Trying to come to grips with my abandonment issues

[garentee]

Ah yes I have been doing all sorts of soul searching and trying to figure out the crux of my issues. The story goes as such.. as many who have read my posts know I lost my mom to cancer when I was ten. I felt alone at that point and it was magnified by the fact that my father was pretty much aloof and not available to us kids. His advice for dealing with the loss of my mom was to try to not think about it. I did really well at that. I suppressed all those emotions for a long time. Of course they came out sub consciously and until recently I had no idea what was going on in my subconscious. Recently I have noticed that I feel alone a lot of the time and do not enjoy it in the least. I used to really be ok with it. I have gone as far as creating a career which I work alone a lot of the time. I really do not enjoy the alone time as much as I did, but it is not always a bad thing either not in the least.. I see this as a limiting belief that keeps me from forming intimate relationships. I have recently been talking with a few folks on a much deeper level and I really like it.I guess though that it makes me feel a bit more alone. I do live by myself and due to the circumstances surrounding what I do it would be difficult to change that right now, but it has crossed my mind. My question is that I want to know how to use this limiting belief to my advantage and turn it on its head. It seems like this thought process is standing in my way of quite a lot of growth.Insights? . Thanks G