Ask And Ye Shall Receive...

[Love Angel]

Here is an opportunity for you to be compassionate, generous, and supportive of someone that will truly reap positive benefits from your assistance. I am asking you to help me raise money for a personal healing journey and make a transition from a difficult situation to one of peace, harmony, perfect health and abundance.

I wish to heal my body over the next three months with fresh organic juicing and food, supplements, natural hormone therapy, detoxification, spas, floatation baths, rejuvenating exercise, acupuncture, yoga, energy work and positive thinking. I recently quit my job and ended the high amount of stress that was contributing to my dis-ease. I intend to raise 5,000$ towards this end by my grandmother’s birthday - January 02, 2007.

I believe that this crisis is the one that turns my life around forever for the better. For a long time I lived in a state that Steve described most aptly in his podcast "Solving A Frustrating Problem". It was a state of ‘learned helplessness’, trying to do what I love while struggling to pay bills and put a roof over my head. I'm an artist, a singer with a beautiful powerful voice and I always felt that I had an important purpose in my life. Though I was smart, I couldn't see a way out of my problems, I looked at the music industry and was repelled by the negativity I saw there, unaware that I was attracting my fears through my own negative thinking.

I'd like the chance to turn my life around, to act out my purpose which I have finally found - it is to be a source of love, light, joy and inspiration for others and myself. First step is loving myself. I'm posting this because I believe I deserve the opportunity to be assisted, I am worthy of support and I am reaching out for it the best I know how. "Ask and ye shall receive". I am placing my order with the universe

If you'd like to help, I'd be so happy and grateful. You can send money via PayPal to my email account: DELETED. ANY amount you feel comfortable giving would help my cause. If you are not in a position to help but sincerely want to, I THANK YOU for your caring and compassion. And I welcome any positive thoughts you may have for me, I welcome any prayers and I welcome your faith.

It is my intent to heal not just my cervical dysplasia, but heal my body completely, my emotions, heal my past wounds, heal my life. And set my spirit free to live a life of joy. I intend to have that first baby! And by becoming a healthy person, I intend to contribute to a healthier planet.

I intend that anyone who helps me to this end be totally blessed with excellent karma, health, wealth and happiness.

I will keep you all posted on these small miracles that I am creating

Thank you! Angela :-)

Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. Matthew 7:7-8 (NKJV) (Also Luke 11:9-13)

Addendum - Since I first posted this, I have learnt so much and changed so much, both due to my personal life experiences and your valued feedback! Respectively, my request has changed as my quest has changed;-) so I deleted my email address, I'm not asking for your help. I no longer see myself as a victim and I found the power and faith within me! All the best to you all and lots of love.
I will add a new post at the end, read it if you are curious about how my perspective has evolved.

[Angela]

Angela, I wish you overflowing healing energy and vitality, and the power to overcome your challenges.

These forums have never been a place for money to change hands, and I'm concerned that this being your first post, you're likely to encounter more suspicion and resistance than flowing cash.

I would like to suggest to you that this is a great place to seek personal growth, and if you'd like to benefit here, you might like to ask the universe for what you desire UNDERNEATH your request for funds. But asking for money here is likely to rankle.

Again, lots of healing vitality to you.

[trekr5]

Angela

I send you lots of positive energy so that you achieve everything you may need.

[tc33]

Originally Posted by Love Angel

I wish to heal my body over the next three months with fresh organic juicing and food, supplements, natural hormone therapy, detoxification, spas, floatation baths, rejuvenating exercise, acupuncture, yoga, energy work and positive thinking.

So you're flat broke, but the minute you get $5,000 you're going to spend it on this frivolous crap? I should send you a few bucks for the five minutes of laughter you have provided for me. No, no, no...thank you! And Merry Christmas!

[Angela]

Originally Posted by Love Angel

It is my intent to heal not just my cervical dysplasia, but heal my body completely, my emotions, heal my past wounds, heal my life.

I wish I had read this more carefully before I responded previously. Cervical dysplasia is the appearance of abnormal cells in a pap smear -- very common, very treatable. I've had it; most women I know have had it. Go to the free clinic, get your cells frozen off, POOF! you're done.

Then start contributing instead of scamming.

[Love Angel]

This isn't a scam. But if you don't feel comfortable giving me money, DON'T. I'm not putting a gun to anyone's head. It was an idea I had, and I thought why not try it and see what happens? Angela first gave me a very kind response and I was grateful for that ALONE.

Originally posted by Angela view post
Angela, I wish you overflowing healing energy and vitality, and the power to overcome your challenges.

Her kind words alone filled me with a sense of joy. But look how easily a few negative comments from others changed her mind and allowed fear to enter it - are we so fickle or insecure that we can turn from love to fear and hate so easily?

I'm glad I posted this in the 'character and contribution' part of the forum, because it is a good test of character - mine AND yours. I took a chance knowing that some people may not trust my intentions and now instead of people wishing me well, I'm under the fire. But what if there is truth to what I'm saying? What if I am somebody who has suffered a lot and you are adding to my suffering by posting comments that are judgemental, assuming, mistrusting, insulting, sarcastic and demeaning -

Original post tc33 view post
So you're flat broke, but the minute you get $5,000 you're going to spend it on this frivolous crap? I should send you a few bucks for the five minutes of laughter you have provided for me. No, no, no...thank you! And Merry Christmas!

tc33, if you come to this forum seeking insight on character development, the first thing you need to start with is dropping the sarcasm. Steve talks about overcoming his sarcastic tendencies in his very first podcast, "Intro". What's at the root of needing to put others down for you? Mistrust? A need to feel superior? Is being a 'smart person' for you about avoiding being fooled? Or looking down at the 'dummies'? Open your heart to love, and you'll see, there is a whole world out there, safe, caring, loving, trusting, welcoming... We can put intellect to positive use without surrounding our intelligence with an aura of negative energy. Eventually tc33 you will evolve, and manifest your unique gifts in the positive - 'sarcasm' will become a clever wit that seeks to harm no one, but rather uplifts as it enlightens others. Your intellect is fine, that is not the problem. You need to change its focus and look for ways to create positive opportunities for yourself and others. Insulting me only created an opportunity for others to 'gang up on me', assail my character and use me as a scapegoat for whatever fears y'all carry about being 'duped' - you have a choice to contribute to the universe and others in higher ways. (and I am one of those others! you made a choice that all can see to hurt me and add negativity. There was nothing in my original post that was negative or sought to hurt others. Choose your words with light. Oh, and Merry Christmas.)

This is a forum for smart people, not cruel people. Even if tc33 was 'right' about me being 'frivolous' or Angela 'right' about me being a 'scammer', you lower your vibration by sinking to the level of sarcasm and judgement. And in my own defense I say right now, from the bottom of my heart you are wrong. Everything I wrote in my original thread is true and came from my heart. Everything I asked for was valid.

Speaking of scammers, do you realize how it is we are having this conversation right now, how it is that this forum exists? It exists because many years ago, a big-time 'scammer' named Steve Pavlina sat in a jail cell for a crime he really did commit. He sat and he thought. And then he made a decision to turn his life around, and every step he's taken has led him to build his character and eventually create this site, and this forum.

Do you think Steve Pavlina 2006 spends his time hating on Steve Pavlina 1991 for being a scammer? Absolutely not. He said in "Intro" that he has everything to thank to that person in 91 who made that decision. So if you don't judge a man who rebuilt his character after commiting grand-felony theft, then don't judge a woman who wants to rebuild her life from the starting point of rebuilding her body mind and soul, and turning illness into health. My 'crime' was allowing my vibration to be low enough to cause an illness. But asking for help and generosity - that isn't a crime!

'Discern' rather than 'judge'. You say that the things I want are frivoless.
I was lucky and loved enough to have a friend send me The Secret this week. Cathy Goodman healed herself of breast cancer using faith, gratitude, and 'the best medicine of all: laughter' - watching comedy movies - is that frivolous? Wow, all I said was that if I had 5,000$ I'd spend it to heal myself and bring myself a sense of peace. I have no shame in saying this. There are people in the world with tons of money and they spend more than that on a purse or a diamond. I happen to think that my health and well-being is MORE valuable and worthy than a rock. And so is yours.

I happen to believe that it is an ABUNDANT universe and it will not be taxed or strained by providing people with massage therapy or fresh fruit juice.

If you truly are a generous, giving and loving person in your day to day life with the people that you know, perhaps your fear concerning my post is rooted in the fact that I am a stranger. In one of his blogs Steve talks about him and Erin giving 20$ to a waitress, and what a wonderful experience it was for all of them. Well, in my lifetime, I've been that 'waitress'! And I've been kind and generous and giving too. What goes around comes around. Steve didn't make a judgement about what she would do with that 20$. He didn't try and tell her how to spend it, either. He simply saw that she was in a state of distress so he helped her. He gave with love. I don't want your 5$ tc33 - I didn't ask for money to be laughed at and I'm not a clown. I am someone who was suffering distress and has asked for support.

Originally posted by Angela view post
Go to the free clinic, get your cells frozen off, POOF! you're done. Then start contributing instead of scamming.

I didn't ask you how I should fix my problem. I asked for assistance with the path I have already chosen for myself. I was diagnosed in July. I've had 6 months of intense research and I've considered all the options. How do you know that my body will react to surgery the way yours did? How do you know my condition is the same as yours? I worded my original post very carefully because I was trying to apply the law of attraction. I was hoping I could draw a loving energy to me rather than ask people to help me out of pity. I wanted to focus on the positive to bring more positive. So I didn't go much into my condition. But I will here, so that you may understand my decision. There are 3 stages of dysplasia before cancer and I'm at the last one. My diagnosis was severe and advanced, and the LEEP surgery (done with a hot wire that slices out the body tissue) prescribed by my doctors and consider 'minor' has major risks. Infertility, life long pain, painful sex, I've done the research read the testimonies, and I do not feel comfortable with invasive surgery.

This is my choice, as it was Cathy Goodman's, to heal naturally with non-invasive proceedures. I have recently gone through so much pain on all levels in my life and I don't want to go back there.

HEALING is not about 'getting cells frozen off'. Why do people get sick to begin with? What is sickness, really? I share my opinion with many people I respect - health is holistic, mind-body connection and balance, it is holographic, and the microcosm reflects the macro. Mutated, cancer-like cells in the cervix are just a mirror, reflecting disharmony elsewhere. I choose to HEAL myself, not just treat symptoms. I know and will not go into detail about my other 'symptoms' and health imbalances - I did not think it was necessary for y'all to know all the gory details in order to be generous. But Angela, please. If your health is good and everything's well and you're feeling fine, that's great. But if not, I encourage you to ask yourself what is at the root and then heal it. Don't just snip, cut, burn, medicate. Your dis-ease has a message for you - listen. Then you can avoid the fate of the many women who've cut and froze and burned their bodies and the dysplasia kept coming back until they got cancer or they cut out their whole uterus.

I can see now, even if I don't receive any monetary assistance, there is a positive reason why I placed the original post to begin with - to make you all think, including myself. Steve would at least approve of THAT. Another reason is to build my character - in the past verbal 'sticks n' stones' made me feel like I broke my bones, but this is good character weight lifting for me. I am proud I had the courage to respond. Oh, and one more thing -

Originally posted by Angela
...Then start contributing instead of scamming.

I consider this comment judgemental. You've never met me, you know very little about me, just a few paragraphs and you feel comfortable and confident to tell me to 'start contributing'. We can contribute in many ways and that's why in my original post I welcomed ways other than money. I am someobody who contributes and adds value to people's lives and I would be happy to be in a position to do more, to do grand things. I have moved people to cry tears of joy with my voice and I have touched people's hearts with my love. I have inspired others with my words and will CONTINUE to do so, not 'start'.

trekr5 - thanks for the pure positive energy, much appreciated. God bless you.

[annie]

I think we can ALL learn a lot from this thread.

Seriously....

Evaluate your emotions in response to this thread and it they aren't as charitable and kind as you would like them to be.....what a great place to start your "personal development"!

I certain had the whole gammit of emotions.

(I'm not saying there isn't a place for skepticism....but sometimes it best to just move on rather than reacting.....ya know?

[Shaden]

Lol why need $5000 when you so obviously think that the LOA and thinking positive thoughts will have an effect on your life? Why not raise your vibration without money? You should have come on to the forums and told people to put their money to a use that would help multiple people as opposed to one person.

[tc33]

Originally Posted by Love Angel

What's at the root of needing to put others down for you? Mistrust? A need to feel superior? Is being a 'smart person' for you about avoiding being fooled? Or looking down at the 'dummies'? Open your heart to love, and you'll see, there is a whole world out there, safe, caring, loving, trusting, welcoming... We can put intellect to positive use without surrounding our intelligence with an aura of negative energy. Eventually tc33 you will evolve, and manifest your unique gifts in the positive - 'sarcasm' will become a clever wit that seeks to harm no one, but rather uplifts as it enlightens others. Your intellect is fine, that is not the problem. You need to change its focus and look for ways to create positive opportunities for yourself and others.

You know what, Love Angel? You're absolutely right, and you displayed an impressive amount of moral courage by confronting me on this issue. You are obviously a sincere, genuine and kind person whom I admire. I sincerely apologize for the dissonance I created earlier.

The truth is that I have no idea why I have an intrinsic need to tell the world that I'm a 'smart person' (feeling of superiority?). I know that condescending people create dissonance. I know it, but I do it anyways. Granted, I do it much less than now than I have in the past (yay progress!), but my thoughts often remain. If you were to tell me your story in person, I'd semi-feign empathy on the outside but simultaneously judge you on the inside. Yes, I may have gotten better at covering up the problem, but it remains a problem none-the-less. I believe the root cause of this problem is being judgemental, but I have not yet found a logical reason to be non-judgemental towards others. I'm getting pretty good at faking it on the outside, but this is obviously not a long-term solution. Do you have any thoughts/suggestions?

Now, let's try to put the ♥♥♥♥♥ back in the horse If you would, please allow me to attempt to rephrase my original answer in the form of a constructive, supportive comment:
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Love Angel, you have a good heart. Anyone who quotes the bible, intends to contribute to a healthier planet, and drinks organic juices must be an enlightened individual. (positive sarcasm? ) However, I'm not certain that asking for resources will correct the underlying problem. Obviously I do not know the particulars of your situation, but I do know that the same habits which exhausted your resources will not be corrected simply by acquiring more resources. Regardless of the outcome of your 'raise $5K in two weeks' campaign, it may be wise to consider what fundamental economic issues exist in your life and work to correct those. After correcting this issue, you'll be in a much greater position to spread your positivity to others than you are currently.
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There...was that any better? And Merry Christmas (sincerely this time!)

Tom

[Love Angel]

Hey Tom!

Yes, that was much better, thank you!

Originally posted by tc33 view post
I have not yet found a logical reason to be non-judgemental towards others. I'm getting pretty good at faking it on the outside, but this is obviously not a long-term solution. Do you have any thoughts/suggestions?

Yes, sweetie, I do. You are starting with the outside when you need to start on the inside. Creating an outer facade only creates inner conflict and a lack of integrity, because your inner and outer selves are not aligned.

You can wait until you find a 'logical' reason not to be sarcastic/judgemental, or you can simply make a choice to drop it because it doesn’t serve you and it doesn’t serve others.

Sarcasm & judging others are both ways of protecting ourselves. Judgement is a way of lowering our expectations of others before they have a chance to disappoint us. Or it could be an easy way out of having to work things out with others, or see their perspective. Sarcasm is a competitive and defensive way of keeping the upper hand, but also keeping others at arm's length from us.

Hey, we all have inner and outer challenges to overcome in this life - I’m still learning too. Don’t be too hard - on others or yourself ;-) Cultivate inner patience and giving the benefit of the doubt. Start without expectations of how it will manifest in your outer life. And practice connecting with your heart and your gut - it’s not all about your ‘head’. I know you can do it and that you have a good heart in there - give it a chance to express its good nature more often.

Perhaps sarcasm is something you learned from an important person or experience in your life, maybe it’s the way you were treated when you opened up or were vulnerable. If you go to your root you will find the reason pertinent for you. Then let it go - by understanding its lesson for you, you will be free of it.

Tom, look at what you wrote in your last post:

Original post tc33 view post
You know what, Love Angel? You're absolutely right, and you displayed an impressive amount of moral courage by confronting me on this issue. You are obviously a sincere, genuine and kind person whom I admire. I sincerely apologize for the dissonance I created earlier.

These words testify that you already embody the characteristics you wish to exemplify - the ability to be kind, generous, sincere, to make amends, and acknowledge the good you see in others and openly express the good things that you feel! I'm pretty sure that you wrote these words because of something you felt. That 'feeling' is the inner presence of these characteristics. The words, or the 'outer', they come after and are in alignment, they 'flow' naturally from the inner - that is the process I'm talking about, so you have already experienced it.

And so sincerity, empathy, trust, etc. these are not skills you need to develop - you already have them innately. What you need to develop is your ability to ALLOW yourself to use them! Focus on them. You're really not that far from your goal!

Finally, it may help you to use visualization. There are many books out there with different ones, the main thing is visualizing white light entering your body or surrounding it. Or imagining a bright white globe in your heart, blazing like the sun. Here, I pulled out a book for you, A Practical Guide To Vibrational Medicine by Richard Gerber, MD. On pgs. 92-94 is a good one.

Another great book is Jesse Reeder's Black Holes & Energy Pirates. But don't delay the changes you can make starting today. You know enough already to make great transformations in your life.

Okay, that's all for now. But I will address your new constructive and supportive comments in another post, because I liked what you said. I will also address Shaden's post because he raised good points. But for the next couple of days, I will take some time to rest.

Happy Holidays Everyone!

[Angela]

....and if THAT doesn't work, try asking people for money!

[ReallyGoodIdeas]

Hey LoveAngel,

I sincerely wish you well with your recovery. I believe that you have the ability to heal your cervical dysplasia with love and the belief that you are well. And from what I've read I see you have the maturity and the right attitude to succeed with it. On the practical level, I'm not in a position to contribute financially right now, but there are many other types of prosperity apart from money. I teach EFT to people and would be more than happy to contribute my EFT knowledge to your situation. In fact since I've been doing EFT I've been fascinated by the mapping that can be observed between particular illnesses and injuries and where they occur against particular emotional issues. If you're at all interested in using EFT as part of your recovery, contact me and I'll do everything I can to contribute to your healing.

On the emotional/spiritual level, I send you love and peace, and intend for your healing to be fast and complete.

Much love and joy to you
Hazel