Monologues in your brain?

[starlike]

Read this threadhttp://www.stevepavlina.com/forums/emotional-mastery/6595-silent-thoughts.html and thought about something.

I often think long monologues about topics that interest me and often about how I feel and how I think. Sometimes I even do it out loud. Is this weird?
For example I could be thinking verbally about why I don't make friends or I can "find myself" walking around and around making an oral presentation about >>some book<< for school (although I don't go to school anymore). How weird is this?

[Akashic_Librarian]

Yeahm I do this on the bus or when i am going to bed, I just give a little speech to my imaginary audience in my head, usually its my victory speech after taking over the world.

[Interpreneur]

I think most people do this to some variation, although many would never admit it, perhaps because they don't even realize it. I have led several imaginary lives in my head since I was a child. At any given moment I can be:

1. A Major League Baseball Pitcher - Started in 1990 playing for the Dodgers, and have since played for the Braves, Marlins, and now Mets. I even have kept records in my computer of my wins, losses, ERA, etc.

2. A Rock Star - Was in a hair band in the 80s, had several solo hits through the 90s, struggled in the early 2000s as a lounge singer....but now I'm making a comeback after singing a duet with Christina Aguilera. As a rock star I have also been married to Cindy Crawford, Stephanie Seymour, Jennifer Lopez, and my current wife is latin actress Gaby Espino.

3. A U.S. Senator - The politician in me started back in the late 1980s as mayor of Orlando, Florida. In the 90s I became governor of the state, and in 2000 I successfully ran for the Senate.

Some people have told me this is extremely weird and that I should get some psychiatric help because I could snap at any minute. Others have told me that it means I'm not satisfied with my real life. But I think playing these characters in my head makes my life a lot more interesting. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night giving out interviews as one of those famous characters.

And yes....in case you were wondering, I am thinking about running for President in 2008.

[Gene]

Originally Posted by starlike

I often think long monologues about topics that interest me and often about how I feel and how I think. Sometimes I even do it out loud. Is this weird?
For example I could be thinking verbally about why I don't make friends or I can "find myself" walking around and around making an oral presentation about >>some book<< for school (although I don't go to school anymore). How weird is this?

I have had long monologues, dialogs and presentations to an internal audience who were interactive to my presentation(s).

I have had the dialog with the police officer who witnessed me going thirty miles over the speed limit and experienced the interaction with him inside my mind.

I have a label for that kind of stuff though, I call it insane. Insane in the sense that it creates chaos, confusion and the loss of the ability to recognize and deal effectively with real here and now stuff because of all the energy spent on the internal virtual reality simulation(S).

Eckhart Tolle describes this well in his book, "The Power of Now" and calls it unconscious thinking. I find the solution he suggests of being aware of thoughts both conscious and unconscious, accepting reality; what is, is and living in the now as workable for me.

I composed this quickly while trying to pack for a trip so if it seems too stream of consciousness..... I know I understood what I was trying to articulate and beg your indulgence if you did not.

[Sunnybayes]

Whoa, did not notice this before, but I notice that I have really long monologues also when I am in the process of falling asleep, and also when I am beginning to wake up in the morning. Though it might have been just yesterday, I've been in a negative mood lately. I'll have to make it a habit of seeing if this consistently happens.

Then as I wake up and in the middle of the day, then I become more in the state as described here: Silent Thoughts

So, I guess if you describe long monologues as caused by lower conciousness, then that would be consistent with what I experience.

Though describing it that way makes it seem like a bad thing. But these monologues are awesome with visualizing a future that you'd like to experience. Like I use them before I go clubbing or going into a social situation so that I can feel like I am already there, and get myself warmed up to being social before I'm actually in the situation. Because I'm usually in an introvert state and I have to warm myself up for being social, described in this post here: Living in my own world

But I guess if you are constantly running these monologues in your mind then you are always in the future or in the past and not focused on the present moment as well as you could be.

Also, I love to use this way to think when I am on long road trips and I don't have paper to think with. Usually on long road trips you just zone out and fall asleep with music. But I shift to a higher state of conciousness (not as mystical or hard as you might think), so that I can concentrate my thoughts and then verbalize them loudly in my mind so that I have the benefit of my auditory memory to keep a thought in my mind longer so that I can build off that thought, like as if I'd written it down on paper. That way I can still build up some complex ideas even though I have nothing to write my thoughts down onto. And it also makes the trip much more fun and time flies by much quicker.