Depressed

[ar81]

I got an incoming attachment via email, a 911 audio file where a kid calls because his mom is being murdered.
It ends up very bad.

It was sent to me by a doctor, friend of mine.
The message was about getting things ready at home to make 911 calls easier for authorities or rescuers.
But the content as disturbing, it was several days ago, about 2 weeks and I am still depressed because of it, I still can hear the screaming in my mind every time I remember.

I am not a depresion addict, I use to be very optimistic, but this really hit me.
I have worked with kids and that hits me more bacause I understand what it means for a kid.
I also have been under heavy workload at work and with a tight budget, not able to do something different.
Any ideas on how to get out?

[StacyT]

Children losing their innocence in horrible ways like that is very disturbing. I can totally understand why you would be depressed by it. It's why I don't watch the news - a lot of it is horrible and there is no value added to me knowing it.

Read the book "The Shack"...it's the story of a man who learns to forgive his 6-year-old daughter's murderer. But there is so much more to it than that. It might give you some of the answers you are looking for. I cried the whole way through it, but it felt like a good, healthy emotional release.

Other than that, taking a walk every day really helps me (I tend to get depressed if I don't)...it releases happy brain chemicals and that is no understatement. If you can find the time to walk 45 minutes at a fast pace every day, I guarantee you will feel better in no time.

Good luck!

[WordKeeper]

Any ideas on how to get out?
You have picked up that poor child's horror as though by holding it you will lift the burden off him. But it does not work like that. In fact it is the opposite. You must let it go as a way to help him release it.

These lines are from a prayer attributed to Mandela that I read on another forum. I changed the words from 1st person plural to singular to make it more personal but the core ideas are unchanged. They convey my point very poignantly. Listen and take them to heart. They will lead you out.

There is nothing empowering about shrinking so that other people won’t feel their own pain.
My playing small doesn’t serve the world.
And as I let my own light shine,
I unconsciously give other people
Permission to do the same.
As I am liberated from my own fear,
my presence automatically liberates others.

Free that child not by taking on his sorrow but by being liberated from your fear, your pain, your depression. Give him permission to release his sorrow and grief in time. Let you light shine so it will permeate his darkness.

I know you do not know this child nor encounter him. But the concept works in a metaphysical sense and it works for those around you and ultimately for you as well. Do it for all.

[StacyT]

Originally Posted by WordKeeper

Any ideas on how to get out?
You have picked up that poor child's horror as though by holding it you will lift the burden off him. But it does not work like that. In fact it is the opposite. You must let it go as a way to help him release it.

These lines are from a prayer attributed to Mandela that I read on another forum. I changed the words from 1st person plural to singular to make it more personal but the core ideas are unchanged. They convey my point very poignantly. Listen and take them to heart. They will lead you out.

There is nothing empowering about shrinking so that other people won’t feel their own pain.
My playing small doesn’t serve the world.
And as I let my own light shine,
I unconsciously give other people
Permission to do the same.
As I am liberated from my own fear,
my presence automatically liberates others.

Free that child not by taking on his sorrow but by being liberated from your fear, your pain, your depression. Give him permission to release his sorrow and grief in time. Let you light shine so it will permeate his darkness.

I know you do not know this child nor encounter him. But the concept works in a metaphysical sense and it works for those around you and ultimately for you as well. Do it for all.

WordKeeper - I love your answer and I love that prayer - it's beautiful.

[ar81]

Originally Posted by WordKeeper

Any ideas on how to get out?
You have picked up that poor child's horror as though by holding it you will lift the burden off him. But it does not work like that. In fact it is the opposite. You must let it go as a way to help him release it.

These lines are from a prayer attributed to Mandela that I read on another forum. I changed the words from 1st person plural to singular to make it more personal but the core ideas are unchanged. They convey my point very poignantly. Listen and take them to heart. They will lead you out.

There is nothing empowering about shrinking so that other people won’t feel their own pain.
My playing small doesn’t serve the world.
And as I let my own light shine,
I unconsciously give other people
Permission to do the same.
As I am liberated from my own fear,
my presence automatically liberates others.

Free that child not by taking on his sorrow but by being liberated from your fear, your pain, your depression. Give him permission to release his sorrow and grief in time. Let you light shine so it will permeate his darkness.

I know you do not know this child nor encounter him. But the concept works in a metaphysical sense and it works for those around you and ultimately for you as well. Do it for all.

I love your answer and I thank you for that.

But I do not like Mandela too much.
Water was free in South Africa before Mandela. Nowadays it is not.
Mandela privatized it, so poor sometimes drink river water and there were cases of cholerae. It have caused some unrest indifferent towns, as water companies intend to profit out of poverty.

I understand the metaphysical meaning you mean.

[ar81]

Originally Posted by StacyT

Other than that, taking a walk every day really helps me (I tend to get depressed if I don't)...it releases happy brain chemicals and that is no understatement. If you can find the time to walk 45 minutes at a fast pace every day, I guarantee you will feel better in no time.

Good luck!

Probably I haven't spent enough time to do that.
It is always a rush to meet deadlines.

What is certain is that such disturbing recording took my inner peace.
It may be time to regain it.

[coLLege kid07]

Originally Posted by ar81

Probably I haven't spent enough time to do that.
It is always a rush to meet deadlines.

What is certain is that such disturbing recording took my inner peace.
It may be time to regain it.

Maybe try the work by Bryon Katie...and you might figure out something about yourself..=)