No thoughts/Feeling good

[Dallaz]

Ok, I've been messing around with presence for a while and that's cool but I want to feel good. When I'm not thinking I focus on objects(I'm not paying attention to the objects,my eyes just focus on one point) more but my mind is just blank not apathetic, but I just don't feel good or bad, nothing. I've tried to just feel good but it's not working. If happiness is a choice how can I induce this state while being present?

[Illuminatus]

Originally Posted by Dallaz

Ok, I've been messing around with presence for a while and that's cool but I want to feel good. When I'm not thinking I focus on objects(I'm not paying attention to the objects,my eyes just focus on one point) more but my mind is just blank not apathetic, but I just don't feel good or bad, nothing. I've tried to just feel good but it's not working. If happiness is a choice how can I induce this state while being present?

Take heroin.

[Dallaz]

Originally Posted by Illuminatus

Take heroin.

Heh.

[Illuminatus]

Originally Posted by Dallaz

Heh.

The trick is you haven't noticed that all of this is just a GAME. So you are getting pretty good at presence. GREAT. You're doing better than 99.9% of this board (literally). Now what? Notice things like the HOLODECK. Like, it's all just imagery. Allow yourself to be utterly ENJOYED by this realization. Make it quite hilarious to yourself. You want happiness? What could make you happier than realizing, unequivocally, that this is just a game and hilariously you are playing the lead man in your own weird movie which is becoming more and more hilarious to you by the day.

[Dallaz]

Originally Posted by Illuminatus

The trick is you haven't noticed that all of this is just a GAME. So you are getting pretty good at presence. GREAT. You're doing better than 99.9% of this board (literally). Now what? Notice things like the HOLODECK. Like, it's all just imagery. Allow yourself to be utterly ENJOYED by this realization. Make it quite hilarious to yourself. You want happiness? What could make you happier than realizing, unequivocally, that this is just a game and hilariously you are playing the lead man in your own weird movie which is becoming more and more hilarious to you by the day.

Okay. Holodeck huh? I would like to see what the room actually looks like, what's outside of the game , but whatever.

EDIT: The life is a game thing isn't really funny to me, but weirdly makes me feel warm and tingly inside. LOL
However I feel like I can't really believe it's a game until I see what's outside of it...If that makes any sense.

[growingmom]

Have you tried counting your blessings? Be thankful for what you have, enjoy and appreciate the simple moments.