Lost my focus and lost my way

[Mounds]

Ever have one of those moments where you feel as if you wake up and say, "How the heck did I get here"? I'm having one of those moments.
I was checking out some of my recent posts... doom and gloom, sky is falling garbage. I think it's partially a result of too much forum time. Something similar happened before and I took a short hiatus, a little over a week. Came back and everything was peachy keen!
Other than that, I have a feeling I might be pushing myself a little too hard. For lack of a better explanation, I think I got too focused on money. Thats ironic because the system that I'm writing out involves being hands off with money and taking it's power over you away. It's amazing how we can subconsciously ignore what we don't want to see. It's not that I've turned into a greedy ass, just that I'm spending a lot of time thinking about increasing income. An unhealthy amount of time is spent thinking about it. In the meantime, other things have suffered, like my work. Not monumental disasters but little things are slipping past, that I would normally catch immediately.
Currently, I've got a number of major things going on. My wife and I are trying to get pregnant, we are harvesting our crop and I've got two side projects on the go. Needless to say, I'm very busy and I'm getting worn out.
Plan: shelf one side project for the time being. One is time sensitive (needs to be sorted out in three weeks) and the other is not. After harvest, things slow down signifigantly. Then I can pick up the other side project again. As for trying to get pregnant, the most fun is trying
Anyhow, sorry if I made any of you special people feel bad. Not intentional in any way. I really did lose my way for a bit and also my focus on what is important in life. Have a good night.

-Tim

[lookcloser]

Good luck with all of that Tim. Hope by this time next year, we get see some baby pictures and threads about taking care of them little things
I've been feeling like I lost my way too. Right now I'm working on calming down and starting again with baby steps.

[marinik]

You know it's just a phase. And there is always a lesson in it.

One of the great life coaches said that it is the lessons life gives us and the information we need to learn/hear - if we don't we get a problem. If we don't solve the problem we create a crisis. We don't deal with the crisis there we have chaos.

I hope you get your ducks in a row! I'm still chasing mine all over the place. I get one to stand where I need it the other one goes of exploring!

[Mounds]

I tend to bounce back from these things very quickly and this time is no different. A night's rest, a cup of coffee and I think I know where it went wrong.
The bottom line is that it's really not difficult to take on a lot if it's organized. If it's disorganized, it all goes to hell. I plugged a number of new things into my life and I didn't bother to set up a system to prevent burnout. This has happened pretty much annually for the last few years Start a lot at once, go crazy with the confusion and chaos, give up, regain ambition, start over.
This time though, it feels a lot different. I've learned a huge amount in the past year and I'm convinced I can overcome this without having to give something up. It just takes a small amount of creativity.
First off, a good work schedule. Otherwise I feel like I never stop working. Funny thing is I had something like this going earlier when I wasn't so busy. I didn't stick to it!
Second, spreadsheets. Part of my insanity is stemming from the fact that I don't keep track of anything. Cash is coming and going from sales and purchasing supplies and I don't have a clue what's going on.
Third, checklists. I need to see my progress. I'm going to use checklists to see where I'm at in these projects. Thinking about it 24/7 is the road to ruin.
Fourth, relax! Since I've been overloading myself, I've noticed that my body needs a lot more relaxation, especially in the form of exercise. I like to combine my relaxation, so I'll be watching plenty of action movies on the elliptical trainer.
Fifth, reward. This ones a bit of an experiment... I'm going to see if I'm motivated by the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Anytime I start something new, I do it because I enjoy selling. This time, I'm going to say, "Reach this number and receive this". "This" will be probably be a Mac Book. The other reward will be paying down my debt. Might try an 80/20 ratio here (80% debt/savings, 20% Mac Book).
Man, I feel better already! Thanks for the support guys!

-Tim

[elucidate]

Glad you've bounced back with new understanding of what to implement in the future to make your life less chaotic Tim.

I'm learning that I bounce back from these things fairly quickly as well (in regards to last weeks crisis meltdown)...it's a relief to know

[Caria]

Life is like a roller coater sometimes, and you don't want to go up, coz it makes you scared, and when you go down, it is excitement... you need balanced life.

You need to focus, you got to set goals in you life... I mean you want your wife to fall pregnant, but how can she if you have all the stress load, and there are no time management...

Relax, set time management.. have time for yourself and her... Stay motivated... Wake up in the morning and tell yourself that you going to do this and this... and it is not impossible... stay positive... And when everything get too stressfull, do some exercise.. it really helps, it helps to get your energy levels up..

Life is too short...