Freedom

[roxyruby]

I went for a walk,

and I saw things as beautiful

I pretended I was exploring...walking through nature....

the grass...the birds...

I was out walking by my self...

I felt...independant..free....

Free from social anxiety...

I have been asserting my right to look around, and look briefly at peoples faces. They are not looking at me. They are focused on their own activity usually looking away.

The only problem is feeling afraid when out walking of walking near or walking past a group of children/teenagers.

I feel afraid that they will look at me and that children/teenagers in a group are like animals and me being alone I am like prey and they could attack me or bully me, make remarks to me and laugh at me.....

I don't know it just seems so scary to be near a group of loud, energetic children/teenagers when I am by my self out on the street

why?

I avoid them and don't walk past them

Perhaps I feel harassment is more likely, they have asked questions about my dog, asked for my phone number, but I just ignored them

Some kids/teens hanging out on the street, if I wanted to walk by past them, It would feel sort of like "I'm invading their territory" and "I'm on their ground" and "I'm not allowed to go through their territory"

Anyway,

I also went to a park

and I love going on the swings

This time i Climbed on the playground and did some climbing

who cares about "acting your age"

it is fun to be free and rebel and have fun

[NDN Scholar]

Aw, that's cute. Winter's gonna be setting in soon, cold and harsh, so I should get out more often, walk around, think about life. I know your feeling about freedom, I can really feel that sometimes when I'm out alone. You should see how it is up here, it's fall, the leaves are all red, orange, and yellow, scattered about in the trees and on the ground. It's absolutely gorgeous.

Why does life have to be so tragic? If you don't do it already, I think you should try keeping a journal and/or writing poetry. It's helpful and uplifting.

And ♥♥♥♥♥ the kids. We share public land, it's communal. The street is yours as much as it is theirs. I don't budge for anyone except the ladies, the elders, and the brothers; everyone else better get the hell out of my way. I wish it was possible for us to come across one another on a peaceful walk, that'd be nice.

[AaronB]

Originally Posted by NDN Scholar

We share public land, it's communal. The street is yours as much as it is theirs. I don't budge for anyone except the ladies, the elders, and the brothers; everyone else better get the hell out of my way.

If it's public land then why are you budging for ladies, elders, and brothers? Public means NO ONE SHOULD GET IN YOUR WAY!!! When I go on a walk I stomp like I'm on a rampage, gazing fiercely into the eyes of every man, woman, child, and squirrel. All creatures and vehicles must get the hell out of my way, too. I wear the most unhappy face, and I push everyone and everything that gets within 4 feet of me. I especially like pushing ladies, elders, and brothers. The elders topple the easiest. Before I leave the park I look back at all the carnage I caused, then I leave with a frown and a nod.

NARF!

[Illuminatus]

Originally Posted by roxyruby

I went for a walk,

and I saw things as beautiful

I pretended I was exploring...walking through nature....

the grass...the birds...

I was out walking by my self...

I felt...independant..free....

Free from social anxiety...

Textbook presence.

I have been asserting my right to look around, and look briefly at peoples faces. They are not looking at me. They are focused on their own activity usually looking away.

The only problem is feeling afraid when out walking of walking near or walking past a group of children/teenagers.

I feel afraid that they will look at me and that children/teenagers in a group are like animals and me being alone I am like prey and they could attack me or bully me, make remarks to me and laugh at me.....

I don't know it just seems so scary to be near a group of loud, energetic children/teenagers when I am by my self out on the street

why?

I avoid them and don't walk past them

Perhaps I feel harassment is more likely, they have asked questions about my dog, asked for my phone number, but I just ignored them

Some kids/teens hanging out on the street, if I wanted to walk by past them, It would feel sort of like "I'm invading their territory" and "I'm on their ground" and "I'm not allowed to go through their territory"

Part of mastering the presence trance is holding it in spite of fears. See it through to its very end. This might even mean going over and talking to them.

Anyway,

I also went to a park

and I love going on the swings

This time i Climbed on the playground and did some climbing

who cares about "acting your age"

it is fun to be free and rebel and have fun

More presence.

Good stuff.

[AaronB]

Originally Posted by Illuminatus

Textbook presence.

Part of mastering the presence trance is holding it in spite of fears. See it through to its very end. This might even mean going over and talking to them.

More presence.

Good stuff.

Your article on first circuit reimprinting is really helpful for situations like this:

Circuit I: Reimprinting Modified & Simplified

[Illuminatus]

Originally Posted by AaronB

Your article on first circuit reimprinting is really helpful for situations like this:

Circuit I: Reimprinting Modified & Simplified

Thanks.

And yep, that's exactly the situation it was designed for.

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