I feel so stuck (satire of my life)

[ecky788]

Hi, I'm 16 and feel really stuck and bad about my life...
I don't know what work I'm going to do, since 2 years I've been training really hard to become professional footballer, and I'm not making much progress... Just learned to play soccer really ^_^ even though I did entirely stop watching TV and playing video games and made loads of pals during the process which is something I'm really satisfied about... 2 months ago I realized I wasn't going anywhere in soccer and tried freestyle football... But my footballs are all deflated or lost by now so it's like making a sandcastle without sand, that's what being a real human being is all about I suppose. In France you have to work 23 hours/week at home and attend 26 hours of lessons if you want your exam. Don't like school at school Hope you like school at home then ... I have friends but not that much... When my best pal is absent at high school I feel so alone, even though I know worse than me...I hate feeling alone, doing projects alone... I engaged myself into the wrong project 2 years ago, wonder what I should do now, because I just realized if I continue on this path I'm going nowhere, stuck between social conditionnment, people judging me, and my marginal pseudo-dreams while others are just living their lives without questioning anything or worrying about being what they can be... I've got hearing problems too but don't worry I'm not deaf yet I can still listen to some music xD
And now let's listen to teenage dream from katy perry !

[NDN Scholar]

Ah hell, man. When I was your age, I thought I wanted to be an accountant, lol. Years later, almost done university, and I'm on the path to becoming a lawyer.

My advice? Focus on your schoolwork to achieve academic success. Get out and do a lot of volounteer work through various organizations. Doing that will open your window on life, give you some experience in the field, and maybe give you an idea of what to do in the future, after high school. Plus it'll look fantastic on your resume, and you'll probably make some more friends doing this, too. So just get out there, and have fun!

[DanFromSeoul]

Originally Posted by ecky788

Hi, I'm 16 and feel really stuck and bad about my life...

Hey Ecky788, before I share my thoughts on your story, know that we've all been there. As teens all of us have felt lost and stuck in life.

I'm not saying that you shouldn't worry. I'm saying that you have a right to feel that way and that you're not as alone as you think.

I don't know what work I'm going to do, since 2 years I've been training really hard to become professional footballer, and I'm not making much progress... Just learned to play soccer really ^_^ even though I did entirely stop watching TV and playing video games and made loads of pals during the process which is something I'm really satisfied about...

Props on sticking to a goal that many others would've considered a pipe dream. Respect.

2 months ago I realized I wasn't going anywhere in soccer and tried freestyle football... But my footballs are all deflated or lost by now so it's like making a sandcastle without sand, that's what being a real human being is all about I suppose.

Yup. Life is a process to which the ultimate question is "What am I doing this for?"

In France you have to work 23 hours/week at home and attend 26 hours of lessons if you want your exam.

Are you talking about the Bac? I've lived in France and am familiar with the highschool process. Et 'pis je parle Francais ;-)

Don't like school at school Hope you like school at home then ... I have friends but not that much... When my best pal is absent at high school I feel so alone, even though I know worse than me...I hate feeling alone, doing projects alone...

I feel you man.

You'll either have so much pain that you'll want to meet new people just to not feel it anymore.

Or

You'll keep feeling alone.

You're choice

I engaged myself into the wrong project 2 years ago

No such thing as "wrong". It taught you a lot about life. You're learning what some are afraid to learn.

In my case I spent 4 years and $$$ on student loans to become a professional pilot...only to realize that it was the wrong path for me.

Do I wish I would've done something else with that money?

Sure.

Do I regret my path and my choices?

Not a chance.

Wonder what I should do now, because I just realized if I continue on this path I'm going nowhere, stuck between social conditioning people judging me, and my marginal pseudo-dreams while others are just living their lives without questioning anything or worrying about being what they can be...

On the contrary.

I'm reading a book now called 'Radical Honesty' and the author nails society's problem in the head: We're prisoners of our minds. We seem "okay" but deep down we struggle with the many roles we have put on ourselves.

You are at least breaking free and working on being your genuine self.

Respect.

I've got hearing problems too but don't worry I'm not deaf yet I can still listen to some music xD
And now let's listen to teenage dream from katy perry !

That's the spirit! ;-)

You live. You learn.

Always the Best,

Dan

[ecky788]

You're completely right
My life's not bad, I just feel so dependant of the things and people around me... It's as if all my actions will not have any impact I'm dependant on money on my family, on my friends, on my (automatic) social attitude. I've got some mental disorders too really big psyche problems like masochism(if it sounds wierd to you imagine what it is for me, it's not because your subconscious is all ****ed up that you can't "try" to stay lucid...) and narcissism : It just feels so bad all this shite and I want to get rid of it, heal. Once again I'm so dependant : dependant on my parents, dependant on money, dependant on people : how am I supposed to get out of this alone?(what would be a human being alone he wouldn't be able to do anything) (it's as if I'm watching myself living sometimes everythings so automatic I'm shut in a shell and I'm trying so hard to get out)...
I'm not complaining, I just want to know what you people think about all this.