30 Day Trial - Being Nice To My Mother

[I PLAY COMPUTER GAMES]

I kinda like cruise control, things are progressing successfully... just I know from experience what can happen when someone gets lulled into a feeling like everything's safe and nothing could possibly go wrong.

Think I might need 2 begin some other 30 day trial very soon and keep a centrallized 30 day trial notebook to cover all trials

Feelin very stagnant with this trial even though I know I haven't even reached my record # of days of not going off on my mother... and even once I reached it, would be silly to assume the habit has been released

Silly indeed!

[I PLAY COMPUTER GAMES]

Things are going very well, we're getting along as best as I can ever remember. I definately feel like starting another trial to add on to this, but the main things I would do a trial on would be so difficult at this specific moment in time that I feel no confidence in doing them at the same time as this. Another problem is this forum. I'm not feeling like I wanna post anymore trials here, and yet at the same time, it feels like it would be more effective to do so, compared to just writing something down privately, or not writing anything down at all. This probably ties into ego, and harnessing its stupidity. It's just more all inclusive and involving and fun to post stuff on a forum, because of ego aspects, like thinking of others reading my stuff and judging it, checking for responses, etc. If I just wrote stuff privately, there would vastly less ego motivation, and I'd be more likely to feel too tired to continue trials or even forget about them. The ego aspect adds a lot of stimulation... it's crap stimulation, like caffeine, which ultimately drains energy, but at this stage of the game it appears I can only get myself to do things with said stim. For now nayway

Ah what ever shall I do? We shall c

[I PLAY COMPUTER GAMES]

Success remains on this front, but a lot of energy is still being drained on disagreements... like anything that doesnt' agree with me immediately has to be picked on and put down. To improve this trial I'm going to have to do something about that. Things are already very good, relatively speaking, but they can be much better... "being nice" to my mother merely meant not going off on her.

I recall very clearly that when I was altering my diet and fasting, this disagreement thing wasn't a problem either... I could argue with her endlessly, but not be bothered, I'd be happy (a very strange thing indeed!)... very odd... it appears to be time to investigatge further, make further observations

[I PLAY COMPUTER GAMES]

Thanks everyone for helping me keep focused on this trial. My time here has come to an end. Catch you on the flip side

[ang569]

wow.....

[AlexH]

I Would say forget everthing that has happen, and just as an experiment try this:


Give you mom a hug, and tell her that you are sorry for the way you act and you want to be better.
I know it will be difficult for you to do, as I have read this entire thread. just try it, you may be surprized by the outcome....

Maybe your mom has something to apologize for also...maybe she has something she wants to tell, but never gets the chance with all the arguing.

[Lenevia]

I am hoping you're secretly checking up in this thread while recording your process privately.

I think it's great that you're trying is 30-day trial of being nice to your mother. I can only imagine how challenging it is, and even if it's not a solution, I think it's better than letting yourself react to your mother negatively. Maybe after deconditioning yourself, you can see the relationship in a different light and see other areas you can improve.

I also have a complicated relationship with my mother, and hated her most of my life. I disliked all comments from the "happy people" saying I shouldn't hate her and be grateful and such. But the truth is my mother annoys the hell out of me. I've moved out and feel a lot better but I immediately get irritated and moody when she calls me (Just something about her voice).

I personally feel it's important to gain peace in your life and I feel a healthier relationship with your mother will help. Also, try not to be afraid of being judged. We're just strangers on forums whose opinions only matter to the extent you let it. I hope your trial is going well.

[kwicherbichen]

LOL! Wow! I am very glad you are going to be nice to your mother. I really think that is incredibly disrespectful to cuss out your mother just because you were "annoyed". And I can't believe your mother actually stands for that... but anyway, I hope the trial is going good. Maybe get some anger management?