My EFT session with Holistic Star

[uberinquisitive]

This past Sunday, I had a 2-hour EFT session with Holistic Star. This was done over Skype, as she is in the UK and I'm in New York City.

I'm an extremely experienced EFT-er, butt I've realized that doing EFT on myself is like cutting my own hair: I can do the front well enough, but I can't see the back well.

Getting to the very core of the issue WHILE tapping is what creates dramatic and fundamental changes with EFT. In this respect, Holistic Star exceeded my expectations.

Before our session, I sent Holistic Star an Excel spreadsheet with my most chronic, stubborn limiting beliefs (I am starting the EFT Personal Peace Procedure).

I have specific reasons for getting an EFT coach right now - my career.

I recently started a corporate "day" job. This job gives me a steady income, but my true passion is in my writing.

I realized, very quickly, that this day job was extremely useful in that it showed me, in bold Technicolor, what my issues are. And these issues affect my writing.

For example - I'm an overachiever who feels like she's always f*cking up. I burn out quickly because I try waaaay too hard. I feel like I'm seconds away from being chewed out by my co-workers.

Reality is - my co-workers are lovely people. Everyone tells me constantly that I'm doing an amazing job. But I find myself filled with anxiety that I'm letting them down.

This sort of intense self-criticism drains me, and is perhaps my #1 deterrent from writing. Writing is 100x more personal than working a corporate job - so if I can become comfortable in my day job (trial run), then I will naturally be more comfortable writing (the real event).

This is the glass ceiling I want to break.

So, she read through my spreadsheet and she saw repeating patterns of "I'm not wanted" and "I'm a burden." The foundation of my life has been built on these blocks - hmm, not good.

Using EFT, we went through my first real memories of experiencing these beliefs. I had the sense it was very chronic - a theme in many of my past lives, and also something I experienced in utero of this incarnation.

We started to bring down the intensity of those thoughts, mainly through using EFT while I regressed into a fetus and later "put on the shoes" of my mother, while she was pregnant with me. It was very very odd, yet very effective. I've never done this technique with EFT before, but I highly recommend it.

Other beliefs we touched on: I can't honestly say, "I deeply and completely accept myself." This ties back into the many facets of "I'm not wanted."

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It's been almost a week since our first session.

Since then, I've noticed a strange dichotomy (which I expected). On one hand, Pandoras Box was peeked into - and it seems to hold a bottomless pit of issues.

However, on the other hand, I feel "lighter." Like I tossed out a small piece of my emotional baggage. This week, I've been extremely energetic and productive. But not in a manic, "I'm gonna burn out" way. My energy seems much more natural, from deep within.

I haven't done any tapping on my own since our session - Holistic Star suggested that after an intense EFT session, I should have a few days of rest. It's like working out really hard. I'm glad I took her advice - usually, I feel burned out easily. But I don't feel burned out at all.

I'm looking forward to our second session (this coming Sunday!).

[Froztwolf]

Thanks for sharing this. I'm realizing that I have much the same issues. My whole path of success seems to be aimed at negating the feeling that I can't be successful.

[uberinquisitive]

I hear ya, Frotzwolf!

I am deeply interested in "traditional" success - being well-known, well-paid, etc. I used to cling to it desperately, like a cowboy riding a bucking bull. But, even though I superficially have achieved a lot of success - it was too hard to hold on. I had NO fun.

Now, I'd like to enjoy the experience. And the best way - to totally accept myself. To clean up all the baggage that is weighing me down. Instead of adding to myself - I want to strip away the unnecessary trauma and memory and cell memory.

[seeker5]

Thanks for sharing that uber! It was interesting and insightful to read.

ps. Congrats on getting that corporate job!

[WordKeeper]

Thanks from me as well. I came back to this board for the express purpose of finding people to talkto about EFT.

I am doing EFT by myself and expected that much can be done with someone else. But I don't have the financial resources at this time.

Share more details if you feel safe enough. It would be helpful to learn more of the details if you can.

I am on the go right now but look forward to sharing what my goals and blocks are as I am open to receiving feedback from people who are using EFT to make significant strides in their lives.

[amixa]

interesting... i just started researching into EFT.. i felt like saying the 'i deeply and profoundly accept myself' made a difference even before doing the whole thing.
thanks for sharing your experience