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[Robyn]

Hi everyone,

My name is Robyn. Thats pretty much all I know about myself right now. Ive been going through the toughest 2 years of my life and im only 24!

Im not sure where to start, i can say that im only numb, suffering from depersonalisation/derealisation which im told is caused by anxiety.

Ive lost myself, but come to think of it i dont think ive ever really known who i am, ive chameloned myself to everything in life. Until I had my nervous breakdown.

The thing is i dont think im being true to myself, but i cant find myself as it feels like layers and layers of skin has hidden me, like an onion i suppose.

All i can feel is a deep hurt in my heart, i just dont know why im hurting. I cant figure it out, the more i try the more my brain causes me bother.

i also feel physically stuck i cant move forward AT all, my life is passing me by while i am at a stand still.

I guess im just reaching out for some words of wisdom or support and no matter how many people have tried helping me, i feel so alone.

Thanks for listening,

love

Robyn xx

[wolfgang]

go to a body movement type class - dancing, yoga, tai chi, taiquando, judo...

[autarko]

Hi Robyn

It sounds as though you're going through a bit of an awakening period so I would recommend you cut back as much as possible of you worldly responsibilities and spend a great deal of time researching a spiritual perspective which suits you. The more time you spend in natural surroundings the better.

YOu can think of your spiritual perspective as your foundations for living.

You could begin by immersing yourself in Personal Development for Smart People - Steve Pavlina then you will start to become more inspired.

It may be hard to get started but you can search around in the dark for something which grabs your interest but also matches your highest ideals.

Good luck!

[mej023]

Robyn - has all of your life been like that or only the last two years?

What caused your nervous breakdown?

You want some simple answers and they are here,

waiting for you.

[DEEJ]

Hi Robyn, I have been having similar feelings recently....

What exactly do you mean by depersonalisation/derealisation? What are the symptoms?...

It seems to me that you are trying too hard to find yourself when if fact you are already yourself! Know that all of those thoughts about who you are not true and they are JUST THOUGHTS, on going process of relating / analysing / judging. You could never be a thought... Stop trying to figure out, over analyse or fight these feelings, or your just going to end up in a rut of struggle... Love yourself, accept and watch your thoughts rather than treating them so seriously...

I would recommend reading Eckhart Tolle - 'The Power Of Now.' Look into 'EFT' (Emotional Freedom Technique), Try a book called 'Get Out Of Your Mind and into your Life, Search 'The Sedona Method' and consider Holosync (Welcome!) but be warned your condition may worsen before you get better if you use it - It's very powerful meditation and not to be taken lightly so let me know if you are considering it and I’ll advise you best I can... These are a few things I have had sucesses with and may work for you!

You can get through this and come out a better, stronger person....

All the best...

[Robyn]

Hi there,

Thanks so much for getting back to me - I hadnt checked it as i thought i would receive notifications via email ha.

I think i have had this all my life, but its come to a head, i have negative energy inside me and my emotions are blocked and numb. I wont go into the other sypmtoms but if you are interested check out www.dpselfhepl.com.

I thikn im angry? I feel sad, frustrated and all sorts, ive got a lot of attachments, i.e my relationship im trying to let go of the attachment and just....love. But i dont know how. My chest burns, im not sure what im not letting go of as this all came out of the blue...

me - what answers and where? Sorry x

[wolfgang]

hey your link has a typo
should be dpselfhelp
I hope that forum helps. I'm not sure, that it may actually allow people to focus on the problems a lot, like telling storys of whatever it is. Of coarse that would help one not feel alone in it. But look for posts in that forum about healing it. I read a list of symptoms in one post and thought - maybe I have this thing too - or get that way at times. yikes.

have you heard of the idea that focusing on issues can make them persist? That if one can make a shift into not thinking about your issues, etc... that maybe helping someone else can start to bring change for the better? That you might have to do something different to expect something different? That's why I'd say try to take a class that makes you move your body. Or go for walks and look at nature. Take your mind of yourself and things that you need to solve. Take a break from it in some way by not focusing on the pain of it all constantly. Maybe you tried things like this and I don't have anything that will help - that I'm ignorant of what it is you are going through. Just thought I'd give my 2 cents.

[mej023]

Answer from Abraham:


Read page 6 article from this pdf:

http://www.abraham-hicks.com/pdf/0504.pdf

[Lauxa]

Hi Robyn, to me it sounds like you are fighting where you are right now. What we resist persists, and so if you want to move forward you have to accept the present. Which can be so hard to do. So I would say that if you want to work on something, make it self-love and acceptance of yourself as you are right now.

[dali]

Hi Robyn. Have you ever looked at The Work of Byron Katie? you will find her on you tube, I found her a big help ,in dealing with stuff, Give her a try and lets know how things go. Life can feel so painfull but there are answers and there are plenty folk around who have found them. Well done on sharing with us, Rest assured everyone wants to see you getting through! Look on it as a challenge rather than a set of problems and start believing the solution is within the problems themselves and you will find it.

[Rosie]

I'm going through a very similar dilemma myself. I'm feeling like I don't really know who I am. Like I've worn this mask for so long that I've become a stranger not only to others, but to myself as well. At first, I became really upset and distraught by this, but then I started thinking about it, and realized that this is actually a really good thing. Most people go their entire lives without ever know who they are. And Yet, here I am, searching, trying to figure out who this person is. You're in the middle of a transformation. You're going through an identity crisis if you will. This is the perfect time to decide who it is you want to be. You get to mold yourself in to anything you want. You get to free yourself of the past you, and become a brand new, improved version of yourself! For the first time in your life, really evaluate who you are. Take a piece of paper and write down 10 things about who you are. Not things like where you work, or what you do, but things that really define who you are

[mej023]

The question: Who am I?

The answer is: Who do you want to be?

My advice: Make a decision. All things begin when you decide.

Your Bonus: You are free to make a different decision anytime you want.


Remember - the most important thing is that you FEEL good!

[The Cloud]

Who is it you are trying to know?