My Work Demons Come Home With Me

[Lexi]

I have a very stressful job which is driving me insane. I can handle myself rather well at work, but when I go home I tend to breakdown, and that is pretty much happening every day now.

I live alone, so the only person I'm driving crazy is myself, but this is affecting my ability to sleep, and as a result, it is also affecting my productivity at work, which in turn is making things worse.

I give my employees chit chats all the time about how we need to separate our personal life from our professional life, but I can't seem to be able to do it myself.

As I lay down at night, I start thinking about the next day. About things I need to do and say, and that usually takes me into a very dark place where I picture myself screaming at my employees or at clients over the things they do. These elaborate screamfests stay in my head all night. Even if I sleep, when I get up in the middle of the night I continue with these thoughts.

I never actually to this in reality, but those dark and depressing thoughts tend to occupy my head every single night.

Once I get to work the next day and folks start coming in smiling, the dark thoughts go away, and even though we have a stressful job, I keep my cool in front of them. It's just when I'm alone that my demons get the best of me.

Any suggestions on how to better control my emotions, or how to completely forget about work when I'm at home?