Feeling "Blank"

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Hey, just would like to read peoples comments about the feeling of blankness. I am always in this. I don't get as much as i know i could out of anything. Like i always remember how great christmas used to be when i was really young i used to pick up on the emotion of the time. I wouldnt say its becuase i now know more, i understand things like chrismas are devalued when your older because you see things wrong with it. But im talking about a genral feeling that anything I do nomatter how much im enjoying doing somthing theres still an overall feeling of blankness to it. I can still feel forfilled by things and happy but.. just not like im there with what is going on, its more like im watching myself in my body but im not me, its like im looking at everything through frosted glass.Billy Corgan The singing of the Smashing pumpkins discribed this in an interview that he always felt the same way and one day while playing for some reason it was like a cloth wipeing his eyes and everything was much clearer, and everybody in his croud was more real.
yeah, I have learned to live with this and it doesnt bother me as much. But i would love to have what happend to billy corgan.
I would like to hear about other peoples experiances like this.... If you felt this way and then it suddenly all came back to you?
Thanks.
Gary.