Thinking about quitting school and doing I don't know what

[zt1]

I've been in school in Engineering for a long time now. I'm 25 and when I got out of high school went directly to college when I wasn't ready. Got kicked out for a year and then went back. I enrolled Engineering because it seemed interesting and I really didn't know what else to do at the time.

I ended up transferring to a boring town for two years with a little different emphasis in Engineering and decided that I would rather have an Eng. degree than a technology degree and I hated the town so I moved back and enrolled back in engineering. I've been at my hometown ever since and my grades over the last few semesters have dropped horribly low and I will have to retake more classes that I failed. I retaken so many classes mainly because a lot of them didn't transfer from another college!

Now last semester I will admit I had some personal issues and didn't really develop any solid friendships. I feel like I keep repeating this cycle over for myself and have wasted soo much time and energy I get completely depressed thinking about going back to school even though I'm only about 4 semester away from graduating.

I've been in my hometown my whole life minus the time when I transferred away but that really isn't worth mentioning minus the friends I did have there were great. But now I have developed some pretty nasty habits/addictions and am thinking about moving to a new town, just to get out on my own which I've never really been or supported myself, and to try and find a job that I like or enjoy well enough until I come to definate decisions.

I accept responsibilty for everything and hopefully will learn from what I call mistakes but I still am no closer to finding what I want to do in life and I have a general ideas of things written down but nothing definate.........
It's just so horrible to feel so indecisive about everything and I know a lot of people here are/have felt the same way so I appreciate the feedback. Thanks.

Also to the moderators I sort of double posted in a different section on accident but I feel I needed to post it here for better results.

[magi13]

Originally Posted by zt1

I've been in school in Engineering for a long time now. I'm 25 and when I got out of high school went directly to college when I wasn't ready. Got kicked out for a year and then went back. I enrolled Engineering because it seemed interesting and I really didn't know what else to do at the time.

I ended up transferring to a boring town for two years with a little different emphasis in Engineering and decided that I would rather have an Eng. degree than a technology degree and I hated the town so I moved back and enrolled back in engineering. I've been at my hometown ever since and my grades over the last few semesters have dropped horribly low and I will have to retake more classes that I failed. I retaken so many classes mainly because a lot of them didn't transfer from another college!

Now last semester I will admit I had some personal issues and didn't really develop any solid friendships. I feel like I keep repeating this cycle over for myself and have wasted soo much time and energy I get completely depressed thinking about going back to school even though I'm only about 4 semester away from graduating.

I've been in my hometown my whole life minus the time when I transferred away but that really isn't worth mentioning minus the friends I did have there were great. But now I have developed some pretty nasty habits/addictions and am thinking about moving to a new town, just to get out on my own which I've never really been or supported myself, and to try and find a job that I like or enjoy well enough until I come to definate decisions.

I accept responsibilty for everything and hopefully will learn from what I call mistakes but I still am no closer to finding what I want to do in life and I have a general ideas of things written down but nothing definate.........
It's just so horrible to feel so indecisive about everything and I know a lot of people here are/have felt the same way so I appreciate the feedback. Thanks.

Also to the moderators I sort of double posted in a different section on accident but I feel I needed to post it here for better results.

Sir, I would like to thank you for posting and having the guts to share your problems, but please follow the rules next time. (Maybe one of your problems?)

Anyway, You have to think positive. Negative thoughts from yourself will definitely bring you down. You are attracting negative vibes. Take some time 5- 10 minutes and just try not to think about anything.

Then after that, congratulate yourself.

Get yourself a pen and paper. Make sure it's a big paper.

In the middle of the paper, draw yourself and write in your forehead. What you really want. ^^,

That should give you a good start of what you want to achieve. Keep that paper in you pocket and check it before you sleep. When you wake up, take the time to think of how to achieve what you want, step by step.

Good luck, a journey starts with a single step.

peace

[zt1]

Yes I do try and think positive as much as I can.
I guess I'll just stumble on it somehow. I know generally but not specifically what I want.

Originally Posted by magi13

Sir, I would like to thank you for posting and having the guts to share your problems, but please follow the rules next time. (Maybe one of your problems?)

Ya thanks mom.

[silicon toad2000]

Learn. whatever you do, learn.

If you really don't know what you want to do I would be getting into the workforce and learning everything you can from the people around you.
You could continue to learn at university but the way I think the people in the workforce have some real experience under their belt.
Also while you are learning in the workforce, you are at least being paid, so the time you invest in the workforce will give you some imediate return, the longterm gains are up to you.

[John Tedder]

Is it really engineering or is there something else that you want to do but are unwilling to admit it for some reason?

Pick up a copy of "You'll See It When You Believe It" by Wayne Dyer.