Progress? so far.

[Kahuna]

You may remember me, i started out here with 137kg, no friends, no job, no love, no sex and that on the age of 28/29. So i did alot of work.

I lost alot of weigth, i`m around 83kg +- some now. I managed to get a good circle of friends and wider circle too. I have job, after 6 month training, in security business, employed since November 1st, i got a car now. Life should be wonderfull but still i`m not statisfied.

While i look clothed ok now, nakes i`m still ugly because of the loose skin. An OP is not affordable in the near future.

I have a job now, but my bank account is zero, actually, first time in my life i have some dept, nothing major, but well i expected to get work and money would mean less financial worries, though i get my first payment around 20th december, so that is the main culprit here, it just throws me back 2 months and i have the urge to continue my life, like buying more fitting clothing (i only have very few pieces).

I work much, acutally this month i`ll have 219 work hours, only three days off this month except sundays (i`m doormen/ shop detective/ in the warehouse in a big entertaiment and houseware mall), usually working 11 hours +1 hour break. So life is a little low in the moment, i talked with my leader, i hope it gets better, but still, i want a little bit more life.

Love life is still nill, nothing, i have not managed to get sex or love. I got close once, but she dumped me for someone else. Ironically, i guess it was because i was "better" then him. She thinks she is an outside, and has alot of compassion for outsiders, so she choosed him. Funny thing, when i`m around in the club, she is always in a bad mood, even with him, after she has seen me. Anyway i have lost, and well this part of my live is undeveloped and i am very very unstatisfied with that fact, but i don`t really know how to change it. By chance i must got lucky in love, or get laid at least, having a girl really interessted in me. Well Love live is still a bad topic, and this makes me really feel bad about myself.


So i gained so much, worked so hard, and now i`m standing here, and still unstatisfied, not feeling like a winner, and i only know a few minor things to change, or did those already. So much success but i`m lacking to appreciate them.

Well that`s my status with the purpose of asking for a little bit of help, and to inspire some other that you can make something out of nothing.