Trouble finding my true purpose

[Nelson]

I used to have trouble with the idea of purpose in my life. This is because for years I struggled with my belief system. It wasn't until I made a decision that I truly believed in God that I was able to believe in the idea of purpose. Now I believe in purpose and I believed I had found mine. However, now I'm not sure that my purpose is legit. You see, while my purpose feels like it's very close to my heart and ideals it doesn't match up with my goals and actions. When I think of what I want to do with my life, none of these action become one with my purpose.

I wrote my general purpose as "To heighten the presence of God on Earth and in humanity." and my specific purpose "is to help others be happy by finding themselves in God, teaching others about God's glory and how to heighten his presence in their lives. In order to reach as many people as possible and to teach the best way possible I must completely immerse myself in the presence of God. I will create websites, books, videos and other media to spread the presence of God, this will also act as a way provide for my physical needs."

Now in my heart and head this feels like the right thing, but when I think ogf goals to set and what I want in life I think of very self centered ideas - and when I try to set goals aligned with my purpose it feels unnatural.

Any advice on how I should alter my purpose or ideas why I can't seem to align myself with my current purpose?