in the fight of my life

[kimmy66]

I am a recovering addict, drug of choice being oxycontin. I am now on Methadone but being weaned off. My boyfriend of 51/2 years still uses and has a presrciption for oxycontin, however when he runs out he will buy any opiate available. he was in a bad car accident and has 30 screws holding his leg together. I feel he uses his injury to do pills. Any way when i first started getting clean i left him for 3 months i did it . i stayed sober for 3 months. I missed him so much i went back to him, benn together now for 3months . started using after 1 month. it was everywhere all his friends and him
use buy sell trade it makes me sick when i see people beg for it. but i remeber how good it feels .i have now stopped again 3days clean we are phsycalliy fighting im going in a rage after him to stop and he cant stand me anymore, I cant seem to let go even though there is nothing left. he hasnt been around at all only comes home at night. i need a program or support i have to let go any suggestions?



thanks Kim

[Love]

I think you're brave Kim, and it's great that you're ready to take action.
I've heard of the group Narcotics Anonymous--have you ever heard of them?
It sounds like you are willing to enter a program. Are you also willing to leave the environment that you're in?

[Rosie]

Hi, I think you are very brave too I don't have any suggestions for you, I just wanted to tell you to keep strong. Don't give up

[elastigirl]

thankyou so much for writing and sharing.my brother has fought a simular fight and won.I think its one of the hardest fights.

I know you can do this.

hugs

amanda
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[ChefSalad]

The hardest part of quitting drugs is quitting the lifestyle. That means quitting your friends, including the boyfriend. Until you leave all the drug-tainted elements of your life behind, you'll continue to relapse, and eventually, relapse will become a nasty habit.

I had to leave an entire world of friends behind when I quit oxycontin, as did my brother. We're both clean now, several years later (4 for me, 1 for my bro). I quit those friends four years ago when I quit drugs. My brother quit the drugs but not the friends at the same time. He was in and out of rehab several times until finally he left it all behind. I've seen the same pattern (from afar) from all those friends I left four years ago. A number have quit, and have relapsed. A number haven't quit at all. A few have quit and left the group behind and are still clean.

I encourage you to sit down and really think about whether your boyfriend and drug friends are really worth being addicted to oxycontin. You can't make your boyfriend quit (you can't really make anyone do anything) so there's no way to move on from drugs without moving on from him (and, no, no addict has the willpower to stay off drugs when everyone else around them is using. It's like sticking a former alcohic in a bar.). After seeing your example at sobriety, your new friends and your new life, you boyfriend may turn himself around and quit on his own, and then you can be together again.

(Also, don't go to methadone clinics to quit. They're designed to keep you on methadone and keep you coming back. It's how they make money. Go to a doctor and get put on suboxone instead.)