Vent: Sleep

[Dynamist]

I feel so light these days. SO light. At night, when I'm sleeping, however, I get scared because the lightness is even greater. My body feels heavy and it feels like I'm going to leave my body and this scares me. Because I don't know what to expect and the entire ordeal is unexpected.

It's gotten to the point where my mind (and consequently my body) tenses up so as to try and keep me in and as a result I have a hard time sleeping at night. I'm always jumping up and looking over my shoulders because in my head (which has no bearing on my intuition), something might be there. It's just a thought, but it's a scary one to me.

[Dynamist]

I'm trying to do some research on astral projection or OBE because I feel as though this is what's happening. I've spontaneously left my body before. But I wasn't afraid then because I didn't know what was going on. Now that I do, I feel mentally afraid.

[Merr]

Why does understanding what could be happening make you feel afraid? I would have thought it would be less frightening to understand than to not understand.

[Dynamist]

Originally Posted by Merr

Why does understanding what could be happening make you feel afraid? I would have thought it would be less frightening to understand than to not understand.

I developed a fear of evil spirits and possession through my research and random conversations. Prior to that I was ignorant of the malevolent side of the experience and so now I'm afraid of that aspect of the abstract.