How can I make my life great?

[sweetbutt]

Hello all of you

I'd love to hear some of your perspectives on my situation and get closer to grasp of it

I think the time's arrived to really discover my purpose. yep. THAT one. the real one.

but there's a little "problem"!!

I've been terribly happy all thrughout these years!
and I still am!!! really happy and I'm actually doing what I wanted to do: a musician

but... let me explain a bit

you should know that I've "unconsciously" been into personal development since a long long time...I'm sort of "planned" to develop myself and become a better person day by day, month by month year by year etc...
but didn't ready any book since I felt this was a natural process... I just didn't think that there could be some wonderful reasources to implement in this process
this until june of 2008 when I bumped into the secret and discovered the loa and felt that, yes, apart from "anything is possible" what more sucked me in was "you can create anything you want"

thru' this year and a half I read many books, a learned many things, experienced many others about this awesome possibilty. awesome.
considering I know that if I'm able to "create" experiences shaped from my tastes and creativity...I know I'm going to live an a.m.a.z.i.n.g. life.

so..."you're happy already! what else you want?" you might say.

but since this summer a constant thought is waving in my mind. constantly appearing (and when it happens is surely something I've got to learn from..as it always happened)
that I'm definitely here for something specific. and I'm not sure is about music. well not being the main pivot.

I'm not sure.I still keep the door open anyway. but for sure there must be some re-balancing and some re-configuring on my "job"

reasons are some and are quite "weighty".

I share two for now.. the big ones

- being part of the "art world" is something I honestly don't care about.
I've never felt like an "artist", never felt part of this system. but there've never been an inside "fight" ... I just never cared nor thought about it.
this world generally tends to a sensible amount selfishness and fakeness referred to certain areas like: photosessions, interviews with awfully idiot questions and so on (talking about music scene I've experienced but more generally the music field.)
and actually this leads to a pretty much narrowed synergic cooperation with human beings

this is actually fine with me. is just something I don't feel want to be part of.
I'm definitely a lightworker


- I do not get any particular "fuel" from playing in front of an audience tough when there's an energy flowing between us and them is great...in few words I enjoy it when it happens but I'm not willing to devote my life to live shows. (this collides also with the fact I'm not a party boy, I don't like go to be late at night and stuff like this... I love to watch the moon, or walking in a forest, or watch cargo boats arriving at the dock listening to "prelude to 110 or 220 women of the world" by jim o'rourke ...
I KNOW I have to flow with nature and its rhythms.

even though there are some other things I'm considering I stop here for now
I'd love to hear your perspective on this

you know, when you start from a annoing situation, from feeling bad, from a terrible job, for me it would be easy to find a way out, to plan a creative strategy to get off the mud...

but as I told you I'm happy

I know I'm in a great position but I feel that my work is "just fine" like steve said about his game dev. job.

and I don't want to that to be "just fine"

I want my life to be great. period.

but most of all: I want to do what I'm here for..I feel there's something

something that has to do with

- playing with creative ideas that bring evolution to the world
- travelling for my purpose (not for tourism)
- cooperating powerfully with other people for the good of the earth/world
- doing same thing with myself alone
- follow mother nature's cycles
- "recreating the joy" (this is something I heard as soon as I switched the radio on years and years ago...it never left me since that day)
- having terribly fun

ok..these are the "safe" clues I focused so far..

I wait for you precious "external views"

ccciao!

[seeker5]

Heya, Just letting you know I sent you a private message. Since you're new here, I didn't know if you know to check your private messages or not .

[celestialife]

Hey! You might first want to check out Steve's blog post on finding your purpose in life (get it here).

[sweetbutt]

I already tried that out. the pin-points upthere come from that experience..

I asked for some of your views since I feel an external perspective might give me a help since actually it might sound like a paradox but my happiness, my achieved things (regarding my "job") are somehow confusing me a bit..

since this summer I feel something knocking at the backdoor...something telling me "ok...now it's time"

for a full transition to something else?

for some major tweakings on my current "job"? (for me is not really a job,...just something I like)

donnow yet

the fact is that I feel I don't simply want to do beautiful things (like I'm doin now) ... it wouldn't satisfy me since I know I've got to do THOSE things first.

I know I will to do lots of different great experiences in my life...

for example I know I'm goin to buy a motorbike and travel a lot one day... but this just "so beautiful" it's surely not part of my main purpose..so it can wait for now

I know it might sound a bit pointless so far but I'd love to hear something from the outside ...trust me

[Manomanman]

You're not being honest in your original post. If you really are satisfied with your current work, you wouldn't be strongly motivated to post here.

I think you're looking for validation. If you want some, here it is: you sound happy.

It sounds like you're trying to get "drunk" on joy. Trying to live life faster than you need to. Just keep riding the wave you're on, and when that wave crashes to the beach, be sure to do whatever it is that got you to where you are now.

[sweetbutt]

Originally Posted by Manomanman

You're not being honest in your original post. If you really are satisfied with your current work, you wouldn't be strongly motivated to post here.

I think you're looking for validation. If you want some, here it is: you sound happy.

It sounds like you're trying to get "drunk" on joy. Trying to live life faster than you need to. Just keep riding the wave you're on, and when that wave crashes to the beach, be sure to do whatever it is that got you to where you are now.

thanks for your input

actually, as I wrote, it sounds like a paradox so finding a certain incongruency in the surface isn't that hard when I write "I'm happy but I feel isn't the right thing"

but I guess I'm in a position that's similar to Steve's one when he was working on the Game Dev world.
it was something he dreamed about when he was younger
it was something he worked for to achieve
it was something he achieved
it was something he was feeling it was "just fine"

but later he found that wasn't his real purpose.

more likely I (lightly) feel the same. I say "lightly" because this feeling is not powerful, is not screaming out loud...it's like a faraway voice that's whispering me something about it...not clearly "you've got to change this or that"
it says something more open ended like
"I'm not sure the "art world" is your world"

then I try to focus on what I love about working in the music field and I find that what matches with my life purpose is:

- I like to tell stories and tales and music, being such a powerful way to touch the heart of people and to enrich the everyday life experiences,
is my favourite "media" to do this.
I've got tons of ideas that flow thru' me so easily that is clear as the sunlight that is one of my most powerful skills.

and til' here still sounds great

but when I think about other parts of the art-music world you deal with when you're a musician, I just don't feel "interested"
I just don't feel I'm part of this world naturally (like jeff gordon is naturally part of the racing world...he can do lots of other different stuff but racing is his main home) I can be part of it of course it surely has been generally pleasant most of the time so far. but I don't want to say to myself "c'mon..it's just fine"... cos I want to live a g.r.e.a.t. life. I know I've got to do it and I know I'll do it. I won't stand to get 3 if I know I can get 10
in any situation

here I'm trying to figuring which one is the world that I belong to. where I can find people that resonate like me and I can easily cooperate with with much greater flow.

I look forward to hear something from you.
I really appreciate it

[Manomanman]

The only way to figure this out is to move outside of your comfort zone and try to connect with the right people.

I was watching Kurt Cobain interviews on Youtube today and I realized how much I have in common with him. I always thought he was an angry person, but he was really a super-intelligent guy.

I saw one interview where he connected on a musical level with Courtney. It's extremely difficult to find the "right" connection with another person, especially considering that you are highly conscious.

This is going to take time. Start networking. BE OPEN to the change you want to come into your life. If you just stay ready for it when it comes, you'll find what you're looking for.

[ehillis]

Read as much as you can and interact with lots of new people, those are the best way to get new ideas and perspectives. It's going to be tough for anyone here to tell you exactly what you want from life, especially since you are already happy, but getting more ideas flowing has always worked well for me.

There's a line somewhere in Steve's book that talk about new experiences literally making you more intelligent. That's what you're after. New experiences, new books, new people. You might even find out you really are right where you're supposed to be! And because you're happy you have the luxury of taking some time to do this, rather than feeling like you need an immediate solution.

[ar81]

There is no need to travel.
This is why internet exists.

[Andrew Gubb]

Haha you're funny

How do you make your life great?

Start with the foundations

[Andrew Gubb]

Originally Posted by ar81

There is no need to travel.
This is why internet exists.

The internet will soon make arms and legs obsolete too! But I'm keeping mine

[sweetbutt]

thanks to all of you