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Originally Posted by billybrads Will do...how are you functioning today? Have you been able to get some stability in your life, emotions, mind? |
Thanks for asking.
I have some stability, but I admit it's difficult. I will go through maybe 2 weeks where I feel stable, and then *WHAM* I'm triggered. For maybe about 24 hours, I will be seriously crazy. After the crazy day, I spend the next few days in damage control.
I'm currently in a
very complicated situation. About 2 days ago, I was intensely triggered. Usually, I would have emailed, called, txt my ex-bf (yes, all of that) and told him how he has ruined my life and how I never want to see him again. I am taking care of his apt. and cat while he's away - I would normally just leave and have the poor animal fend itself. And then, after the 24 hr crazies, I would probably snap back to my senses and try to fix all the drama and hurt I've caused to the ex-bf and the cat.
However, this time, I kept all the drama to myself. I did go nuts and stopped sleeping for 24 hours. I'm currently barely able to get out of bed, I'm so drained from trying to keep myself level. But...the good news is, I didn't destroy anyone or thing. I was tempted to, but I instead I read Tolle and watched the
Oprah webinar with Tolle, and somehow managed to calm down a little bit.
Today is much better. It's been about a day since the initial 24 hour crazy period. Usually, it takes another 2 days to feel this level of stability. So, I snapped back more quickly - a victory.
I am not sure when I will be triggered again, or what it will be. But who knows? Maybe I will have more success next time. Maybe, one day, I will be "normal."