Life is pretty bad

[CroMagna]

Originally Posted by BlackWigger

I guess it wouldn't really matter anymore.

Damn, maybe if I was socially normal all of this wouldn't be happening. Actually it would be not it wouldn't be as bad.

Are you still depressed??

[Plays With Life]

Originally Posted by BlackWigger

Cuz they won't kill me.

Are you sure about that? You won't know 'til you try.

[BlackWigger]

Originally Posted by CroMagna

Are you still depressed??

Yes, why shouldn't I be ?

[spirit4711]

How long do you want to stay depressed?

[BlackWigger]

Originally Posted by spirit4711

How long do you want to stay depressed?

I don't know really... I kind of got a goal now but I don't see me achieving it in any way. So I guess until I die/kill myself.

[alainplus]

BlackWigger, let me break it down to you Randy Jackson style. Yo dawg... Noone here truly cares about you. We don't know you. When this thread is buried years from now and Steve Pavlina is president of the USA, well, all that's left is you. Now you're either going to be
1. Dead.
2. Still posting fake suicidal notes on the internet and selfishly enlisting the energies of people who could be helping people who actually want to be helped
3. In Jail because you did something stupid. You're clearly not stable and you might do something stupid w/o realizing
4. In a mental institution
5. or you could be on track to succeed Steve as president.

Now, of course I'm using the oval office metaphorically. But think long and hard. Get some help. It doesn't have to be professional services. Go to help groups, Read books about people who overcame what you're going through. Go exercise and eat right too.

Whatever your road, you made the conscious decision to pick that road. It's all on YOU. Noone made you do anything. If you want your freedom, fight for it. Your own brain is telling you to kill yourself. Your own brain. You should at least have control over your brain, if nothing else.

BlackWigger, imagine if you will a 12 year girl who had the same predicament you have now. She came to you for advice b/c her parents were dismissive when she brought it up. Would you advise her to kill herself?

So, come on. Six pages. Many more months you've wasted. Come on, get up. Life is not that hard. 6 billion people have managed to thrive. Live your life then comment on it. It's like you're ruining your own movie before you've even created. One day you'll face the difficulty I'm having with you right now. So... get up.

[BlackWigger]

Originally Posted by alainplus

BlackWigger, let me break it down to you Randy Jackson style. Yo dawg... Noone here truly cares about you. We don't know you. When this thread is buried years from now and Steve Pavlina is president of the USA, well, all that's left is you. Now you're either going to be
1. Dead.
2. Still posting fake suicidal notes on the internet and selfishly enlisting the energies of people who could be helping people who actually want to be helped
3. In Jail because you did something stupid. You're clearly not stable and you might do something stupid w/o realizing
4. In a mental institution
5. or you could be on track to succeed Steve as president.

Now, of course I'm using the oval office metaphorically. But think long and hard. Get some help. It doesn't have to be professional services. Go to help groups, Read books about people who overcame what you're going through. Go exercise and eat right too.

Whatever your road, you made the conscious decision to pick that road. It's all on YOU. Noone made you do anything. If you want your freedom, fight for it. Your own brain is telling you to kill yourself. Your own brain. You should at least have control over your brain, if nothing else.

BlackWigger, imagine if you will a 12 year girl who had the same predicament you have now. She came to you for advice b/c her parents were dismissive when she brought it up. Would you advise her to kill herself?

So, come on. Six pages. Many more months you've wasted. Come on, get up. Life is not that hard. 6 billion people have managed to thrive. Live your life then comment on it. It's like you're ruining your own movie before you've even created. One day you'll face the difficulty I'm having with you right now. So... get up.

It is too hard for me. The only problem is that I can't even kill myself.
I wouldn't tell that girl anything, but she'd have a better chance of fixing her problem.

As for time wasted... not only months, but years. That makes it even more depressing.

[spirit4711]

Originally Posted by BlackWigger

It is too hard for me. The only problem is that I can't even kill myself.
I wouldn't tell that girl anything, but she'd have a better chance of fixing her problem.

As for time wasted... not only months, but years. That makes it even more depressing.

So which of the five outcomes is it going to be for you?

"It's too hard for me". Yeah, right...

It'll be much harder the longer you wait. You've depressed yourself already for years (your last sentence). So how about starting some changes today?

I fully agree with Alainplus. So far the only thing you're getting here is attention. Way to go...

[BlackWigger]

Originally Posted by spirit4711

So which of the five outcomes is it going to be for you?

"It's too hard for me". Yeah, right...

It'll be much harder the longer you wait. You've depressed yourself already for years (your last sentence). So how about starting some changes today?

I fully agree with Alainplus. So far the only thing you're getting here is attention. Way to go...

Number one I hope...

I know it's going to be harder, but there's no other way out so...

[Inscient]

You seem to have made up your mind life is pointless, so why bother posting about it on a forum?

As you think death is preferable to living I am genuinely interested as to how you know this. How do you know that death is not even worse than being alive?

[alainplus]

It is too hard for me. The only problem is that I can't even kill myself.
I wouldn't tell that girl anything, but she'd have a better chance of fixing her problem.

As for time wasted... not only months, but years. That makes it even more depressing.

Now that we've determined you're bluffing on suicide, you can stop using that as a reason to get our attention. It's tiring and rude. You think you're worthless. In the grand scheme of things, that's true. Billions of people have died on this planet. Nobody thinks about them. The important people of today will be worthless decades from now just as the important people of the 70s are more or less out of mind. The bottom line is only you can create your own worth. Only you can measure your own worth. Only you can work on you.

I just have a small request. Make a list of the 10 main things that make you depressed about your life. You can work with us or work against us. The side effect of depression is it brings about laziness and when you try to get your life back on track, you can't because you've been out of commission for so long. In a sense, you LOVE being depressed. It wrecks your body and mind, but you've gotten so used to it that you feel down right comfortable. I can imagine that it's fun thinking the whole world is against you because you feel wronged. Feelings of injustice tend to give rise to strong emotions. Now, clearly you care. You haven't killed yourself. You're still eating. Still hanging in there. So stop confusing your mind by simultaneously saying you're worthless. You know you're worth something, even if you don't know what it is right now. Stop trying to convince us that your life is utterly ****. WE KNOW IT'S ****. YOU KNOW IT'S ****. You don't see Barack Obama posting suicidal messages on internet forums, do you? No. He's got his life together. So please. It must get boring just thinking the same depressive thoughts over and over. So just work with us. We're clearly trying to help you. Why in the world would you try to get help from people who hate you. Unless of course you're trying to get us to hate you so once again you can prove to yourself just how everyone hates you. Do you see what a vicious cycle it is? Give us a little respect here and at least follow some of what we have to say. Please don't let this thread get to seven pages and you haven't done one thing to step forward. Just one thing! Be it exercise, eating right, talking more to people, studying harder, working harder etc., just one thing...

Let's say you pick exercise. All you have to do is take 50 steps down the street and back. All you gotta do.

Say you pick being more social. Dress real nice one day (not necessarily a suit but you can if you want!). And ask a stranger for directions to a place. It could be any place, even a place you know.

If you need more ideas, we're here for you. But give us feedback on what you did.

These are not difficult things. If you can log in to a computer and type with actual capital letters and decent grammar, you're not that F***** up yet! Trust me.

[spirit4711]

Originally Posted by BlackWigger

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As for time wasted... not only months, but years.

So you've been persistent in wasting years. Great quality to have! How about using that same persistence for other purposes? To create joy and passion in your life? How would that be for you?

[Erin Pavlina]

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