let yourself feel it. Eventually it will dissapate. You can't get "rid off" anger. This is all emotions that you have held inside and the only relief is to let them come up again and they will release.

I think as you become more self confident, the energy will transmit to others and you won't get bullied. I swear since my self esteem is higher people just don't bother me anymore. I think when you have healed the sense of freedom will be a feeling of triumph that you have overcome so many obstacles and overcome the anger.

[EarthGoddessCarla]

The voices will not disappear they will change, soon as you master one of these fears another will appear UNTIL you have mastered each and every fear and guilt that lives in your sub-conscience..... Have you heard what does not kill us will make us stronger! Well it is a fact....... alot of us with abilities are dying or being institutionalized. We have to maintain that every voice and every trial is to make us stronger.

We all carry those demons, and they will throw false truths at you all the time.... your job is to develop the ability to become the human lie detector.

Originally Posted by CroMagna

I hear voices that constantly berate me, lecture me, mock me, and humiliate me. It stems from a lifetime of being bullied, criticized for every little thing, made to feel like I'm never "good enough", people threatened by me because of my intellect of unusual ways, humiliation, and being trampled by others. For example. I hear my old boss saying I'm lazy, mocking me for thinking people were jealous or that I'm not a conformist like them, calling me dirty, fat, not nice, selfish (for not wanting children), every name in the book. i.e. "you see where all your intelligence got you."

1. How do I get these voices to disappear? Meds don't work.
2. How do I cope with the anger and resentment that these voices bring up?
3. How do I cope with the anger and resentment towards people who have bullied me?
4. How will I address future bullying? I'm not aggressive, so I can't make the person's life a living hell, like I wish I could.
5. How do I achieve a sense of vindication or triump?

[Acting Like Godot]

The voices are your own thoughts.

So effectively what you are asking is - "How do I deal with my win negative and repetitive thoughts?".

There are different ways. Read Eckhart Tolle's books, or Ruiz's "The Voice of Knowledge".

Or do what I do. Recognize that you can exert power over your thoughts. The voices in my head are all cooperative, friendly and helpful. I trained them to be that way. Like good little dogs.

[elucidate]

Originally Posted by Acting Like Godot

The voices are your own thoughts.

So effectively what you are asking is - "How do I deal with my win negative and repetitive thoughts?".

There are different ways. Read Eckhart Tolle's books, or Ruiz's "The Voice of Knowledge".

Or do what I do. Recognize that you can exert power over your thoughts. The voices in my head are all cooperative, friendly and helpful. I trained them to be that way. Like good little dogs.

This is true too.

All those thoughts are you thinking that about yourself. It may be that it stemmed from other people initially, but now it is you thinking these things.

The same goes for when you think great things about yourself...you attract people who see those awesome things about you, because that is what you are focussing your thoughts on.

You can change you inner self-talk and I suggest you start to. It takes time but you can do it.

[Carri C]

check out byron katie's "the work" - an awesome process for challenging and changing our beliefs about ourselves. all her resources are free online. just google her.

[ZephyrusX]

I can relate to the voices thing. They can be very crippling if you let them. Just two things I noticed. The voices tend to appear and reappear when stressors show up in my life. It might help to examine your environment and change things around a bit if something is making you very stressed (like your current living conditions, perhaps?). The voices get worse or fade away depending on whether or not you fuel them. I like the idea of just observing your thoughts as an insider; the opposite is choosing to actively facilitate the negative spiral of your thoughts.

Anyway, thanks for starting this thread. I got a couple of books that seem worthwhile to read out of it.