Pattern when experimenting with polarity

[RohanMitchell]

I've had an interesting experience when experimenting with polarity, and I'm curious if anyone else has had the same experience. It is, in short, is about having a peak experience when beginning an experiment with a polarity, and then struggling to regain that experience.

Near the end of last year I did a 30 day trial on using fear polarity, and I've recently begun experimenting with love polarity. With both of these experiments, near the beginning I had a peak experience where I got into the mindset of the polarity very strongly.

With fear polarity I felt like I had grasped the idea of my own mortality and took charge of the situation to ensure I squeezed the most enjoyment out of life. I stopped concerning myself with my obligations to other people and got very strongly into my own desires. I felt very powerful and very good emotionally.

I had an analogous experience recently when experimenting with love polarity. I was listening to "The True Nature of Reality" podcast and thinking about the ideas of subjective reality and fundamental safety. I Got it, and felt safe. Because I felt safe myself, I didn't need to worry about myself and my attention went to what I could give to others. I felt very creative and loving, and as with fear polarity (but in a completely different way), I felt very good emotionally.

Each of these peak experiences lasted for roughly a few hours. Afterward, I had difficulty getting back into the same mindset. When I consider why, I would guess that in each case I had gathered some favourable set of conditions to get into the mindset, but afterwards my craving to repeat the experience got in the way.

Has anyone experienced a similar pattern? Any ideas about what's going on under the surface, or do you have any guidance for working through it?

Thanks!
Rohan

[Andrew Gubb]

Well, it's not easy to polarise fully, and I don't think you can get a really good idea of a polarity in thirty days! I think a thirty-day trial is better suited to a belief system or a particular style of sleeping, for instance.

I found myself cycling between polarities for a long time without actually realising that I was doing one or the other. I think it's better to study up and become conscious of what polarities you are using in your day to day life... you're on a one-lifetime trial of both polarities. If you can't see what you do in your day to day life, how can you choose?

It was pretty interesting to read your experiences, that cleared things up for me a little bit... I remember trying out the "TODAY IS MY LAST DAY ON EARTH!!" mindset for a while without getting that it was totally in conflict with my core polarity. It only made me depressed. I don't actually enjoy doing all the things people do to make their life feel meaningful when they're trying to avoid the inevitability of death!

Thanks for sharing the love

Hugs,

Andrew

[RohanMitchell]

Thanks for your reply I think I get the thing about a thirty day trial being not enough. The trial on fear polarity was enough to get a taste for it, but it felt like I was only just getting started. And looking into what polarities I'm using day to day should be interesting, I think I'd find quite a mix at the moment

Thanks again

Rohan