Nothing impress me/suprise me anymore.HELP.

[Angelwings]

Dear All,

I ve been a member of tis wonderful personal development website.
I m 21. I m going into major transition right now. I struggled during the period at 17yrs old up til present moment. I ve been trying to find meaning, find goals and find purpose for my life. I ve been feeling very empty/dull about life.
When I came across Stevepav's idea of subjective reality, living consciously and believes create reality.
Ever since then I ve been awaken, Im more conscious about my reality.
Somehow,,.I feel LONELY, I feel nothing Suprises / Impresses me anymore because I ve expected the outcomes of many situations/things because I know i m in control of reality now. That's a real problem. I m in Subjective Reality; life is like a GAME.
I Feel more and more lonely coz EVERYONE Is living in OBJECTIVE REALITY. I m single, i want to attract a mate, I realised Relationship is a game too.
It would be hard to find someone that is AWAKEN and FULLY CONSCIOUS like me. Now i m regretting, I wish i m NOT AWAKEN. I wish i didnt take the BLUE PILL like NEO in Matrix. Should have chosen the RED PILL; remain ignorant, unconscious like most majority of population. I wud fit in better in society.

Anyone understand me? Any ways to be unconcious? I m 21, I think like a 31years old, i m way too mature too deep for my age, i m not fitting in with people of my age group. I feel unaccepted. I know i shouldnt care what others think; its not the point. My point is.. Where are conscious people out there? I cant see any, I cant have access to people's mind, I think i m the only conscious being in my reality,,,its quite lonely/scary.
I know almost all members of Stevpav are very highly developed conscious individuals.
How i wish i can see/talk to all conscious individuals in real life. I haven come across any in my life,, I m finding increasingly lonely as my consciousness progress.

Hope you all dont find me weird or something.

[Danni4343]

I don't think you are weird at all. I was (am?) in the same boat. People told me I act way too mature for my age. I know exactly what I am going to be doing in the next 5 years. I don't think there is anything wrong with it. Its just who you are .

I use to ask those questions a lot too - the meaning of life/the purpose of life. Unfortunately, I didn't find any answers. In the end, I just told my self to stop. Just stop thinking about it. You can't find those answers. You will have to make them up for yourself. For me, the purpose of life are the short and long terms goals I decide for myself. I live for them and I live up to them.

Instead of looking for people who are fully conscious, why don't you help/educate others to achieve the same conscious level as you? The more differences you come up with between yourself and the rest of the world, the more of a loner you become. Give up on the thought that you will find people like you. There are similarities that bind us with the society. If you can identify them, you won't feel lonely.

[Life Warrior]

Angelwings,

If all you see in your subjective reality is people who are not good enough for you, then that is what your reality will be. I'm sure that you are a great person, so try to be more receptive towards others and show your good side to them. Being smug and elitist about your newfound knowledge is not being a truly conscious person.

Don't take it all so seriously, and try to have some fun with others. Make some friends, take some chances, and change the world together :-D.

[Angelwings]

Life Warrior

If all you see in your subjective reality is people who are not good enough for you, then that is what your reality will be.
Don't take it all so seriously, and try to have some fun with others. Make some friends, take some chances, and change the world together :-D.

I m serious about SUBJECTIVE reality coz i do agree with Steve and LOA.That is why i feel very mature/old; i m very careful self-aware of things now,
This isnt good, coz sometimes in a social setting, I m aware and i cant have fun.


Danni

Danni4343 I don't think you are weird at all. I was (am?) in the same boat. People told me I act way too mature for my age. I know exactly what I am going to be doing in the next 5 years. I don't think there is anything wrong with it. Its just who you are .

I use to ask those questions a lot too - the meaning of life/the purpose of life. Unfortunately, I didn't find any answers. In the end, I just told my self to stop. Just stop thinking about it. You can't find those answers. You will have to make them up for yourself. For me, the purpose of life are the short and long terms goals I decide for myself. I live for them and I live up to them.

Instead of looking for people who are fully conscious, why don't you help/educate others to achieve the same conscious level as you? The more differences you come up with between yourself and the rest of the world, the more of a loner you become. Give up on the thought that you will find people like you. There are similarities that bind us with the society. If you can identify them, you won't feel lonely.

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I didnt find any answers to meaning of life/purpose also. I do agree with u about focusing on GOALs.
I wish i m not concious/mature. Sometimes, being too muture just stops me from doing things i thought is pointless but really its alot of fun.
I do feel lonely of having different conscious level than most people.
I noticed the similarities within society is ACCEPTANCE. Everyone want to be accepted and blend in with the group.

[CeciL]

Ahhh the rabbit hole of subjective reality...

The reason why it is regretful to take the "blue pill" is because true reality is worse than the artificially imposed one.

If this is the case enlightened one why are you creating such a bad true reality?

The problems you explain are more of an objective reality nature. No acceptance and no fun with peers, all the while it being their ignorant fault.

I imagine you are the introvert type and your new learnings intensified this because generally speaking you would be hard pressed just to find someone one on the street who even knows what subjective reality means resulting in no one to talk to about this sort of thing.

There is an elitist attitude going on. Your no better than anyone else because you read about and feel you understand subjective reality. There are people who never heard of subjective reality and are more "awakened" and "conscious" than you'll ever be. 5 years down the road and you'll see your 21 year old self was an idiot. 5 more years and you'll see your 26 year old self was an idiot. That's life and it's guaranteed to happen.

If you cannot come out of your no fun shell while your out try a few drinks and that'll lower your conscious to an idiots level so you can have a chance at fun...

[Dan.Linehan]

Stop trying to fit in and go do something useful.

[mikeee]

Originally Posted by Angelwings

Dear All,

Ever since then I ve been awaken, Im more conscious about my reality.
Somehow,,.I feel LONELY, I feel nothing Suprises / Impresses me anymore because I ve expected the outcomes of many situations/things because I know i m in control of reality now. That's a real problem. I m in Subjective Reality; life is like a GAME.
I Feel more and more lonely coz EVERYONE Is living in OBJECTIVE REALITY. I m single, i want to attract a mate, I realised Relationship is a game too.
It would be hard to find someone that is AWAKEN and FULLY CONSCIOUS like me. Now i m regretting, I wish i m NOT AWAKEN. I wish i didnt take the BLUE PILL like NEO in Matrix. Should have chosen the RED PILL; remain ignorant, unconscious like most majority of population. I wud fit in better in society.

It sounds a bit like you're playing the 'Im better than you because i'm more enlightened than you' game - which is maybe a false style of enlightenment.

I went through a stage like this also, I believe I'm just coming out of it, but I realised that yes life is like a game, its a fun, seductive game. What good is enlightenment if you're not allowed to have the fun?

I believe the more you find out about yourself, the more able you are to jump back into the messy business of life, get all mixed up in it, but be able to step back every now and then when you need to, and continue the spiritual development, always.

If life is a game, its one that you can never finish it finishes you.