I've lost all ambitions...

[GrowingWings]

Sometimes I just want to be somewhere else..

I just get bored with life that I'd rather sleep or smoke weed to escape to a world where I'm happy. Don't get me wrong, I'm not sad and I don't think I'm depressed. It's just like I feel I have no goals, no ambitions, not even any real hobbies (other than playing and listening to music).

This change in me started happening last summer when me and my friends began partying a lot and I began smoking weed pretty much everyday.

I've taken into account that it could be the weed that made me the way I am today, but whenever I take a break from it, it doesn't seem to make much of a difference. At least when I've been sober for a while, I can express more clearly.

I can't even stay on the same topic for too long before I end up getting bored or forgetting what I was talking about. The thing is, I know I'm ot stupid. I just need to be really into an idea to stick with it, otherwise I'll just ditch it.

I wish I could go back in time to when I could speak my mind without stopping mid-sentence every few words to remind myself what my point was. I think one of my problems here is that I over-analyze everything way too much that I tend to focus on the small things which ultimately distracts e from my real emotions that I'm trying to express..

[NewDayDan]

Originally Posted by GrowingWings

I can't even stay on the same topic for too long before I end up getting bored or forgetting what I was talking about. The thing is, I know I'm ot stupid. I just need to be really into an idea to stick with it, otherwise I'll just ditch it.

I wish I could go back in time to when I could speak my mind without stopping mid-sentence every few words to remind myself what my point was. I think one of my problems here is that I over-analyze everything way too much that I tend to focus on the small things which ultimately distracts e from my real emotions that I'm trying to express..

Hey dude,

You are not alone, this is EXACTLY how I have been feeling for some time...I am fed up of frustrating myself. I can feel the inner potential but don't know how to access it. I find i live in my head a too much and I would much rather procrastinate than focus on getting done what needs to be done. I look forward to reading some replies and advice.

Peace.

[blossom]

I have been there since I was 20. I hate to say it...but the weed isn't helping things. Everyone I knew, back when I was a stoner, was the same, lack of motivation, no ambition...and they all smoked pot! That's not to say pot is " the evil weed", but it definately contributes to this state of listlessness in certain personalities.

I haven't been a full stoner for over 15 years, and I have gotten alot more motivated and more organised in my life.

It maight also have something to do with fear of changing the comfy rythmn you have gotten into?

[Andrew Gubb]

I was there for a while. I had to break everything I was doing and make a real change in my life. Not easy, but worth it.

School - are you in school or uni - doesn't like people being passionate. I don't know, I felt for me it was very necessary to get out of there. It was killing my soul.

Good luck

Andrew

[Vibration]

The brain is the most important organ in the body, and needs certain things to stay healthy. When it's not getting something it needs, the mind (what the brain does) starts to show it.

Good nutrition is important, especially as you get older. Take supplements, not anything crazy, just a basic one-a-day multivitamin might be enough. It takes a while (several weeks) to make a difference, so don't say "this isn't working" and stop taking it. Consistency is the key to keeping your brain healthy. The worst thing you can do is get all serious and amp up on vitamins, good eating and exercise for a couple of days, then get board and drop it - you'll have quit before it could even make a difference. A lot of people do that. All these measures are permanent changes; you do them forever.

Exercise to get really good bloodflow to the brain. Lose excess weight. Make a game of trivial things you might make a list for, like grocery shopping; keep the list in your head. Take up a hobby that makes you use your mind in a new way, something you've never done before. Martial Arts is a good one, because it keeps you in shape, and you typically have to remember specific sequences of moves - all good for the brain. It's also good if you need to kick someone's ass one day.

Take all the preventative measures someone with adult ADD takes.

[GrowingWings]

I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one feeling this way. I always procrastinate too. Not wanting to get up in the morning because I don't find a reason to. Then I wake up later that day and realize I should have just got myself out of bed. My parents get angry, I get behind in school work and I'm wasting my time.. It's just not worth it.

I've already decided to slowdown on smoking, but I won't completely stop because almost all my friends do it.

I'm in grade 11. It's supposed to be one of the best years of high school and so far it's not really any different (other than everyone being able to drive).

Also, I do believe it could be my nutrition. My parents are so busy with work, they're barely home so I find myself making unhealthy food decisions. I may pick up some personal vitamins to make sure I'm getting the basic nutrients my body needs. I'm not fat. In fact, I'm in decent shape. My friends want to start working out at a gym which sounds great.

Lastly, I'm not sure about having ADD. Unless i just acquired it. My dad has bipolar disorder and so does my uncle on my mom's side so there's a good chance I might have gotten that. My dad also has OCD (Obsessive–compulsive disorder). I've looked this up and if I do have this, it would a very suddle symptom.

"OCD sometimes manifests without overt compulsions. Informally nicknamed 'Pure-O', OCD without overt compulsions could, by one estimate, characterize as many as 50 percent to 60 percent of OCD cases. Rather than engaging in observable compulsions, the person with this subtype might perform more covert, mental rituals, or might feel driven to avoid the situations in which particular thoughts seem likely to intrude. As a result of this avoidance, people can struggle to fulfill both public and private roles, even if they place great value on these roles and even if they had fulfilled the roles successfully in the past. Moreover, a sufferer's avoidance can confuse others who do not know its origin or intended purpose, as it did in the case of a man whose wife began to wonder why he would not hold their infant child." - I got this quote from wikipedia. I think this may be the source of my problem..