2p = 1 personality

[DarkTears]

not sure if this is the right place to put this but...........


anyways, is it possible for two different personalities to combine into one? the reason I ask of this is because, I am usually kind and very nice and I dont like to hurt people but at the same time I feel like hurting people, and get very happy and excited when that happens, I feel like I can punch a random person with a smile and still not feel anything for him, at the same time feel very sad but happy.....I have had random thoughts of killing people and i start to get laughter after...........in a way im kinda scared of myself............

im open to any suggestions that it might be something else as well......

[KazeCraven]

Well, yes. You're one person and have both qualities right?

You just need to figure out why you sometimes feel like being nice and sometimes feel like punching people in the face. Is it something about the people? Is it about your mood?

More importantly, have you ever actually punched someone in the face with a smile? Is that really how you are, or is that simply a force inside yourself?

I wouldn't be so quick to assume that everything inside your mind is you. But that doesn't mean you can't assimilate it into yourself.

[ssandra]

I don't know if this is similar for you, but I thought I'd put it out there.

Whenever I am having violent thoughts towards others, it is because I am not feeling good about myself. It happens when my self esteem is lower, when I am not feeling on top of my game, etc.

When I work on that, I feel better again, and I want to be nice to everybody again.

[ZephyrusX]

Are you saying that you have two different sides of you that have conflicting interestsÉ What are those interestsÉ For example, when I am feeling hatred or hostility towards others, the underlying feeling is one of powerlessness and what I want to feel is the confidence that comes with power.

É = question mark, btw... my keyboard is being wonky...

[Arz Sra]

Originally Posted by DarkTears

not sure if this is the right place to put this but...........


anyways, is it possible for two different personalities to combine into one? the reason I ask of this is because, I am usually kind and very nice and I dont like to hurt people but at the same time I feel like hurting people, and get very happy and excited when that happens, I feel like I can punch a random person with a smile and still not feel anything for him, at the same time feel very sad but happy.....I have had random thoughts of killing people and i start to get laughter after...........in a way im kinda scared of myself............

im open to any suggestions that it might be something else as well......

One cannot define oneself. Because that which defines changes each moment. We tether ourselves to identities like – ‘serious’, ‘lover’, ‘intelligent’, ‘smart’, ‘unpredictable’, this and that – these are the opinions we keep carrying about ourselves; without realizing that that whatever there is is irrespective of your definition of it. We focus on identities. Our identities become important , living becomes secondary. Our actions spring from superficial identities, not from who we are. Misery is thus carried on.

One is a different person at different levels of consciousness. we behave differently because we have no stable ground of consciousness. we are constantly shifting and its is very natural thus to feel like being different at different points of time. Just accept the contradiction that you are. Stability is a myth. We are mot objects. Rather processes. Personality is not a solid entity . Its who you are - a live process , not an object.

[DarkTears]

for some reason I am not understanding right..........

[Arz Sra]

Originally Posted by DarkTears

for some reason I am not understanding right..........

You are what you are irrespective of who you think you are. Does this make some sense?

the thinking process that we superimpose upon ourselves is the root of the problem. You are what you are and not what you think you are. Thinking is , on the very first steps, tinted by 'should bes' .. Our opinions...

The friction between who you are and who you think you are manifests as a conflict. One does not need to constantly assert 'i' 'i' 'i' 'i' 'i' to keep oneself alive. You are there as you are even when you do not think of yourself . The 'I' is there irrespective of self-consciousness. There is no need to constantly assert it.

Thinking ( should be) and FACT ( is) will clash always. The way is to change your thinking and bring it closer to FACT. Accept the contradiction that you are. Stability is a myth. We are all fluid -like beings , we are not rigid structures. At different levels of consciousness we are different personas.

[Fred Tracy]

I think everyone has opposing forces within them, although we may not all crackup maniacally if we think of hurting someone.

I know I've wanted to hurt people before, and like everyone is saying it's usually a result of insecurity or built up negative energy.

[Clint Cora]

I think it might be possible to show two opposite sides in some cases. For example, there are many athletes who are normally quite reserved and quiet. But once they step into the competition ring of whatever sport they compete in, they become fierce competitors feared by the other participants. It's almost like a Jekyll and Hyde thing.

However, having said that, in your case, if you have thoughts of 'killing' and hurting people as you said, then I would suggest that you need to get some help. The last thing anybody wants is to have that side of you actually manisfest itself into a reality and a terrible incident.

[hamix]

It's called being a complex personality. This is what we mean in common society when we say "x person is complex". It's nothing to worry about, and is perfectly normal.