| |||||||
| Emotional Mastery Emotional intelligence, addiction and recovery, grieving, loss, fear, anger, guilt, resentment, frustration, anxiety, depression, happiness, joy, love, kindness, forgiveness, self-acceptance, confidence, escaping the pit of despair, EFT |
 |
| | Thread Tools | Display Modes |
06-01-2010, 04:31 AM
| #1 (permalink) |
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 12,690
  |  The Universe Sure is a Wacky Place
What a day! (What a weekend, actually, but this thread will focus more on the happenings of today and what this might mean for my future.) This morning, after thinking that I would get to sleep in good and long today and recuperate from my crazy weekend, I was awakened with a start. I'm laying on my couch and I hear my blinds rustling (and my windows don't open). I thought that a bee had gotten in my house and I was kind of annoyed that I had to wake up to take care of it. Upon opening my eyes, though, I thought I was going to die. LOL When my eyes cracked open I discovered that it wasn't a bee. It was...in face...dun dun dun.... A FRIKIN BAT. A bat...in my apartment. Well, I LEAPED out of bed, screaming like a little girl in the process, and ran outside. I sat on my porch, willing my eyes to crack open some more (I was exhausted), and trying to catch my breath and calm my nerves and figure out what the hell I was going to do. My windows don't open, so I ruled just opening those out. And, to be honest, I really had no clue how the heck I would catch something like that because it was flapping around my apartment like crazy and wouldn't land anywhere. And, well, (animal lovers might want to skip to the next paragraph here  ) I look over and see my snow shovel. And of course, I imagined knocking it out and scooping him up and tossing him outside was of course the best plan of action. So that's what I did. Aparently he didn't die, though, cause he was gone later. I think I just pissed him off. lol Ruined his day. Yada yada yada.Well, after that ordeal (I skeeve out everytime I think about it actually), I went back outside, sat on my porch step and smoked two cigarettes back to back and wondered what in the flying **** I was gonna do. So, I went to breakfast and sat in the restaraunt for like an hour and a half thinking. Finally, I called my mom and told her I was coming up to visit, told her about my bat problem, etc. At this point, I still had no clue what I was going to do. All I knew was that I needed some time to calm my nerves a bit. I'm not typically afraid of bats when they are outside. But I've never experienced a bat INSIDE my apartment. And, well, let's just say I didn't like it. LOL Anyway, I decided that there was no way I was ever going to get a decent nights sleep knowing that bats are getting in (the neighbors upstairs told me that they get them all the time and I was like WTF??? How has that never happened to me?). I also figured that that was probably not something I want to risk having my kids around (knowing that they are known for carrying rabies and lice and that kind of stuff). So, I'm on a temporary hiatus at my parents place until I find a new place. Universe, you sure are a wacky little place. I swore that the last time I moved out, I would stay out, but, alas, I discover that I am unqualified to predict the future (who woulda thunk?) and that sometimes **** happens.  What's blowing me away here is that suddenly, life is rapidly changing again. And I find that uniquely interesting at this point considering I am fresh off a breakthrough of sorts (and an internal discovery about myself). Suddenly, the life I had is rapidly dissolving. And then, on the brink of jittery nerves and bats in my beflry, while I'm up at my parents helping my dad and my uncles weed their potato patch (I love playing in the dirt ), I mention to my one uncle (who sells insurance) that I kinda wish I hadn't let my insurance license go in college. And he tells me about a program that the insurance company he works for offers in that I could work part time (making my own hours in the evenings) and pick up some extra cash doing something I remember liking to do.He told me that they do a presentation for the program during the first two weeks of the month and that he'd call me and let me know when it was. I see, perhaps, the opening of a door here. It's odd how doors are slamming shut in areas of my life...and perhaps other doors are opening. I had no idea that when I made my breakthrough that suddenly life would do a topsy turvy on me and start changing on me. I wonder if perhaps not only am I about to find new living situations, but maybe I'm finding a new job opportunity in the same breath...in the same weekend, under a crazy set of circumstances. And, yes, I skeeved a little thinking about the bat thing. LOL |
|      |
|
06-01-2010, 05:35 AM
| #2 (permalink) |
| Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Netherlands
Posts: 363
|
Another option besides running to your parents might be to just calm down a bit. Next time you have a visitor like that just open a window and tell him that there might me more fun to be had outside and gently show him the way. We are talking here about a non-dangerous fellow mammal, right? Finding a different place to live seems a very non-rational thing to do. Also, you might want to look into that smoking habit. It slowly kills you. |
|
| |
|
06-01-2010, 06:14 AM
| #4 (permalink) |
| Banned Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: Mexico City
Posts: 11,168
|
The poor bat!! Next time when you have a bat (you'll have to go back to the apartment at some point...  ) just throw a blanked over it, and move it outside. Works perfectly.About the universe... yes, this happens. When you are ready for it, the life that you want to live will unfold itself, in unexpected ways. Good luck with finding a new place! |
|
| |
|
06-01-2010, 06:15 AM
| #5 (permalink) |
| Member Join Date: May 2010 Location: the Great White North, eh?
Posts: 84
|
bats are exceptionally fortunate signals and welcome guests in China... radiantly good stuff. maybe the lil guy was saluting your breakthru! Chinese Bats Tattoo Meaning | TattooSymbol.com |
|
| |
|
06-01-2010, 11:54 AM
| #6 (permalink) | ||
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 12,690
| Quote:
As far as non-dangerous, that depends. They are known for carrying rabies and lice. So, I mean, it's one thing to see one flitting around outside (never really bothered me too much)...it's something else when one is trapped inside your house and flying around scared. Not something I want to live with happening on a frequent basis (according to the neighbors, they get them upstairs a lot), not something *I* want to live with, nor is it something I want to possibly subject my kids to. I understand that sometimes rodents get inside of houses, and I can live with certain things, but this isn't one of them. Quote:
| ||
|
| |
|
06-01-2010, 01:55 PM
| #8 (permalink) |
| Family Member Join Date: Feb 2007
Posts: 2,432
|
Replace each word with bat to moth, and you have me there. I freak out like a little baby every time a moth is in my room. For some reason moths seem to come into my room and enjoy flying around my face when I am sleeping. I freak out, and sleep in the lounge room. I had a good little chuckle with your story James, I so could picture you running around freaking out. |
|
| |
|
06-01-2010, 02:14 PM
| #9 (permalink) |
| Banned Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: Mexico City
Posts: 11,168
|
James, While it seems that the universe is on your side and trying to make your life better, don't forget to place an order about how exactly you want your new house / apartment to be! It seems you're on a roll, so it would be good to take advantage of that |
|
| |
|
06-01-2010, 04:30 PM
| #10 (permalink) | |
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 12,690
| Quote:
Instead of imagining the specifics (such as location, price, etc.), I'll imagine, instead, what I would like out of my own place and trust that my new place will encompass those things. One of the biggest things I LOVE about my current apartment is the location. For many reasons. It's situationed in a very convenient area in town. But not just that, I have some really cool neighbors. In fact, the saddest part of moving out of this place will be moving away from the neighbors (at least in theory...in theory, however, a new place could open up just up the street ). My kids love the location because there are bunches of kids to play with outside and there's a nice alley for them to ride their bikes in that's safe. All the neighbors kind of watch the kids depending on what area of the alley they are in.The apartment itself, however, isn't a good fit for me and the kids. It's a one bedroom, so when they come stay with me they have to stay in my room and I sleep on the couch. Also, because of the way they did the water/sewer pipes, I tend to get a "garbagey" smell every once in a while whenever the upstairs neighbors drain their tub. I've also had issues with the neighbors getting in fights in the halls (and it's been suspected that they deal drugs), so there's some unscrupulous characters that are outside my door a lot. It doesn't bother ME so much, but it worries me when my kids are around. **** So, let's see.... I would like the comraderie of great neighbors. I would like the convenience of location. I would like a place that my kids could safely ride their bikes and play. I would like a place where my kids could befriend other kids and make friends. I would like something that will accomodate my kids better when they stay with me in terms of space. And I would like this all at a fair price that's manageable with my budget. | |
|
| |
|
06-01-2010, 05:17 PM
| #11 (permalink) | |
| Family Member Join Date: Aug 2008
Posts: 2,756
| Quote:
| |
|
| |
|
06-01-2010, 05:29 PM
| #12 (permalink) |
| Banned Join Date: Nov 2006
Posts: 22,520
|
I've had similar experiences when I've let go of outdated beliefs and taken on something that works better -- suddenly some very weird WTF thing will show up in my physical reality that seems to be the universe (or my unconscious mind) presenting something to me in a very playful manner -- it may not be so funny when it's happening, but in retrospect it's as funny as a bat in your belfry. One was when I invented the possibility for myself of Being Engaged (by which I meant, really being present with people, involved with them intimately, joyfully engaged with people) and a couple of weeks later my boyfriend asked me to marry him.  I was engaged, alright. Another time I invented the possibility for myself of Being On Fire -- totally motivated, revved up, confidently engaged in my passions -- and that afternoon my car's engine caught on fire.  I think it's especially funny that your reaction to the bat is the concern about you and your family being infected with viral threat (rabies, lice), that seems a lot like your concerns for your family (water damage, garbageyness, fights, drugs, unscrupulousness) -- and that it led to an opportunity in the "insurance" business! Your list of desired attributes for your apartment sound fine and good and adequate, but frankly, not terribly inspiring, you know what I mean? It sounds better than what you've got. Are you inspired by that list? What would your home be like if you were being the possibility of being inspiration, charisma, and creativity? What would your home be like as a whole new possibility for you, your kids, for the people you'd be making your community? |
|
| |
|
06-02-2010, 03:47 AM
| #13 (permalink) | |
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 12,690
|
Wow, I haven't seen this quote in three years, but this was one of the first quotes that inspired me after picking myself up off of rock bottom. For my first year out of my divorce, I clung to those three words: keep moving forward. Tonight, they took on a whole new meaning for me and I felt moved again by it. Interesting how I'm coming full circle with where I was back then. It's kind of weird. But the quote: We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things, because we're curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths. --Walt Disney I'm becoming a curious fella. Curious about new paths. Excited about the changes, with a twinge of nostalgia for times past. Kind of a weird mix of emotions tonight, but I'm digging it. Quote:
It's exciting in a "hey, it sounds BETTER" kind of way (like you said).What would my home be like? Ever seen the movie Big? Yeah, that's kinda how I envision a place centered around creativity and charisma. I always imagined that my home would be like a center for people to come and go. A haven of sorts where we shoot the ****, have fun, or where people can find refuge. A solid place where my kids could always know they are welcome, where I'd be there for them. I could see me living along the water. A nice little backyard where I could have cookouts, campfires, and sing coombaya and ****. I envision a lot of laughter and revelry. Dancing and singing would be fun. A game/exercise room combined. Walls filled with movie posters in that room, but a more "mature" setting in the rest of the house. And it doesn't have to be huge. In fact, I like smaller places because I think the atmosphere is more comfortable. | |
|
| |
|
06-02-2010, 04:01 PM
| #14 (permalink) |
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 12,690
|
It's interesting, I've been looking around on google a bit this morning to see what bats in the house symbolize. And the common answer is "good luck," "prosperity," or "renewal or significant changes." I thought that was interesting. Especially given my reaction...which was to 1) scream like a banshee 2) run away 3)come back and swat it with a snow shovel. I wonder if this is symbolic of my inner reaction to change/renewal/prosperity. Fear, running away, and swatting aimlessly at it. Then again, if you have a bat in the house, who wouldn't freak out a little and at the very least get it out? |
|
| |
|
06-04-2010, 03:58 PM
| #15 (permalink) |
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 12,690
|
Well, today is day 5 at my folks place. This weekend will be the first one with my kids there. Last time I was here, it was the times that I had the kids there that made it hard to stay there. I look forward to see what 2 years worth of growth and change in my life will bring to the table as far as this is concerned. As well as a new perspective. But more to the point of why I'm posting in this thread.... Yesterday evening I had an interesting convo with my mom. Don't know how it got started, but I remember coming out and saying "I hate my job more and more everyday." And her initial reaction was "Jamie, you don't want to quit your job in this economy." But later in the convo she asked me a question of what types of things I'd like to do if I were to quit, and I told her the usual list of things that all sound like great options to me. And she asked me, "Well if you had to pick one, which would it be?" I baulked at the question initially, but the first answer was "Writing." To which she was like "Besides that." (LOL) She doesn't see it as a viable career option. (Which I thought was interesting.) My second choice was psychology/social work of some sort...working with clients to help them with their issues. She suggested that I do it. And that I just stay with them while I do it, that way I wouldn't have any bills to worry about. And the thought of that was...er...a bit overwhelming. It's one thing to be staying with them until I find a new place (which might entail a couple of months at the most). It's a completely different thing to think about staying with them for a couple of YEARS until I find a new career. And in an unrelated note (or in a way it COULD be unrelated), I discovered that a cousin of mine who lives 3 hours away (and has been gone for 30 years) is moving back into the area. This being a cousin who I probably talked about last year quite a bit because he was the inspiration of the "I'm a great place to be" stuff I talked about a lot last year. The interesting part about it is, whenever he comes in, we usually go hang out a night or two. The other interesting thing is that when I think of charisma, he's one of the people that immediately springs to mind. I find it really funny that after years of hearing him say stuff like "I'll never move back...what's up there for me to move back to?" that all of a sudden he's coming back at a time when I'm cultivating that particular way of being in my life. I wonder what will come of that. Fun stuff on the horizon. |
|
| |
|
06-04-2010, 05:27 PM
| #16 (permalink) |
| Family Member Join Date: Dec 2008
Posts: 1,639
|
JAMES, I am an animal lover..and to be totally honest, I would have knocked him out and tossed him out in the exact same fashion. lol. (partly to protect my cats and dogs from the rabies they would endure protecting ME from IT. ) Please go read this link. Animal Symbolism of the Bat You can google "animal totem bat meaning" and find all kinds of sites that will break it down for you. I just gave this link as it was the first one in the search result, and had enough information to pique your curiosity as per the whole bat totem thing. I would definitely have gone in and looked up the Bat as an animal totem, to see if there was a Universal meaning in it for me. Mostly because if your windows don't open..How the heck did that sucker get in there? I would take this as a direct wake up call. (oh yeah..it was a wake up call..quite literally was it not?) Just check out the Bat totem. Try not to feel too guilty, when you realize he was just there to confirm the things you have been questioning for yourself for some time now. Now that you have been given validation in the form of a totem from the Universe, you may want to feel a little guilt for bashing the little rascal upside the head..but like I said. "I would do it the very same way". lol GUILT FREE, TOO!  Try not to become too hard on yourself, and embrace the message...not the wrapping. Be Blessed, Rebecca |
|
| |
|
06-04-2010, 05:34 PM
| #17 (permalink) | ||
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 12,690
| Quote:
This part really struck me: Quote:
Also, another funny thought is that I've always been deeply interested in the mythology of the Batman franchise. In the past, I compared myself with the Joker (sadistic humor), but perhaps that's changing. | ||
|
| |
|
06-04-2010, 05:37 PM
| #19 (permalink) | |
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 12,690
| Quote:
| |
|
| |
|
06-04-2010, 05:39 PM
| #20 (permalink) |
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2010
Posts: 668
 |
As I look over many of the forum posts lately, sometimes I think we may think too much. I love the Batman mythology too. I've considered starting a comic collection, but then I remembered I'm not a fan of having tons of paper in my house. Maybe a digital collection? |
|
| |
|
06-04-2010, 05:44 PM
| #21 (permalink) | ||
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 12,690
| Quote:
Quote:
And, hell, if I remember right marvel and DC have online subscriptions you can get. Might even be especially cool if you can read them from an iPod or an iphone (which I think you can). | ||
|
| |
|
06-04-2010, 05:48 PM
| #22 (permalink) | |
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2010
Posts: 668
| Quote:
| |
|
| |
|
06-05-2010, 04:25 PM
| #23 (permalink) | |
| Family Member Join Date: Dec 2008
Posts: 1,639
| Quote:
Last edited by codenamesmiley; 06-05-2010 at 05:01 PM. | |
|
| |
|
06-05-2010, 04:26 PM
| #24 (permalink) | |
| Family Member Join Date: Dec 2008
Posts: 1,639
| Quote:
| |
|
| |
|
06-07-2010, 02:27 AM
| #27 (permalink) | ||
| Banned Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 12,690
| Quote:
Quote:
A place just came open that fits this bill almost to a "T." At least as far as the physical aspects. But the potential for all my other wants is there too. And it's right up the street from where I was! So my kids could still play with the same kids they had made friends with at my place. An old friend of mine from highschool just moved out of it, so I have the added benefit of asking him about it personally, plus the character reference for the landlord (if the landlord wants that kind of thing). And it's for the same price as where I'm at now, except it has 3 bedrooms (instead of one). So, I have the potential space for my "game/Big" room if I want. I haven't looked at it yet, but I did go over and peer in the windows (they moved out already and it's empty) and from what I could see, it looked pretty nice inside. I sent my friend a message on facebook and asked him about it, so I'll see what comes of it. If I get good vibes from him, I'll call and see if I can look at it. The funny part of it is, is how it meets what I ordered above. The potential for everything I wanted is all there in theory. But the big part that really gets me is that it's by the creek (with a front porch that's right beside the water) just as I said I'd like (to live by the water). | ||
|
| |
|
| Bookmarks |
« Previous Thread
|
Next Thread »
| Thread Tools | |
| Display Modes | |
Linear Mode
| |
Similar Threads | ||||
| Thread | Thread Starter | Forum | Replies | Last Post |
| Wacky moments? | elucidate | Fun & Recreation | 29 | 05-05-2010 03:15 AM |
| Not sure this is the right place, but.... | NotSoSmart | General & Introductions | 6 | 07-20-2009 06:07 PM |
| If the universe is a dream,then why do we need physical senses to sense the universe? | Jack | Spirituality, Consciousness, & Awareness | 13 | 07-04-2009 12:00 AM |
| I want to design and sell wacky t-shirts! But i have no idea how! | dice | Business & Financial | 5 | 12-16-2008 07:21 AM |
All times are GMT. The time now is 01:24 AM.