Looking beyond the wall I see...abundance...

[James81]

...but that doesn't keep my ass from slamming head first into it repeatedly.

Seriously, I was talking with someone recently and we were doing all these little fun psychological games and stuff, and she did one on me that had to do with the road and describing your journey along a road, a stream, a house etc. (can't remember what the actual test is called).

When I fed her my answers, she came back with the result and one of the responses I had put churned out a response that pretty much said that I have a wall in my way, but beyond that wall is abundance.

And that seems to fit with my personal development at the moment. Over the course of the past year, my shift in beliefs have translated me from one road to the other (so to speak), but it hasn't removed the wall yet. For example, one major wall in my life pertains to my career. I can see beyond the wall and I enjoy the thought of finding a career that both makes me happy and provides abundance, but I remain kinda frozen because every avenue I seem to take ends at a certain point.

Another wall has to do with social relationships (specifically: dating), and how I can seem to get so far, but then I meet a resistance--which I try to plow through, and get shut down. I reason it has something to do with intimacy (hence my other thread) and I also suspect it has to do with emotions somehow (as of the moment, I express only a very small palette of emotion).

Here's the kicker, as I've said before, I feel like I'm circling around the solution but nothing seems to jump out at me. A part of me thinks that this is because I am not READY to see the solution and that I must do some more digging within myself before I can know myself enough to bring the solution to light.

So, my question for you guys is how to see the thing you are not ready to see? Or, more specifically, how do I get past this flippin' wall?

Any comments you have would be greatly appreciated.

[James81]

On the brighter side of things, I'm starting to get really good at cultivating *good* feelings within myself. I'm learning how to quiet and tame the negative stuff that crops up from time to time and send it packing on it's way out of me (instead of sitting around festering and pulling me down).

And in a way, I even think that THAT is related.

[mikethedrummer44]

I feel similar as far as abundance goes. I still have a hard time grasping the concept of complete abundance. Obviously, this is stopping me. I think I really need to buckle down and do the mental exercises that Steve suggested.

[Tanja]

Originally Posted by James81

I feel like I'm circling around the solution but nothing seems to jump out at me. A part of me thinks that this is because I am not READY to see the solution and that I must do some more digging within myself before I can know myself enough to bring the solution to light.

I feel pretty similar in some areas of my life. The feeling I'm on the verge of finding the solution, but can't pin point it..
This is how I explain it to myself..if I feel I'm circling around it it means I'm on the right path and I've been doing something right.
However, feeling I'm so close but still not there yet has made me nervous and impatient a bit...so, I've decided to just relax...how's that for a solution

Originally Posted by James81

So, my question for you guys is how to see the thing you are not ready to see? Or, more specifically, how do I get past this flippin' wall?

Unfortunately I don't have a clear answer to that myself...so I'd be interested in hearing what others have to say too...

[StacyT]

Originally Posted by James81

So, my question for you guys is how to see the thing you are not ready to see? Or, more specifically, how do I get past this flippin' wall?

I think you have described what I have been feeling over the past year, and I think I'm finally busting through the wall. I think the main thing that has helped me was being honest with myself about what I really want out of my life and how I want to live each day.

Then I relaxed. I set an intention to effortlessly create a path toward my ideal life. I kept my eyes peeled for solutions to my roadblocks - and they have been presenting themselves all over the place.

It's so cliche but I'll say it: there's no quick fix, the progress is in the journey. The best thing you can do is think about who you really are, what you really want, and practice being your authentic self as much as you can and without apology.

[ssandra]

I may be completely off here but:

Are you afraid of what is on the other side of the wall? Not logically, but emotionally?

[Tanja]

Originally Posted by StacyT

The best thing you can do is think about who you really are, what you really want, and practice being your authentic self as much as you can and without apology.

Wow, excellently put Stacy!

Originally Posted by ssandra

Are you afraid of what is on the other side of the wall? Not logically, but emotionally?

I know the question is not directed at me, but since I'm in a somewhat similar situation, ...I personally do feel a bit of fear, but I think that's normal when facing a ''breakthrough''..just the fact that is something new. But for the most part it's a sense of excitement, curiosity and just wanting to find out what's on the other side of the 'wall'' ...no matter what it is it'll bring me a sense of relief...then I can take it from there...
I don't know if anyone else feels/felt the same.

[ssandra]

Originally Posted by Tanja

Wow, excellently put Stacy!

I know the question is not directed at me, but since I'm in a somewhat similar situation, ...I personally do feel a bit of fear, but I think that's normal when facing a ''breakthrough''..

Ok, maybe once you've released that last bit of fear you will realize that you are already on the other side of the wall??




* disclaimer... I don't even have a wall in sight at the moment so I'm definitely not the person who leads by example.
However, my strong skills lie in training and teaching, even when I cannot do myself. If you can use what I say, use it, if not, don't.

[Tanja]

Yes, you might be on to something!

I keep looking for the wall in front of me...but it might as well be behind me...hmm..*brain short-circuit*

Thanks ssandra! food for thought...

[StacyT]

Originally Posted by Tanja

Wow, excellently put Stacy!

Aw, shucks