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|04-18-2007, 11:13 PM||#1 (permalink)|
Join Date: Mar 2007
Scary Career Pattern- Please Help
Hello and thanks for reading this post. I need to get out of this pattern ASAP as it is effecting all areas of my life and causing me huge financial stress and loss of self esteem. I am trying to get past the sheer terror of the situation and to think of it wth postive energy but find this difficult. Has anyone had a similar pattern and overcome it? Any advice or encouragement is appreciated.
I have had 2 previous careers where I spent years training and got sacked a number of times. This was mostly because I was intimidated by people in power which led to poor performance.
Currently I am a Camera operator
I did 3 years training at uni in Television Production.
Worked 2 years shooting news for Sydney networks. Good experience but dangerous, gory and unethical.
Have tried several methods of escape which all look like this.
The Scary Pattern
1.Get fabulous job.
2.Have performance anxiety.
3.Stuff up big time.
I am currently working as a cleaner or whatever else I can find to get by while getting my own wedding business together, yet to find my first clients and afraid I will fail them in some awful way.
I actually love camera work, I have had wonderful experiences where I have performed well and freelancers are actually well paid.
Last edited by stellabeam; 04-18-2007 at 11:14 PM. Reason: typo
|04-19-2007, 12:06 AM||#2 (permalink)|
Join Date: Feb 2007
Oh god, you sound like me and I'm in the broadcast industry as well in Aus.
I very much suffer from performance anxiety, but I have been really careful to chose the right people to work with, so as to not feel as intimedated, so I can do the job I'm paid for.
I just know the type of people I need to work with and I "put it out there" as they say! I say somthing like "I need an environment where most of the people are down to earth, and where I don't feel intimedated". Also if I know there is an intimedating character that I will be working with, I really make a point to say in my mind "this person will not get to me, they will not challenge me". So far this way I thinking has worked and all the people I have worked with who were meant to be really tough and can have temper tantrum, have nave been tough or chucked a wobbly with me". It's not to say I still don't fear them, it's just that somehow I've created a bubble, where they have never been able to get to me.
I also still know I need to overcome my fears to be better/stronger person, which I know I really am, just not in the work environment. I mean it's the stupidest thing, I am so strong/confident with my friends and family, yet I let fear overtake me in the workplace.
I'm lucky I have just got with a crowd (gov run), who actually will help me through my job and if I have any worries, or stressing out about how I'm handling people in my job I can call the 24/7 - I know pretty amazing hey! They can also meet up with me for coffee every once and while to discuss ways how I can improve a situation. Which is something I kind of asked the universe for - lol! They're there just to help build my confidence and make sure I say in the job for a long time (for my own sanity). You might have a similar service in Sydney. Pm if you want to know more.
I'm also very much into dealing with my fears, thus I am here and I have also been seeing a psycologist. In the next few months I really know I have to work on this problem and so I'm going to see a pycologist and maybe even go on anxiety medication (which did just help me initially to get back on track). It's something I was trying to avoid, but maybe meds, topped with seeing a pycologist who works on improving anxiety related problems will help. I'm also going to really try to improve my diet and exersise and start getting into meditating/yoga.
I really do feel for you, because I am going through the same thing. I know I'm very good at my job, but fear and anxiety always gets in the way, which is ridiculous. I know there a people out there are 10 times worse at my job, but they're 10 steps ahead of me career wise.
I personally think your wedding idea, is maybe a way of not dealing with your fears. I know I went through a few months ago "I want to only ever work for myself", but really that's wasn't true. I acyually at the moment want the 9-5 job where I geta set wage, where I don't have to organise my business. I just know for me if I never deal with my major fears, I will never reach my fullest potential.
So hope info has kind of helped and know you're not the only one that thinks the way you do.
I'd really suggest you see someone about your anxiety, even just initially. Also, really go back and find out what triggered these initial fears. I know I can sort of pinpoint where all my performance anxiety started from, it was growing up in a strict religion and been forced to meet people at the door and talk to them about God and then having people verbally abuse you, or slamming the door in my face. In addtion, I've always been a worry wort, since I was a little girl. So it's obviously something that's inside me.
Also if you do have have friends and family that you feel comfortable talking about this with, I would suggest you bring it up. It really helps talking about your fears out loud and having someone who can talk to you about the reality of it all. I have a wonderful supportive, talkative family and friends network and they really help boot my confidence, when I build up a situation in my mind.
I'm also thinking of exploring hypnotherapy, i think that could be quite useful.
Ps- I also worked as a cleaner, through uni. I have to say for me, it was the worst thing. I hated it, it made me feel so depressed, especially when I knew the office workers thought they were better with me. Even though I knew I was smarter and one day in the near future I would be making a lot more money than them -lol Which I will be now :P
Cleaning, just made my confidence worse. I'm not saying cleaning is bad for everyone. IF that's your passion, or your happy doing it fine, but if you're doing it to avoid people and not deal with your fears then I would say STOP and really ask for what you need at this point of time.
Have you thought about working in a government organisation like the ABC doing camera operating? I think this environment would suit you a lot more. I think it's a lot diffrent to work in this enviroment rather than the other networks.
Last edited by ellie; 04-19-2007 at 12:41 AM.
|04-19-2007, 04:37 PM||#3 (permalink)|
Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Montreal, Canada
Sounds to me like you need a boost in your self-confidence. I really believe it can be done although it requires time and effort.
First, reflect on your past successes and achievements. Here are 2 exercices Jack Canfield suggests in his book "The Success Principles".
1- Make a list of 100 achievements in your life (this can include ... learning to walk, learning to read, graduating from school, etc). The goal here is really to get to 100.
2- Split your life in 3 sections (if you are 30 years old ... 1-10 ; 11-20 ; 21-30). For each part of your life, list your 3 biggest accomplishments.
The goal here is to make you realize that you have accomplished many things in your life and this, increases your confience in yourself.
This is only a first step. In your work, identify small tasks and complete them successfully. That's another step to increase your confidence.
Another way to help increase your confidence is to listen to motivational CD's.
Finally, surround yourself with people who believe in you and will encourage you.
|04-19-2007, 06:29 PM||#4 (permalink)|
Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: TX, USA
Wow, I don't have advice but you have described my career or lack thereof, except I never got fired, I would just quit when my anxiety got out of control.
Just wanted to say work as hard as you can to overcome it, you can do it. It helped me so much to finally realize that there are concrete things I can do to overcome my weaknesses and anxieties and also to know that I am not the only on with this struggle.
Last edited by phoenixmama; 04-19-2007 at 06:40 PM.
|04-20-2007, 01:47 AM||#5 (permalink)|
Join Date: Mar 2007
How wonderful to get so much support so quickly, about something that I have been too ashamed to even talk about!
Thanks to Ellie and pheonixmama for letting me know I am not alone with this.
Rene, thanks for those great exercises which I have done straight away! (I wanted something straight away because i am doing an important shoot tomorrow.)
It is quite overwhelming to read the 100 achievments back. It brought tears ot my eyes and made me realise my own amazingness. I think I will read it every day until it sinks in. (Must get my hands on the book too)
I do listen to motivational CDs when driving (as Steve suggests in his “10 ways to Optimise your Normal Days” article).
I will let you all know about how well my shoot went!
|04-23-2007, 11:14 PM||#6 (permalink)|
Join Date: Mar 2007
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I have just found this website which explains my whole life pattern (starting in school) and validates my experiences in the workplace. Hope it is as useful to others as it was to me
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