Life and emotions

[ericwordelman]

What if you're life sucks, but you really don't know what to do to make it better. For example: Your life sucks, and you consciously acknowledge your life sucks, but you have no idea what to do to make it better, so your life just keeps on sucking with you knowing it sucks but without you knowing what the hell to do about it. So it's a weird situation because you're out of denial about your life sucking, but your life just keeps on sucking, but your consciously aware of the severity of how ♥♥♥♥♥♥ your life is but you don't know what to do to make it not ♥♥♥♥♥♥ anymore. So basically you're life is consciously sucking/♥♥♥♥♥♥. It's weird becuase my life sucks and I'm totally aware of how much it sucks and how ♥♥♥♥♥♥ it is but I have no idea what to do. I'm not overweight or anything like that. I'm like 125 lbs physically fit I played hockey for 10 years of my life, played tennis, swam, baseball, tae kwon do, etc. I'm just at a point where I have all these options for long term decisions on how I want to live my life, but I just can't come to clarity on what to choose. And it's weird being consciously aware of your life while it's sucking, because you would think once you become conscious and aware of how ♥♥♥♥♥♥ your life is you would be able to change it pretty easily because you're conscious now, but it just isn't that way. I am conscious and aware now but my life still sucks the big one. So I'm fully conscious/aware/and awake but my life blows. And it's really unfulfilling. And I'm not in denial about how ♥♥♥♥♥♥ my life is either, but I just don't know what to do. I meditate a lot and think that will bring clarity, but I guess I'm just really impatient and get kind of down on how negative my life sort of has turned. I feel like one day I should be able to wake up and just know what I want to do for the rest of my life. I just want to be happy and I'm not happy. People give me all of this advice on what to do but it's all ♥♥♥♥♥♥ advice that I've done before that contributed to my unhappiness in the first place so I don't take their advice. So I just live day by day with this unhappy life waiting for clarity. And again it's really weird because I'm staying conscious through this whole "♥♥♥♥♥♥ period" of my life. I don't even watch tv, listen to radio, eat sugar, consume caffeine, or do drugs or drink alchol or anything. My life just totally sucks and whenever I think about my life it makes me sad because of how ♥♥♥♥♥♥ it is. Any advice on what I can do?