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[ssandra]

Hi all,

Just wanted to let you share on my progress on my emotional mastery.

I just talked to my dad.

I called him, I appologized for not calling on his birthday (2 weeks ago, they are back home since saturday). Because I didn´t call him on his birthday (I just send a text) he send back my present with a letter. I still have to receive it, as he send it today. He wouldn´t talk to me, just said that he send the letter and that would explain things.

(ow and this is the first time in 3 years that I actually asked to talk to him on the phone, only talking to my mom).

I cried. Of course.. feeling rejected by my dad should be something I am used to, yet it still hurts.

But I am ok again now, and I was ok only 10 minutes after the phone call. I love him, it is ok if his love is conditional. I don´t need it anymore, nor do I need his approval or disapproval.

My life is ok, just the way it is. And so am I.

I´m going to my moms birthday next week, we´ll see if he actually talks to me then. I hope I received his letter by then because I want to know what it says.

Against better judgement I am hoping for an open dialogue. If it is just more drama that is ok. I have a choice, and I choose not to get dragged into it again.

He can live life as he thinks he "should". He will not drag me down to that level ever again.

This is good news.

Anybody feeling masochistic and want to read more about my relationship with my dad can do so here Poor relationship with father (didn´t want to hijack other thread)

[MarcusGreene]

Father, I do love you so, why do you treat me this way? What can we do do heal this separation so that we may love one another?

Now, ssandra, you did not think you could get away unscathed.... did you?

For you, as Channeled, and for all other readers here - As Given :

When there is a battle of the will, in all cases, there are no winners. Families, in human terms, contain your most intimate relationships. So the unit of people involved contain a much richer environ for experience and growth than you presently understand. What you are all-ways saying, no exceptions now, in all of your seeming hatred, anger or dislike, is contained in the first sentence above, period. (The one in bold).

Read carefully, and if you dont understand, read for ever-more until you do. Your relationship begins to flesh out into physical reality firstly in your mind. I want you to go back, recounting the memories, feeling the pain, feeling it strongly now in your current emotions. Let yourself ride the current pain back to early childhood, or pre-teen when you began to assert your independant voice - your personhood began to develop.

Riding the pain back towards certain events - let them play out in your mind, without judgement, your job is to feel them. You may recount the clothing drama in school and the battle with your father. FEEL IT now. Your purpose with this exercise is to find the incipient belief in that moment. You decided "My father doesnt accept me as I am" - thusly - you have lived that for 15 or so years. You need to find the beliefs of the child, by following the child through the events. By, again, feeling them, letting the emotion peak, feeling the child, all the while giving love, and guiding her through saying "It will be allright, we will never have to feel this way again".

Finding the belief will allow you to comprehend the mindset of the child and the adult - uncovering the real intent - and in that moment you can cry for her, together, and release those emotions. In the releasing, you will naturally and automatically (as an adult now, comforting the child) change that original misguided belief. You have gone into the past - changed it - changing your present and future.

You will thusly picture in your mind completely different portraits of your relationship from now on, and from that internal place - by taking action inside now, you will change physical reality - no exceptions.

Lastly and for your edification as a side note: Each member of the family unit - the close intimate group - will exhibit (give expression to) some form of the repressed personality of the others. Each human will be different, but in so doing each can look upon the other and learn about themselves. One may be introverted and shy, secretly wishing to be more outspoken (more like you), while you are the extrovert, you see - In each family unit, again, intimately, there is great potential for growth and learning.


So you rethink what has been said here, re-read it and paste it on your wall.

This isnt the first sojourn with your father, now, think about that - You will repeat this framework until the lesson is finished. Which can be today, if you wish.

We love you and always our Best Regards


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