Million dollar experiment vs integrity

[neilward2]

Hi guys,

This has been bothering me all weekend and I just can't come to a conclusive answer on this:

Since taking up the million dollar experiment I have noticed sums of money coming into my life that had never come in before, like everyone else says: "very strange". But at the same time I have also been losing medium amounts of money £20 note here £10 note there and last week £60 (all from my pockets) - this has never happened before. Now, I have started to 'cheat' in my eyes to 'try to make' more money (playing the lottery etc)- I've never played before, but I somehow found myself subscribing for no apparent reason - I don't even like the lottery, the odds are rediculous!

Here is the real big one: yesterday, my tenant moved out and gave me £500.00 in rent. The guy was really grumpy and hated me, he took some of the electrical goods from the house and didn't repair the damages either - but i still gave him his security deposit back as he is a very very ill man.

The fact is, he had already paid me the £500.00! He had forgotten about it, I told him straight away to keep it as he had already paid, he insisted I take it and that he hadn't paid - so all in all he walked away with his deposit that he didn't expect to get back plus an extra £500 so £1000 in all.

My friends think I am crazy for doing that, but to me, it just felt right to give him ALL the money back. And I think that is what's important, doing what feels right in your heart as opposed to your head.

In your opinion, was this part of the experiment?! If it was, I hope not as it doesn't make sense to me. But at the same time it felt like a test...... that is the only way I can describe it, a test of my integrity. I feel as though I made the right decision here, although of course the money would have been great. But I would rather have the money I am due in this life come to me in an honest way through sheer hard work and my own making as opposed to dishonesty.

[Illustro Cado]

It's whatever you want it to be. It isn't a test-unless you think it's one. And why would that make it a test? Because you're trying to figure out where your own values lie.

You can make 1 million dollars sucking people off or stabbing them in the back. "The Universe" will let you do it either way. There's no external force judging whether your actions are "right" or "wrong". That's for you to decide. If you want to make a lot of money by a means you consider honest, do it that way.

And for the record, you'll be "tested" nearly every time you make a decision to grow. Stepping out of your comfort zone doesn't eliminate the old pattern. Instead the old pattern clings as tight as it can and you'll be given ample opportunity to fall into it, or create a new pattern which is somehow even less desirable than the old one. Like Steve says, creating a new pattern in line with what you want takes courage.