Can't seem to shut my mouth atm!!!!

[ellie]

For some reason at the moment I am really opinionated and gossipy and it's really bad! I can't seem to stop/control myself. This is not normally like me and it's not to do with the people I am associating with.

It's like I am in a really happy place at the moment, so I am just blurting out all this energy and not thinking before I do it.

I'm conscious of it afterwards, but in the moment I can't help myself, what on earth is going on?

When I reflect on my actions I get so stressed about what I have said. It's not like the worst thing in the world but I am conscious that it could get me in trouble if I am not careful.
I have a feeling it has to do with me suppressing a lot of built up anger from a previous work situation, where I was surrounded by gossiping, opionanated people and felt so down on myself for not sticking up for myself and the thingis now I'm doing the same thing as a delayed reaction.

Any thoughts?

[Calvan]

I had a workmate who got on some new meds that kept calling our boss '♥♥♥♥♥'. She said the same thing you are saying, the things would just come out of her mouth before she had a chance to think about them.

So any new meds, or off old ones, or new supplements or dietary change of any kind? I dnt have anyreason to think any of that is true with you of course, just thought Id throw it out there in case you hadn't thought of it.

[ellie]

oh god no, no meds...but my dads bipolar and I was thinking god I hope I'm not showing the symptoms. Yesterday I was extermely hyper, I think it was the coffee I had plus an exciting meeting at work. Then when I got home I was extremely tense and was getting really uptight and impatient and then I ended up with a big migraine. On the rare ocassion coffee makes me really hyper, I don't know it's the blend or a mix of how I am feeling etc. Still that doesn't account for the last few weeks.

Oh yes I have also just added multivitimins to my routine.

[Jarrod]

Watch your thoughts and in particular your chest during conversations.

You will probably notice a mild sensation appear in your chest barely moments before an urge to open your mouth will appear.

When you can see these occur then you can choose to speak or not rather than being compelled.

[funchy]

I used to feel this way sometimes after being squeezed by alot of stress. I think parts of me were just tired from struggling, so the normal inhibitions weren't there.

I recognized this and just made myself be really quiet. I'd be polite and answer co-workers, but I stopped. And I just listened.

When enough time went by, my body recovered from all the stress. Then one day I'd feel ok enough to engage in a social conversation, so I'd talk a little. The tension and anxious energy was no longer driving me. And then I could relax my self-imposed quiet and return to the social life.

The funny thing is that during my self-imposed quiet, I learned something: the value of just listening. If I could improve one thing about myself, I wish I was consistently a better listener.

[ellie]

Hmm the the thing is, I'm in a really happy place at the moment, so I don't think it social anxiety. The people I am doing this I feel quite comfortable around, not threatened by them at all. But there not like close, close friends, but just very easy to deal with.

I'm usually the quite one, that holds my tongue (whilst still judging the person in the back of my mind ), but at the moment I'm like a raging bullet!!!!