Help! I cannot decide....

[engendertruth]

Hi there,

I am in a bit of a pickle at the moment.

I am in a temporary office job and there is now a new position (also temporary) now available in the office because someone left. It is a higher pay scale up, my boss said I should go for it. And by all logic it makes sense for me to give it a shot. After all, it is more money, more experience, and it also gives me more time to consider what I want to do in the future as my current position will only last a few months longer.

And yet, there is something in me that keeps holding me back. There are several factors that make me hesitate. First, as part of the recruitment process I would have to do a presentation which I feel a bit icky about. Second, I don't really get on with the person that I may be working with if I get the position. Third, I don't really want a temporary job and would feel more comfortable applying for a position that would offer me a permanent position. Lastly, I am afraid I actually get this position! ARGH!

If I were to give someone else advice on this situation I'd tell them to go for it, logically it makes sense. Yet my gut feeling is saying no.

I know a lot of you guys don't know me and can only go by this message... but does this sound like fear holding me back, am I making up dumb excuses to not apply for this position, or do my reservations sound legitimate? A little insight from a new perspective would be great.

Thanks

Engendertruth

[Freelancer]

Originally Posted by engendertruth

Hi there,

I am in a bit of a pickle at the moment.

I am in a temporary office job and there is now a new position (also temporary) now available in the office because someone left. It is a higher pay scale up, my boss said I should go for it. And by all logic it makes sense for me to give it a shot. After all, it is more money, more experience, and it also gives me more time to consider what I want to do in the future as my current position will only last a few months longer.

And yet, there is something in me that keeps holding me back. There are several factors that make me hesitate. First, as part of the recruitment process I would have to do a presentation which I feel a bit icky about. Second, I don't really get on with the person that I may be working with if I get the position. Third, I don't really want a temporary job and would feel more comfortable applying for a position that would offer me a permanent position. Lastly, I am afraid I actually get this position! ARGH!

If I were to give someone else advice on this situation I'd tell them to go for it, logically it makes sense. Yet my gut feeling is saying no.

I know a lot of you guys don't know me and can only go by this message... but does this sound like fear holding me back, am I making up dumb excuses to not apply for this position, or do my reservations sound legitimate? A little insight from a new perspective would be great.

Thanks

Engendertruth

I might sound like a broken record but listen to Tolle. He has some interesting things to say about fear and ego.

Basically your ego is telling you that by taking that new job means danger.
Fear that you might fail.
Danger that you might succeed (this would attack the self image)
Fear of other people's opinions.

Personally I'm finding the more fearfull I am of something the more important it is to go ahead and do it.

Don't beat yourself up though if in the end you decide not to do this, this is not helpfull at all.

[Angela]

I recommend you let go of "I can't" and try on "I won't" or "I'm ready to" and look at the question from a perspective other than inability, and see what happens.

[Freelancer]

Originally Posted by Angela

I recommend you let go of "I can't" and try on "I won't" or "I'm ready to" and look at the question from a perspective other than inability, and see what happens.

Excellent advice.