Blahhhhhh

[Williamjw]

Hi,

I really didn't know what to title this thread as so i went with how i feel everytime i think about things.

Recently i have felt like i have lost all of my emotional capasity, i've been drinking healivy, i can't motivate myself to do anything, and on top of this all my ex who since i came back to uni have started seeing again is telling me she loves me.

With the ex, i call her that becuase i really don't want to be in a relationship atm but yet i feel like i'm being pressured into one.

She's started telling me she loves me after seeing each other quite casually for the last couple of weeks this is just making my situation harder...

I really want to be single right now i can't deal with the stress and commitment of a relationship yet i don't want to hurt her feelings.

At this current point in my life i have no love for myself and the thought of even telling someone i like them is hard enough.

But i don't know why i'm in this state of mind at the moment which is just confusing me all the more i have theories, such as still not being over a girlfriend from 2 years back, but nothing is making sense to me at the moment.

I have the pressure at the moment of being the rugby captain for my uni which is just adding stress as i have so much to do and i don't really know what i'm doing.

I'm sorry this is all very unclear and messy but i'm so confused in my own head about how i'm feeling at the moment i'm finding it really hard to put my thoughts into words as my thoughts are jumbled and just BLAHHHHH!

Some feedback of any kind would be great i just really need some help exploring my feelings, and i find it impossiable to discuss my emotions and feelings with people in person and i really feel like i need to talk about them with people.

Please i'm really lost at the moment.

[ksksks]

I think you did not mention the main reason that you are confused and your mind is exhausted for. Anyhow, I don't think drinking can solve any problem either, will make things worse. If you feel you don't want relationship then talk to your ex and tell her clearly your feelings, she will either understand and may even help you or let you be free by yourself. The other good option is find a therapist and go and talk to that person, it might help.